Disclaimer: I don't own Animorphs. Come on people, if I did I wouldn't be writing FAN fiction! Nope, K.A. owns it all.

A/N: I wrote this because I thought K.A. could have made 54 more emotional. She seemed to be in a rush to finish the series. I mean would it have killed her to write a couple more books?

Revelations

Jake's POV:

I turned around to face them. "Yeah, I'll be right there Toby." I looked at the remaining four of them. Ax focused all four eyes on something at the computer consol. Marco was admiring the floor. Cassie managed to look at everything and everybody, but carefully avoided me, and Tobias…

" You! How could you?" He screamed at me.

"How could I what?" I replied so coolly I was scaring myself. He looked like he was ready to rip my head off. I could see out of the corner of my eye that our little "conversation' had caught everyone's attention.

" How could I what? How could I what? Jake! Hello? Did you or did you not just see that? Did you or did you not just see Rachel die?"

" I saw it, but I don't remember anyone saying I was the polar bear. I don't remember-"

"Do you remember this big Jake? Do you remember sending the only girl, the only women I've ever loved and who's ever truly loved me, to her death?"

"Tobias calm down!" Cassie shouted.

"Good ole' Cassie, always trying to keep control of the situation. How can you defend a murderer?"

"He didn't kill her."

"Sending someone on a suicide mission is the same as killing them! You don't care though, do you? Neither do the two of you! He gestured toward Marco and Ax. "And we all know he doesn't care!" He pointed at me.

"She was my best friend Tobias!" Cassie was close to tears. Before anyone else could say anything I said:

"You know what? Tobias is right about one thing, I DON'T care!" Everything was silent. The next thing I knew, Tobias's fist was flying at my face. I spit out blood on the floor. I stared into his eyes and his eyes burned into mine. I started to hyperventilate. I couldn't take it anymore…

"I don't care! I don't care!" I screamed. "You think I don't realize what happened Tobias? I know Rachel's dead. I know that! I also know that it's at least partly my fault."

"Par-!"

"Shut up! I'm not finished. I love- I loved my cousin- and I still do- but I hate her. She was always independent, but she chose to listen to me…" I paused to wipe away the tears that were streaming down my face… "I love her so much that I hate her because she listened to me and it cost her, her life."

They all stood there with shocked looks on their faces. I turned and walked away to go find Toby.

END