A/N: bows Thank-you everyone for the reviews.Really appreciate it. Finally I got around to updating. Im surprisedI never got one bad review since this is my first fanfic. Anway Thank-you everyone once again for the reviews. And don't worry everyone I willNOT change the couple's in the Fanfic, cause AXL ROCK! Enjoy

Mrs. Zala

Chapter 4

We sat there in silence for quite a long time waiting for Athrun to return. It's been so long since I've seen Kira, his appearance hasn't changed one bit but there was something different about him, or maybe it was just me. I put my teacup on the coffee table and attempted to start a conversation for the fourth time. "So how's Orb?" I asked looking anywhere but his eyes. The whole time he was here all he did was stare at me from across the room.

"Orb is great, Cagalli is handling it well". He said with a faint smile, "Enough about me, how are you and Athrun doing?" he said, I figured he would ask this question but I was prepared. I gave him a bright smile "Were fine" I said, more like lied. He gave me a concerned look, then smiled and nodded. Just then the doorbell rang, and I excused myself to go get it. It was probably Athrun. As soon as I opened the door I was greeting with a loud shriek.

"LACUS!" the brunette shrieked in my ears before catching me in a bear hug, "Look at you, still beautiful as always". She said looking me up and down.

"Miriallia" I said surprised. Dearka was right behind her to greet me also, he gave a low whistle "Damn Athrun sure is one lucky guy" he said hugging me. I smiled happily glad to see my friends. "Athrun didn't tell me you guys where coming to visit", I said folding my arms.

"Well we really came because of Yzak's engagement party, but we decided to come and visit you too" Milly said removing her shoes and joining Kira in the living room with Dearka following behind.

"ATHRUN! Aren't you going to help me with the suitcases", I turned to see a certain blonde struggling with bags in the driveway.

I gasped for air when I saw who it was, 'Cagalli', I couldn't believe my eyes what was she doing here. I saw Athrun briskly rush to her side to help her with the suitcases and duffle bags. I quickly ran upstairs to my room and locked the door behind me. I covered my mouth with my hand and slid to the ground, "Why is she here?" I asked myself, "In my home". I didn't know what Ahtrun was thinking by bringing her here but he better have a good explanation for this. I silently sobbed 'why' I asked myself over and over. I heard a knock on the door and the doorknob handle twisting and turning.

"Lacus are you alright", Milly said. I didn't want to go downstairs, but I had no choice my guess were waiting for me. Besides if I were to stay up here any longer they would probably send Athrun upstairs for me and that would just make things even worst. He's the last person I want to see right now, but I knew I would have to face him eventually.

"Yes I'm coming, just a second" I said quickly getting up and walking to the bathroom to wash my tearstained face. I went to go and open the door, "Are you alright" the brown haired girl asked concerned. "I'm fine", I said giving her a reassuring smile, and we walked down the stairs and into the living room where everyone was waiting.

"Lacus are you alright?" Dearka asked, if I said yes I would be lying so I nodded instead. From the look on Kira's face he wasn't buying any of this at all, I looked around the spacious room and my eyes landed on her. "Hello Ms. Athha" I said politely not wanting to be rude, she looked my way and smiled.

"You don't have to be so formal with me Lacus. Were friends right" the blonde girl said getting up from where she was sitting to give me a hug, and I hesitantly hugged her back. "Lacus how've you been?" I couldn't believe her, she's acting like nothing never happened and that were friends. But she isn't the only person to blame.

"Oh I'm fine; I did a little recording this week. And everything's fine". I said smiling, I rested my gaze on Athrun but his eyes wouldn't meet mine, he was probably trying to avoid me. But I decided not to push any further, hopefully he'll explain to me why he did this. "Does anyone want some tea or something?" I asked, desperate to get away from her, I needed to think.

"Tea would be fine" I heard Milly say from where she was seated, everyone else agreed to have some tea also. I went into the kitchen and started a fresh pot; I rested my elbows on the counter and waited for the water to bowl. "What am I doing?" I asked myself, just then Kira entered the Kitchen.

"Lacus are you alright?" he said worried.

"Don't worry I'm fine. I'm just a little tired" I told him.

"I'm worried about you" he said getting closer to me. He stood beside me and tucked a pink strand of my hair behind my ear. I smiled, he always did that. "I really missed you Lacus. It's been such a long time since we've spoken to each other" he said, his voice full of sadness. I couldn't look at him I was too ashamed to, after all it was I who took off and left him with just a note. I didn't even get a chance to explain myself. Maybe if I did stay with him I wouldn't have to put up with all the drama in my life. And if I stayed I would never be alone.

I crept silently out of the bed not to wake him, I hated what I was doing but I didn't love him. And I couldn't lie to him anymore. I took out my packed suitcase from under the bed, and carefully carried it out the room trying my best not to make a sound. I quickly grabbed a pen and paper and wrote a goodbye letter to him.

Dear, Kira

I'm sorry for leaving and not telling you how I felt from the start, but I'm too much of a coward to tell you. So that's why I'm writing you a letter. It even hurts writing this to you, saying I'm sorry doesn't really mean much. But I don't know what else to say. I'll never forget you and the times we shared and you'll always have your own place in my heart. But as much as it hurts to say this, apart of my heart belongs to some else. You probably know who this person is, but please don't hate him. hate me, because It's my fault for not being honest with you from the start. I never should of led you on and lied to you for so long and that I' am truly sorry for. I wish I could push theses feelings away and stay with you, but I can't. I hope we could still be friends but that hope is slight, because after you read this you probably won't want anything to do with me. But I'll understand, I won't deny that I never loved you because I did, but now that love has started to fade. You probably think that I'm selfish and I'm cold hearted, but I want to tell you that I'll never forget you Kira and you will always have a place in my heart.

Love, Lacus.

I quickly took the letter and placed it on my side of the bed. I kissed his cheek, and before leaving I took one last look at our beautiful home and was out the door.

"Lacus, earth to Lacus", I saw Kira wave a hand in front of my face. I shook my head and he smiled. "I thought I lost you there" he said.

"Just thinking" I said ignoring the frown on his face. There was a long silence until the tea kettle started boiling. "Are you going to help me bring the tea to the living room" I said pouring tea into the cups. He didn't say anything just stare into space like a zombie. "Kira" I said snapping him out of his reverie, he looked at me and smiled. He came closer to me and brushed his thumb over my cheek.

"Lacus" he said, lust evident in his voice.

"Yes" I breathed.

"Do I still have a place in your heart?" he asked, and before I could give an answer he brought his lips down on mine. My eyes went wide, and I couldn't move. It was like my brain stopped functioning. I closed my eyes and gave into the kiss; I tangled my fingers into his unruly hair and gripped his shoulder. Just then it felt like all of existence just disappeared except for me and him, I felt like I was falling. When the kiss ended I felt dizzy and spots swam in my vision. He pulled me into his arms and was about to kiss me again when I heard my name.

"Lacus, is the tea ready?" I gently pulled away from him and went to go and serve everyone the tea. He grabbed my arm almost causing me to drop the tea tray he looked at me as if he didn't want me to go, I gently squeezed his hand and smiled.

"Will talk later, okay" I said not looking at him and taking up the tea tray and walking into the living room, living him in the kitchen.

'What Have I done'?

After a long day, everyone was gone to bed. I for one couldn't sleep I tried but to many things were on my mind especially what happened early on in the kitchen. I felt so guilty and confused, why did I do that? I kept asking myself that question over and over again and still no answer. I tried forcing myself to sleep but I couldn't. Every time I would close my eyes I would always see him, and the kiss kept replaying in my mind. Frustrated I took my and bed slippers put them on and tip toed downstairs and went out the back door. The cool air felt wonderful on my over heated skin, I sat on a stone like bench facing the beautiful sea and watched as the moon reflected on the water's surface.

"Beautiful, isn't it?" came a voice from behind me, it didn't startle me at all because I knew exactly who it was. I didn't say anything, and then I heard the person take a seat beside me.

"Why didn't you tell me she was coming, Athrun?" I said getting to the point. Did he think I wouldn't care? that I wouldn't ask him? I saw him run a hand through his hair from the corner of my eye and sighed. He wouldn't answer me. He just sat there head bowed andeyes fixed on the ground, 'If he doesn't want to talk then there's no point in me staying out here'. "Good night" I simply said, getting up and going back inside.

"I'm sorry," I heard him whisper.

I don't understand why I love him and allow him to hurt me so much, why do I give him the power to hurt me, and still welcome him with open arms. Love really does make you do crazy things. I turned back around and took a seat beside him again.

"Why?" I asked again,my eyes fixed on him but he still wouldn't look at me.

"I don't know. I-I just don't know what I'm feeling anymore, I know I love you as much as it is hard for you to believe. It's just…." He paused a moment and continued. "I still have feelings for her, and that's why I left. I needed to know how I feel about her, and I came back because of you, because I'm still in love with you and I'm just so confused" he said frustrated. He scratched the back of his head nervously and looked at me. But I wouldn't meet his gaze.

"I know how you feel, I'm confused too to the point where I don't know what to believe anymore, but I know that I love you" I said finally looking into his emerald green eyes. "But I still don't understand why she's here. I know she was probably invited to the wedding, but why didn't you tell me she was coming here? Or that Kira, Miriallia, and Dearka were coming too" he looked at me confused "It's not that I don't mind the three of them here it's just, you know how I would feel about her being here and the situation between me and you has not yetbeen resolved. "So why Athrun? Why are you hurting me so much? What have I done wrong?" I felt hot tears run down my cheeks I couldn't hold them in anymore I felt so broken so hurt. I threw my arms around his neck and buried my face in his neck and cried letting everything out not holding back anymore tears. I felt his arms encircle my waist and pull me into his lap so that I was more comfortable. He stroked my hair and made shushing sounds trying to comfort me.

Soon my cries died down to silent sobs, and I stayed in his arms until he pulled away from me. I pulled away from him a little tooso I could look into his eyes, his eyes were glistening with unshed tears and I saw a tear escape from the corner of his eye and I brushed it away with my thumb. He bent my head down to his and captured my lips in a searing kiss, I kissed him back with all the passion I could muster, my eyes widened as he deepened the kiss. He never kissed me like this before, the touch of his lips were languid and intense at the same time. It was like he was trying to tell me something through the kiss.

I gasped for air when the kissed ended, chills were running up and down my spine and my stomach felt like it was on a roller coaster. He smiled at me and rubbed his nose with mine and pulled me tightly in his embrace. I never felt like this with Kira. With Athrun I can let myself go and not worry because I feel safe in his arms, and nothing in this world could ever harm me as long as I'm with him. But has anything really been resolved? There are still so manythings I want to talk to him about, but right now I just want to enjoy this moment and hold onto it for as long as I can. I held onto him tighter and smiled feeling more content with myself and truly happy for the first in a long time.

I felt him pull away from me, and I tried to hide my frown "What's the matter?" I asked, he didn't answer me. He just stared into my eyes like he was searching for something, he face was expressionless. But then he finally smiled and stilling holding my gaze "I love you Lacus" he said passionately. I smiled at him and before I could reply he stood up and threw me over his shoulder, "Let's go back to bed, a princess like you needs her beauty sleep" he said gripping my backside playfully as we headed back inside.

"Who said we were going to sleep" I said with a mischievous grin.

A/N: Not much really happened but it took me forever to write this chapter school is getting on my nerves. Next chapter is the engagement party so I will be making 1 or 2 more chapters. Anyway review and tell me what you guys think.