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Proven Trust.
The ride back from the hospital was pretty much completely silent. But it wasn't one of those uncomfortable silences that everyone always dreads having with someone they don't exactly know very well, it was actually okay. Both of them were too deep on thought to pay any notice anyway.
Kagome studied the scenery around her out of the car window. Well she wasn't really registering that it was there, more like looking at it and dismissing the thought right after.
She was thinking about a certain jerk. Well a certain person that she didn't actually really know was a jerk or not. He had been a jerk, that was for sure. But everyone is a jerk sometimes.
Why he was such a jerk to her was the question. Why did he leave her there? Now that she was tainted by his brother… was she too disgusting for him to even look at now? Could he not even be her friend because of what his own flesh and blood had done?
She knew she acted a little crazy that day at his house.
But could he blame her?
After all that happened…
She was surprised she was even still sane after that.
Though according to Inuyasha… she wasn't really that sane…
Jerk.
She noticed a little puppy outside the window walking on the side of the rode. He looked so helpless, the little guy. She watched him as he sniffed the ground as they went by him; he looked look so lost and alone. She hoped he'd find his way home.
"That's how I feel," She thought, "I feel so lost like that… Inuyasha could have found me. He could have made me better. But no. He just decided to—"
"Hey Kagome?" Her thoughts were interrupted just as she felt her face getting hot with anger toward a certain long haired boy.
"Yea Koga? What is it?" She saw the look his face as he was clearly contemplating the right way to phrase what he was trying to say.
"Uhh… What was—uhh… w—why did…" She smiled a little bit at his adorable baffled ness. She knew what he was going to say. Why bother making him going through the uncomfortable agony of trying to get out the words?
"Because I wanted to. I don't know… it just felt right to me." It felt good to say those words. It felt right.
And it did.
It felt very right.
"Oh." He kept his eyes concentrated on the rode and obviously dismissed the conversation.
Kagome sat and starred at his perfect profile. 'Oh'? That's all he could say to that? She was waiting for him to say something, anything, else, but all he did was keep his eyes on the rode and turn onto her street.
Now this was an example of an uncomfortable silence.
She shuffled in her seat with obvious uncomfortable ness and was so extremely happy to hear the words "We're here." He got out of the car after he drove onto her driveway. Before she had the chance to even get her hand on the door handle he already had her door opened for her like a perfect gentlemen.
"Why thank you kindly, sir!" She said with mock lady-like tone. She smiled at him and leaned close to his face, though she didn't kiss him. She put her mouth right by his ear and whispered, "Hey, wanna come inside?"
She smiled, winked, and ran to the door. She unlocked it with the blink of an eye and ran into the house. By the time he had even got to the door, she was nowhere to be found. He had to take a little bit of time getting all her things out of the car, like her school bag and purse.
He put the stuff down by the door and looked around the living room for a second, and then into the kitchen. "Hey! Kagome?" He yelled throughout the house.
"It's hide and seek! Come fiiiiiiiind meeeeeeeee!" He heard her giggle after he heard the voice that had quite obviously come from upstairs. He walked cautiously up the stairs wondering why in the world Kagome was even doing this. Maybe the medicine was messing with her head still?
"I'm coming for you… come out come out wherever you aaaaaaaare…" He opened the first door on the right, after he got up the stairs, very fast and said 'boo' as it opened.
Closet.
No Kagome.
As he reached the second door he opened it slowly this time. He cautiously peered inside at to what looked to him like Kagome's room. Unless she had a sister that was incredibly like her, which he knew for a fact, she didn't.
The walls were painted baby blue he noticed.
It suited her.
Or it did… until this odd attitude change popped out of her.
He wasn't in the full part of her room though; there was actually a corner he had to turn until he was in her actual room. What he was in now was more of a doorway than anything.
He didn't give a second thought to it as he started to turn the corner. "Boo!" Koga almost screamed like a girl as Kagome came shooting from around the corner and completely jumped on him.
She threw her arms around his neck and her legs around his waist and laughed hysterically as he started panting with potential fright.
He had to quickly put his arms basically under butt to keep her from falling off him. Though neither of them was really complaining about the situation. "Gosh damn it Kagome! You scared the life outta me just now!" He laughingly said to her smiling, giggling form.
"Well duh! That was the point, to make you scream like a girl! Which I must say, I succeeded in that endeavor brilliantly." She laughed even more at the red the tint his cheeks.
This was basically, pretty much, really, really fun. More fun than she ever had with that jerk, Inuyasha…
"Hahaha oh my Gosh I totally got you!" She looked at him, then remembered the position they were in, "Oh wait…." It occurred to her she was actually the one who was 'gotten'.
Nice plan…
"Yea, babe, I'm pretty sure I'm the one who has you." He squeezed her butt the tiniest bit to get a tiny squeal, then a massive giggle out of her tiny form.
"So… what do you plan to do with me now that you quote, unquote, got me, hm?" Her look softened and a look of want replaced the mischievous smile that was once there.
"Well, pretty much…this," He looked at her for a split second more and his eyes communicated everything in that one glance. He smashed his lips against hers so fast; you would have missed it if you blinked.
Warmth overtook her body and a tinkling sensation with it. She smiled as she realized how good this really felt. Not really what it was, but who it was with.
She kissed him back as hard as she could as she felt the wall hit her back. Her legs were still around his waist but now it was the wall and the pressure of Koga himself, instead of his sturdy arms, holding her up.
His mouth went down to her neck as his hands slipped there way under her shirt. He felt the bandages on her wounds and would have snapped back into reality, had this not been the moment he was waiting for since his eyes first set there sights on her.
She moaned slightly as he sucked and nipped at her neck. He grabbed her again from the wall as he spotted her bed out of the corner of his eye. He figured that would be a little more comfortable than the wall…
He picked her up while still sucking on her neck. It took a little effort seeing as how he was just a tad preoccupied at the moment, but he finally managed to make it to the bed. He laid her fragile form down gently.
As he kissed her, his hands made there way under her shirt once again. He slid hands slowly up her perfect stomach, though it was covered in bandages, you could still tell it was perfectly toned.
She moaned slightly every time his hands got an inch closer to there destination.
She remembered the last time she was in this position…
With Inuyasha.
Though he had only been trying to get her shirt off to dress her wounds. He didn't really want her. The jerk. "He totally played me…" She thought with annoyance.
She was snapped back into reality when she realized what was happening.
She was with Koga damn it! And she'd be damned if she was going to let Inuyasha's annoying face pollute her mind when she was having such a good time with Koga…
Who actually liked her…
And wasn't just playing her...
(This isn't bad don't worry)
There it was.
She screamed slightly with pleasure as she felt him massaged her breast under shirt. As a response to this she made her way to the top of his shorts. She found the button and undid it.
"I almost wish he was here. Just so he could see what he's missing… how good I can really be…" She thought.
As he realized where this was going he removed his hands and allowed her to flip on top of him. She made her way down to the hem of his shorts and licked the line of his perfect abs that were exposed at that moment. She found the zipper.
She grasped it with her teethe and brought it slowly down.
"He won't ruin my time…" She thought with the zipper between her teeth, "I'm gonna make Koga happy enough for the both of them."
But before she could do anything with what she had just accomplished, he flipped them over kissed her again. He loved how her lips tasted. They were so perfect.
Everything about her was perfect.
She smiled amidst the kiss and forced her hands down to the line of his boxers. They slowly made there way down, the heat in Koga's body rising with every passing millisecond.
"This could not really be happening could it?" He thought to himself with excitement.
Wait… no…
It couldn't.
He came to a realization.
Kagome wouldn't do this.
So why is she?
He had to make a decision right now. Kagome was obviously not her self. She had never acted this way before, and not to say that he didn't like the new Kagome, but he just really wanted to figure out what was up with her.
Time to play that caring hero.
He stopped kissing her and gently removed her hand from his shorts.
"Don't stop," Kagome looked at him as confused as she had ever been. Why did he stop? Was there something just unsatisfying about her that happened to turn all the guys she cared about away or something?
"Why are you doing this Kagome? This isn't right… it's not like you at all. So what is making you act like this?" He didn't get off her, but he wasn't making any attempt to kiss her at all either, his face was completely serious at this moment.
"Come on Koga…" She seductively smiled at him and attempted to get her hand to the rim of his boxers once again. But his hand stopped her before she was even close.
"I'm serious Kagome. You're not yourself. You really haven't been all week."
"I'm fine." Her look hardened as she said it. Why did he have to go and ruin such a perfect moment by reminding her of all the reasons why she definitely wasn't fine?
"You really aren't. You never paid and sort of attention to me like this before. You never even gave a hint that you were interested in me like this. So why now?"
She searched his eyes. They were totally and completely lost. Everything about his face was confused at this moment. "Because I need you right now Koga. I need to someone who I truly care about to find me." She hoped he wouldn't ask anymore questions, it was hard enough for her to say this much. She just wanted what she wanted, then she could be done.
He really had no idea what she meant by 'find me' but he figured he could ask about that later. "This isn't the way you know. This isn't the way to show someone you care about them."
"It may not be the way but it's my way okay?"
"Well do you want to know my way? Kagome, I really… I—I… wow this is actually really hard…" How could he tell her how much he really cared for her? He had never felt nervous around Kagome before. Her character made it so easy to be comfortable around her… but now with this drastic change that overtook her, it was somehow much harder to talk to her.
She smiled weakly at him and his cute stuttering. She figured she should rename him Adorable Stutter Boy or something. The name suited him.
"I really love you a lot you know…"
Her facial expression didn't smile with the happiness he hoped would be there.
"I—I mean i—in a friend way… I love you a lot in a friend way…"
Crap.
Nice going Koga.
Way to lie.
She was snapped out of her thoughts at that moment and her eyes widened. Without warning tears started streaming down her eyes, but her facial expression had not changed one bit.
"You're lying."
How she said it was stone cold. No emotion or anything. Frankly, it kind of scared him, "No, Kagome. You don't understand. I really do love you so much it hurts."
Her expression changed to something he couldn't even explain. It seemed to be a mixture of everything together. "No. You don't. Stop lying to me."
"I swear on everything! You have meant everything to me for the past forever." He looked at her with exceptionally sincere eyes.
"No! Goddamn it! No! You don't!" She started yelling almost frantically which startled Koga to say the least.
"Kagome I—"
"Get off me!" She pushed him off before he had a chance to react and stood in the middle of the room with her arms hugged around herself.
Koga sat up on the side of the bed and looked at the sight before him. "What's wrong with her?"
She looked like a mental patient who had seen a ghost that tried to kill her. She was hyperventilating and was looking around in every which direction as if things were attacking her from all sides. There were tears streaming down her face and she was rubbing her arms as if the was fire ants crawling up all over them.
"Kagome…" He wanted to speak softly and gently just incase she decided to freak out again, "Why can't you believe that I love you? You have no reason not to trust me."
It took about twenty seconds but eventually she was able to calm down. She put her arms down at her sides, he tears stopped flowing, and her head was down instead of wildly looking in all directions.
It was completely silent now.
Koga wasn't sure what he should do. She he just wait until she spoke? Or she he try to talk again? What if she had another break down?
"I had no reason to disbelieve them either…"
"Who?"
"Trusting them was the worst thing I've ever done."
"Who Kagome?" He made a move to get off the bed and go to her but the second he stood up she stepped back and her body became visibly tense. He assumed it better to sit down.
"Are you afraid of me Kagome?" There was no answer. She just tore her eyes from his and looked down at the floor as if she was ashamed.
"You have no reason to be. I would never hurt someone I love so much."
"I would have been wise to run the last time someone said that to me."
"Please, Kagome, tell me what's wrong with you, tell me why it's so hard for you to believe that I love you."
At that moment her head shot up at him and looked him straight in the eye. She yelled, "Why can't you just use me like everyone else! Why do you have to love me?"
He just starred back at her as she continued on.
"Why Koga! Goddamn it all why why why!" She started crying again but she didn't start freaking out like before. She just continued to look at him with tears streaming down her face. She softly fell down to her knees still sobbing. "Why can't you just take advantage of me, and fix me for a day, then leave? Then someone else can fix me tomorrow, and I won't be your problem anymore? That's all I want! Why can't you just do that for me?"
He walked over to her, sat on the ground, and pulled her into his lap. She was reluctant at first, but she realized there was no point in fighting it. "Because I can't. I love you to much for that."
She stopped crying again but didn't look at him. She kind of smirked to herself and then said in a calm eerie voice, "You know sound just like him. He said that exact same thing. You are just like Inuyasha."
Koga's breath caught in his throat.
Him.
It was him.
He could deal with that dog shit later. Now was a time for him to fix Kagome. She badly needed it and he really wanted to be the one to help her. "No Kagome. There is a difference between me and Inuyasha: I mean it."
The wheels were cranking in Kagome's head: "I mean it…" But did he mean it?
She looked up at him.
She looked deep into his eyes.
She studied him very carefully.
Her conclusion…
"Oh my God… you really do don't you? You love me… as much as you say you do… your not just playing me?"
He didn't answer instead he just put his arms tighter around her and laid her head on his chest with his hand.
She smiled and put her arms around his back. That feeling she got in the hospital was right. Koga was trustworthy. She knew that now. He could be the one to fix her. And she believed it more than ever.
They stayed like that for five minutes before Koga couldn't stand it anymore. He had to speak up, "Kagome please don't freak out… but what is wrong with you?"
"I really don't want to talk about it. Can't we just stay here like this?" She smiled and buried her face is his long hair that was spilling slightly over his shoulder.
"No Kagome. I have to know what happened with you and that mutt. What did he do to you? I have to know… how can I fix you if I don't know what to fix?"
She got up from her comfy place in his lap on the floor and walked over to her bed and sat down. "Can we talk about it later? I would really like it better if you could just hold me for awhile? While I calm down?"
He stood up, smirked at her, and crossed his arms. "Nope." He put his chin up in the air like a three year old having a hissy fit.
"What?" Kagome looked very confused and just kind stared at him. "Why not?"
"I'm not going to even touch you until you tell me what happened. So there! If I can't have my way you can't have yours!" He stuck his tongue out at her and she smiled and giggled.
Complete mood change.
Koga was so much fun! Koga always could make her feel better.
She remembered why she adored him so much when they were just really good friends before the whole mess happened.
"Oh really…?" She smirked at him. "What if I… did this?" she removed her shirt over her head revealing her bra and her bandages. She walked over to him and put her arms around his waist. "How bout now?"
This had now turned into a game for the both of them, though it really shouldn't have seeing as how the matter was rather serious.
He looked down at the cleavage that was pressed up against his chest and the broadly smiling girl looking up at him.
"As appealing as that is… nope! I shall not touch you or ever look at you until I get what I want!" To prove his point he put his arms above his head so there was no way she could get near his hands to make him lose the game.
"Oh you are tough..." She giggled and looked around the room for a weapon of some sort to put her in the lead.
Perfect.
She walked away from him to grab the scissors that were on her desk. His interest was sparked and so was a bit of mock fear while wondering what she planned with those.
"Uhhh… Kagome…?"
She came up to him with the scissors and started cutting from the bottom of his shirt making her way to the top. "Still don't want to cuddle with me? That's all I'm asking!"
"Kagome I like this shirt!"
"Oops sorry about that! Oh well not much you can do without either touching me or the scissors, and seeing as how you won't touch me or the scissors because if you do I'll stab you with them… I guess you're out of luck!"
He sighed and looked up at the ceiling, refusing to give up the chance to learn what was wrong with his Kags, even though one of his favorite shirts was now split in two on the ground…
"Are you cracked yet?"
"Nope! And I will not be until you tell me!"
"Okay fine… seems as though you leave me with no choice but to revert to the big guns." With that she took two steps back from him and unzipped the bottoms she was wearing. She slowly slid them down to her ankles. She noticed he couldn't help but take one peak and then look up back up at the ceiling.
"Still nothing eh? Well okay then…" She walked up to him, only in her bra and underwear, and put her hands on his bare chest. She slid her hands down to his waist and hugged his body to hers. She played with the bottom of his hair with her finger tips and slowly kissed up his chest, to his neck, to his jaw line. She couldn't quite reach his lips with his chin in the air like that so she decided to leave it at that.
It was all Koga could do to keep from touching the perfect body of the perfect girl that was pressed up against him, taunting him with her perfect ness. But when she started kissing up his jaw line it was just too much.
He put his hands around her bare waist and smashed his lips onto hers. He sucked on her lips releasing all the want that had been building up for the past ten minutes of her taunting.
When he stopped kissing her she looked up at him, "Just couldn't help yourself? I knew it haha! I win!"
"No fair you cheated!"
"I did not! That was fair and square-ish!"
"Okay how bout neither of us wins, you have to admit I held out for a really long time. Longer than any one else would have."
"True, true. That was pretty impressive I must say." They both laughed at their stupid comments. They really loved being around each other. Kagome couldn't believe she had almost missed this. She mentally kicked herself for doubting Koga before. She didn't even know what came over her. "So how about a compromise of some sort?"
"Yes a compromise… how about you tell me what's up while I do that cuddling thing you were talking about?" Just the word cuddle was enough to make him queasy… cuddle… that was such a gay word for a guy to say.
She looked thoughtful for a moment. "Deal." Why not tell him? He could be trusted. She knew that now. Thought it would be plenty hard for her to get out the words.
He laid down on the comfy down comforter of her bed and she went to lie next to him. He put his arm around her shoulders and she put hers around the top of his stomach as well as her head on his chest.
Basically it was an adorable, picture perfect moment.
"See this isn't that bad is it?" She snuggled more into his chest and closer to his body for warmth since there were on the top of the covers.
"No it isn't at all; this is a lot better than the word cuddle actually sounds to a guy."
They both smiled at his remark. Koga could always make her smile.
"So you know it's time for you to tell me what happened with you you know. That was the deal." He gently stroked her hair to calm her down just incase she freaked out at the thought of what had happened to her, since that seemed to be the case most of the time.
"I know… okay… here it goes…"
It's safe to say that during the process there was plenty of crying, yelling, and break-downs from the both of them. But after all was done, their picture perfect pose was yet again taken up, with Kagome's head, asleep, on Koga's chest, and with Koga's head, also asleep, buried in to her hair, and his arms firmly grasped around her to keep any harm that might have wanted to come near her, far, far, away.
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PREVIEW of the next chapter:
…"Don't ever compare me to that fucking jackass! Never in a million years would I do what he did! You know that Sango! You know me!"…
…"I'll be damned if I'll let that mangy wolf have a piece of her." He sounded stern and there was something in the sound of his voice that really let Sango know he wasn't kidding. "I swear to God… if he… I'll kill that bastard!"…
…"Don't let how much you love Kagome cloud your judgment." "Sango… she's only my best friend, I don't—" "Don't kid yourself."…
…"Am I really that scary when I'm mad? I never thought about it before… but if Koga and Kags are together… don't I have a right to be?"…
"I just didn't want him to go in there pissed as ever and then become ever more pissed at the sight he would see. I don't think one person can possibly keep that much anger under control."
…This pose of theirs would make Inuyasha even more enraged. Koga would be killed if Inuyasha walked in and saw this. Sango couldn't breathe at all as she heard the creaking of feet on the stairs. "What do I do?"…
…Kagome closed her eyes. Not because of pleasure, but because of sadness. Why now? Why did he have to come now?...
…"Let go of me! Let go!" She punched and kicked and thrashed all she wanted though it wasn't doing any good…
…"A girl who goes around fucking every guy she sees would generally be called a whore! Hell Kagome! You even resorted fucking this wolf shit! How low can you go? Guess you found out!" …
…"What the hell did you do to her Inuyasha!" Koga grabbed him by the collar and was eyelevel with him. "I—I don't know…"…
…"Damn it not this again," Inuyasha stood still as Kagome put her hands around his neck and pressed her almost naked body against his, "How bout now? Wanna play now?"…
…"You broke her Inuyasha! You fucking broke her! You broke my Kagome…"…
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