Fandom: Naruto
Title: Ambition
Author: KStar
Theme: #27, Line between Love and Hate
Characters: Sasuke and Itachi
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.
Summary: Sasuke Uchiha hates his brother more than he ever thought capable of. And yet, when it comes to love and hate, one can only see gray…
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"Those who hate most fervently must have once loved deeply; those who want to deny the world must have once embraced what they now set on fire."
-Kurt Tucholsky
Sasuke Uchiha hates his brother. He hates him more than he ever thought he could hate anyone.
Itachi was the one who killed their family. Itachi was the one who used him as a guinea pig for the Mangekyou. Itachi was the one who caused him to abandon the only good thing in his life, his team. Itachi was the one who drove Sasuke insane. Itachi was the one who ruined his life. But, worst of all, Itachi was the one who left him behind…
And simultaneously broke his innocent heart…
There was a time when Sasuke loved Itachi with all his heart. A time when Itachi was a god…no, not a god. The Uchihas had thought Itachi was a god and look where that got them. Sasuke worshipped his brother, but on a completely different level, on a whole other stage. He wanted to be just as strong as Itachi and just as cool and just as calm. He wanted to be just like his aniki.
A cynical grin twists on Sasuke's face. In retrospect, he has become just like his brother. Funny how ironic life is.
Itachi told him that he, Sasuke, did not have enough hate yet. Sasuke secretly thinks he is right. Even if he hands over his body willingly to Orochimaru, even if he can somehow kill Naruto to gain the Mangekyou (which will never happen because Naruto is the one person Sasuke could never kill, no matter how much he denies it), Sasuke will still not have enough hate. He never will. Because to hate Itachi as much as his nii-san wants him to hate him, and as much as Sasuke wants to hate him, is an impossible feat. How can you completely hate someone you once loved above all else?
You can't. Sasuke knows he's being played with. He knows that everything he has done, every move he has made, has been through Itachi. Even now he tries to honor his big brother's parting words to learn to hate, to get stronger, to come find him when he has the same eyes as Itachi. A tiny part of Sasuke breaks all over again as he knows that he can only disappoint his aniki. He will never get the same eyes as Itachi because he needs the Mangekyou and the only way to do that is to kill one's closest friend. That means Naruto, and Sasuke is fairly positive that will never happen. (And even if by some twist of fate, he was able to kill the bubbly blonde ninja, Sasuke is pretty sure that he wouldn't obtain the Mangekyou anyway because, really, Itachi is Sasuke's most precious person.)
So as Sasuke tries desperately to convince himself that he will gain enough hate and enough power to kill Naruto and destroy Itachi, he knows he is only fooling himself. It's stupid, insane, and rather unhealthy, but Sasuke can't seem to care. He isn't going to escape from this in one piece, and he's rather indifferent to that, too. Sasuke lost any faith and concern for himself the day he lost his sanity, his family, and his beloved older brother. He hates his brother; he really does. And yet…
…There is a fine line between love and hate. Sasuke Uchiha has jumped the fence so many times back and forth, he isn't quite sure what side he's on anymore. And really, that's what scares him the most.
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