Chapter 2

I couldn't sleep not without him, when he finally came back to me I thought I would never have to be alone again, but I guess some things never change. I got up and looked at the clock on the nightstand, 1:00 a.m. I put on my robe and went downstairs to get a drink, I was about to go back upstairs when I heard a click and the front door opened.

It was him, "Athrun" I said, and he looked at me and gave me a half smile and closed the door behind him. "I thought you would be asleep by now" he said and yawned, he looked really tired. He walked past me and went upstairs, I decided to follow suite and when I reached our bedroom he was wearing his boxers and marina. I hopped into bed hoping that he would do the same but instead he took a pillow a blanket and was about to leave the room, "Athrun where are you going?" I asked him waiting patiently for an answer. "I'm going to sleep in the guest room", He said and left the room.

I cracked my eyes open and was instantly sorry as the bright sunlight stabbed into my eyes blinding me. I got up and went into the bathroom and looked into the mirror at my tear stained face and blood shot eyes. I've been crying the whole night until I finally fell asleep, I turned on the shower took off my clothes and went in. When I was finished I felt relaxed and refreshed, I put on a pair of faded blues jeans and a purple fitted t-shirt and I decided to leave my hair down. I went downstairs to go and eat something before I left, I thought Athrun would have been awake by now but I didn't see him anywhere. I quickly toasted a bagel buttered it and left before he got up, not wanting to see him or talk to him.

When I made it to the studio it was 12:30 I was earlier than usual, I didn't want to waste time I wanted to finish my recording before the end of the week. Michael, my manager has been on my case for weeks complaining because he thinks I'm slacking off. Well it was true, some days I wouldn't even come to the studio or if I did I would only stay for an hour or two. I've been in the recording booth for about 2 hours, my manger kept telling me go for a break. But I refused, I wanted to get everything done today so I wouldn't have to come to the studio for the rest of the week.

I finally finished and was on my way home. My limo pulled up in front our big mansion. I unlocked the door and went inside, it was dark "Athrun" I called out "Are you home". I didn't hear an answer I walked into the living room and saw him sitting on the couch talking on the phone, I chose not to bother him and went upstairs into the bedroom and closed the door behind me. I kicked off my shoes and plopped down on the bed staring at the ceiling, I had a lot on my mind ever since Athrun came back. When I' m around him things just don't feel right, I tried to shrug the thought away but so many unanswered questions just kept popping up into my head.

"Athrun where are you going?" I asked frustrated, I didn't know why he was doing this again. I was sitting on the bed with the bed sheet wrapped around my naked form, my hair was a mess and my face was still flushed from the activity that took place. But who had time to worry about that he was leaving again and I didn't know why, he never told me anything. And every time he would leave I would always feel guilty believing that it was my fault our relationship was the way it was. I watched as he got dressed and I could feel the tears again, "Athrun why are you doing this. Why are you leaving?" I choked out, I felt hot tears slide down my cheeks. Why couldn't he see I was hurting, why couldn't he see that I love him. I crawled across the bed and grabbed his wrists and stopped him from buttoning up his shirt. He looked back at me and I could see his eyes glistening with unshed tears, he sat down on the bed and ran his hand through his hair.

"I'm sorry Lacus. I-I love her and I want to be with her" he croaked out, I squeezed my eyes shut and covered my ears not wanting to hear anymore of it. His words repeatedly echoed in my mind and my head hurt. He pulled me into his arms and held me tight trying to calm me down, we sat like that for a long time. I pulled away from him and looked into his green eyes, they were full of so much sadness. I guess he was hurting too.

"Athrun I love you" I sobbed out. I didn't know what else to say, I've given him my body and love freely I didn't know what else he wanted. Or maybe it isn't me he wants.

"Why do things have to be so complicated with you" I said out loud to myself, I wanted to know the truth about why he came back and if he was staying for good, because I'm tired of waiting. I heard a knock at the door and I jumped being a little caught off guard.

"Lacus can I come in?" it was him

"Yes you can", I said softly hoping that he didn't hear me so he would leave, but I guess he did because the door opened. "What is it?" I asked, he closed the door and sat down beside me on the bed. He didn't say anything much less even look at me, I hated it when he did that.

"Lacus we need to talk"

"Yeah we do" I answered almost immediately, he looked at me and smiled.

"Do you know why I came back?" he asked me, I shook my head not trusting my voice and waited for him to continue. He took my hand in his and just held it, "You know that I loved Cagalli right" he said lamely

"It wasn't hard to notice that" I said coldly why was he bringing her up, I pulled my hand away and crossed my arms over my chest. He looked at me and sighed.

"Lacus it was hard for me to choose and you know that" he said and looked at me with sadness and hurt in his eyes. I didn't know where he was going with this but I decided to keep my mouth shout and wait for him to continue. "But anyway the reason I came back was because I realized that Cagalli isn't the one for me and-"

"And I' am" I said finishing his sentence, "You really expect me to believe that Athrun! 5 months ago before you left after I poured my heart out to you, it took you five months to realize how much I loved you how much I wanted to be with you!" I said practically screaming at him. I stood up and faced him and the whole time he couldn't even look me in the eye, I bowed myhead and I felt a tear slide down my cheek I quickly wiped it away with the back of my hand. "You know Athrun, if you can't even look me in the eye and tell me all these stuff then that shows me that you really don't love me. That I was just a doormat for you" I said coldly, I waited for a reply and didn't get one. So I left, without looking back.

A/N: So how was it I kinda didn't like it that much, but don't worry next chapter will be longerand better Ipromise. And thanks for the reviews everyone -