Chapter 4: Dancing

Zack was up early the next day, eager to go out with Mimi again. Cody was up too, but he felt like crap and took no interest in his brothers well groomed hair and well picked clothes. Instead he was reading a book, still in his Pjs.

"Do you ever do anything except read?" Zack asked as Cody peered over the top of his book.

"No. I don't have a life like you. Girls think I'm some kind of a disease, Tapeworm and max are out of town, and I'm not stooping as low as calling up Agnus, so I sit at home all day while you go out and have fun. Because for some reason, Cody is always the twin without a friend, and the twin without a brother these days." Cody fumed.

"Listen Cody! I will not give up my personal life for you. You aren't someone that I revolve around. I gave up belle for you dammit, and I will not give up Mimi. Why don't you just get a life like everyone else? I mean, you aren't going to if you sit and read all of the time!" Zack yelled and ran out of the suite slamming the door.

"Zack's right." Cody said aloud. "I am a loser. I'm the dork that everyone says I am. Zack probably hates me, and i have no friends. I know i sound selfish, but Zack is my only real friend, excpet Max. I don't really talk to Tapeworm much. I am alone. I am hated, and I am ashamed of myself." Cody thought quietly as tears fell from his eyes. For some reason, Cody was pissed at himself. He threw the book that he was reading into the wall. Then he punched the wall. It hurt, but it wasn't enough for him. He went into his bedroom, and punched a mirror beside his bed on the wall. The glass stuck in his hand as he yelled in agonizing pain. Blood dripped fast from his fist.He cried more as he got onto his bed.

Zack had already met Mimi in the lobby and they were now across the street at a teen club called. 'Revenge'.

"Do you wanna dance?" Zack asked Mimi as she watched several other teen girls dance with their boyfriends.

"Yes." Mimi said as she and Zack got up at the same time. As they danced, they continued talking.

"So, how's Cody?" Mimi asked.

"He's okay. We had a little fight this morning, so he's probably mad at me. I didn't mention that I was sorry, but I never do anyways." Zack said.

"What about?" Mimi asked carring on the conversation.

"Well...Brother stuff." Zack responded not wanting to tell Mimi that the fight was kind of about her.

"Oh, And what about belle?" Mimi asked feeling strange.

"I haven't talked to her, and I don't intend to either." Zack smiled.

"Good, she seems bitchy." Mimi said.

""Actually, she's not like that once you get to know her." Zack laughed not understanding why he was defending her. As they continued to talk and dance, Cody was putting himself through hell.

Cody had cut both arms up and down with his razor blade. They were stingy badly and there was blood everywhere. The floor, his bed, his clothes, and on the broken mirror. He didn't know how he'd cover this one up. He quickly stopped the blood with a damp wash cloth, then put on a long sleeved shirt. Zack would be home soon. He had to get the blood of the floor, and dispose of the mirror while washing his bed clothes. It was a race against time. Cody knew that he would go even farther next time...

(A/N) Thanks to my reviewers! Please enjoy and review this chapter as well!