-1Chapter 2: Time to give up
The next few weeks were passing in a whirl of sadness for Raven. She cried almost ever night. She got upset every time she saw BeastBoy and she would feel tears fall down her face. He saw a few times, but said nothing. He just ignored her. Raven felt so ill. She kept making things implode. Until one day she decided to give up. What was the point in mourning over something she was never going to get. BeastBoy was in love with Terra and Terra only. Even though she was gone now, he was still in love with her memory.
December was apon them. Vicious winds ripped through T-tower, making them all freezing. Starfire, who was learning about Christmas, was overjoyed and could be heard singing Christmas carols while putting tinsel up everywhere she could reach. She had tried to get into Raven's room, but Raven refused to let her decorate the room. Raven wandered out of her room one morning, yawning and pulling her hood up, when she bumped into Cyborg.
"Good morning' Raven!" He said cheerily.
"Hey," Raven said in her monotonous voice.
"This is gonna sound weird, but is there anything wrong? You sound even more depressed than usual. Can I help?" He asked, trying to peer under her hood.
"There's nothing wrong. Thanks for your concern though," Raven answered, bowing her head and walking past him toward the kitchen. She was ready to walk in when she saw BeastBoy in there. Oh god, he's probably still upset about Terra the Terrible… Raven thought. She walked in, avoiding eye contact with him.
"Hey Raven!" He said cheerfully. Raven, luckily, had her back to him, so he didn't see the surprised look on her face. He was actually happy.
"Hello," She said blankly, pouring out a bowl of cereal for herself.
"How are you?" he asked, grinning.
"Spiffing," She replied, sarcasm dripping from her voice. She picked up her Cornflakes and a small carton of milk and left the kitchen, unable to remain in the same room as him. She contemplated hitting him, but that would only tear the Titans apart. She no longer felt anything but hate for him. She walked down the corridor and instead of going to her room, she went to another room, it was just a store cupboard, but she knew that no-one would think of looking here for her. She began eating her Cornflakes, pulling a book out of her robes and flicking to her page.
"Raven? RAVEN?" Robin, Cyborg, Starfire and BeastBoy had all been shouting her name for about a hour now. They couldn't find her. She was happy alone, she could think about anything she wanted without being interrupted. She was right now, thinking of them. She loved her friends. Starfire was a little on the shrill, glompy, annoying side, but she loved her as a true friend. She hated going to the mall with her, but done it to make her happy. When Starfire was sad, Raven felt guilty and sad herself. Star was just such a loveable, naive person that she couldn't bring herself to shout at her or make her upset. Robin… Robin was a laugh and a good leader. He and her had always had a kind of connection. Not in the romantic way, in a Twin brother way. Robin just wasn't Raven's type. He somehow always knew the right things to say and when to say them. He also respected her privacy. She could shout at Robin, but she knew he would never take anything to heart, because he knew that inside, Raven just wanted to have space. Cyborg was great. Raven really liked him. He was like a kind of big brother to them all. He was obsessed with cars, and flirted with random girls that he found attractive. He was protective and he would stick up for her in the blink of an eye. He wasn't her type either. BeastBoy was a good friend. Raven had thought he was comical, even if she never showed it. She thought he was so cute, especially when he was messing up. He was really nice too, he would have made sure she was okay, but the Terra marched in and everything blew up her face. He fell head over heels in love with her. What for? Well, she was beautiful, Raven was going to give her than. She had nothing on Terra in the looks department. Terra had befriended them, betrayed them, and then taken her life to show how devoted she was to them. Raven felt ill. Terra had known. She had caught Raven gazing absently at BeastBoy. She had caught her give a little smile when he gave a really corny joke and laughed himself stupid at it. Terra had known all along, so why, if she was so devoted, do this to her? She shouldn't have stolen BeastBoy from her. Thanks Terra, thanks a lot… Raven muttered. She stood up, her back and legs stiff from sitting in the same position fro hours on end. She walked out of the closet and walked towards an open window. She jumped out, but not fast enough. Robin had caught a glimpse of her cape as she flew up wards. He said nothing. He knew what was wrong with her, but it was her business. A battle raged inside him. He cared about Raven, but he respected her privacy. He didn't know how she now felt… he would have to talk to her…