Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts or any of the characters listed in this story or anything Square Enix or Disney related things…
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Let this Go
It's been how many days now? How many days has it been since I've been watching, lurking, stalking in the shadows? Because that's all I ever am, isn't it? Just a shadow, a creation, a fragment of something that never will be whole. If that's what I am, then why did you say those things to me? Why did you tell me you loved me, that you needed me, that you wanted me?
You told me that you loved me, and yet you continue to go after him, go after the one that I can't be.
The lighter side of me.
The side of me that's actually real…
I don't understand. I don't understand these emotions rising in me. What are they?
Hate?
Love?
Lust?
Anger?
Sadness?
…Betrayal?
Why did you have to look at me with those eyes? Those piercing aquamarine glittering eyes that I could lose my whole entire world into…
Why did you have to kiss me? Those soft pink heart-shaped lips that could kiss me so gently and then make my lips so raw and sore afterwards…
Why did you have to make love to me? Your body entering mine…making you and me feel like we're whole…that we were one…
Why couldn't you tell me the truth? Why couldn't you tell me that you only did all those things just because I reminded you of him…The one you really love…Sora…
That's his name…I remember now…You muttered his name the last time we made love…I thought that maybe I could change my name to that…But when I asked you, you just hit me…
You told me never to say that name around him, especially when I say it. He said it gives the name a dirty sound to it.
But this Sora…you're looking for him now, aren't you? You're risking your life for him…You're doing everything to find him…WHY?
Why must you find him so badly? Why must you care about him so damn much? Why must you always think about him, speak about him, dream about him, why must everything be about him and not me?
Just tell me something…Why did you make me in the first place? To help your need? To see something that you thought was your lover? To feed your lust? Why did you make me, and then just throw me away?
You always told me that it didn't matter anyway. I'm a 'heartless.' I don't have a heart. I don't have emotions. I can't feel anything. You told me that I'm just something created from darkness, that I'm not real at all. If that's true, then why can I feel tears pouring from my eyes? Why can I feel something breaking deep inside my body? Why does it seem like my soul keeps crying, 'Riku…Riku…Riku…' over and over again?
Riku…just tell me one more thing…Why couldn't I be the true Sora?
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A/N: Okay, I know this isn't really the greatest story out there but it's just basically a drabble or one shot of mine that I made so I could get over my writer's block. Really, I don't think it's horrible, but I don't know…Well, like all other writes say, please review and I'll be very happy.