Even after I'd scraped my hands, I continued my man-to-man combat training until dawn. I just kept on pouring out my anger. I eventually threw away my punching gloves altogether and continued to beat the dummy even though my fists were already bloody.

I bandaged my bloody hands and tried to figure out what to do now. Either I listen to my girlfriend and take a little time off for my mental health while I make a plan with my friends, or I go on to say that everyone is counting on me.

But I was pulled out from my stressed up thoughts by Douxie.

"I notice you've been practicing boxing."

he said in a cynical voice, looking at me.

"What do you want?" I asked.

Douxie looked around and whistled lightly.

"Most of the team is still asleep, and you're getting ready for what's ahead. I want you to fight me."

"What the-"

"Don't look at me like I'm a murderer, I want to help you train."

Training for real took place outside, and Douxie showed me how I should rightly stand or keep my fists.

"Listen, Douxie, what did you actually do during those 900 years?" I asked While I was backing up or getting closer, I was getting ready for a possible attack.

"Merlin couldn't even know how I knew the world of the future. I found my talent in music, but for a while I was involved in illegal matches. After all, having lived in the castle before and partly helping the knights, I must have the right physique, too."

I listened to what he was telling me, and before I knew it, he punched me in the face. I fell to the ground and my nose was bleeding.

"When you're fighting exclusively with your fists for real if you had no weapon at hand, then don't let your opponent distract you with what he's telling you. This isn't like troll hunting, where you could talk to them openly while you were fighting."

"I understand.." I said standing up, wiping blood from my face.

During the second attempt to punch me, I had already dodge the blow and tried to hit back.

"Okay, you're getting better at that. Now be more careful than before."

This was no longer classic boxing, he kicked me in the leg when I tried to approach to punch. I squealed in pain.

"Understand that all the intelligence agencies, and all the mafias of the world are after you. They won't spare you. If they want to kill you, they'll send their best assassins and agents after you, and they can fight both guns and fists. Only in Europe you are on Europol's radar. I suggest you learn the local language."

"Thank you for reminding me that the whole world wants to kill me." I said somewhat pissed.

No sooner had I learned to kick back to prevent a blow to the leg than I avoided attacking, shielding myself with my fists and slamming my fists into his when he suddenly knocked me to the ground and started twisting my arm behind my back until I had tears in my eyes.

"You've forgotten the fact that even the Mafia noticed all this, haven't you? Just what's happened in China is enough to get the attention of the Triads even though the governments are trying to cover it up. And do you think a criminal organization like the Triads, with mystical origins and rituals, is just going to let go of the supernatural and just miss the artifacts?"

Douxie tried to get me angry as best as he could. I had a feeling he might even break my arm, he continued talking while letting me feel the pain. It was pretty uncomfortable when he started smashing my face to the ground.

"You're angry even if you don't show it in front of friends. I feel it. You're as angry as I am. Because you lost somone you loved or a close friend as I did. Use that anger and let it go. If you're angry, you'll be unpredictable, and dangerous. It will scare them. Let go of that anger and avenge the ones you lost. Your enemies are no longer evil witches, changelings or trolls, now it are humans."

I roared and tried to turn around. I managed to hit him, wrenched my aching arm free, and finally threw him to the ground in a rage. My face was bloody, dirty from the ground and sweaty, and I just growled. I've never been as angry in my life as I am right now. I pressed his face to the ground with my hands and breathed rapidly.

"I have to admit, you're doing fine. Remember, they won't cuddle with you. I'm sure you already know their non-convex interrogation techniques."

I growled in anger one last time and left him alone.

"You didn't do badly, I'll teach you more if I can." Douxie said as he standed up, plastering his clothes, a little dirty after I knocked him to the ground.

"More?" I asked curiously.

"All you know from all this is the basics you learned on the Internet, like the anarchist files of the '90s, I've been here 900 and 2 years more, I've seen historical events with my own eyes, I know how it works. Something you've read on the Internet can't prepare you for the emotional blackmail to which they exposes you in reality. I understand your life changed drastically when you became a Trollhunter, but it's time for you to stop larping like an average rebel and try to match those who come after you. Their knowledge and training will be unmatched to yours."

"What did you actually see?" I asked Douxie again as he was return back to the base "Guy Fawkes?"

"V for Vendetta, very funny. I seen a few revolutions, a few wars, a few dictatorships.." Douxie said smiling from the nostalgia as he remembered that "Throughout history with many of my identities before I became a high school student working in a coffee shop as you know me, I traveled the world before I got to America."

"Man." I responded and I curiously again asked "What you actually did, besides illegal fighting?"

"I fought in several paramilitary groups, I spent part of my life in the Soviet Union, KGB was trying to kill me because I opposed the communists and Stalin... Why do you think I like metal? The music expresses my memories and emotions from what I saw in the war. And after Nari died, I became even more melancholical and cynical than before."

I didn't respond.

"After I lost her, combined with what I saw... I feel mentally at least 30 rather than 19. By acting like a normal teenager, I'm just hiding how I feel."

"Douxie, find mental health help."

He sighed.

"Just don't end like I did, allowing sadness and trauma to consume you." He said and left the place in the forrest where he helped me to train.

It was about 6:00 AM, and it was still foggy outside. I went to see the town again under the hill in the distance. It was bigger than the Arcadia, I could see from afar European architecture, medieval monuments, a castle, cathedrals, a river and bridges. The beauty of the Central European metropolis surprised me.

After training I became a little civilised and although I still held my sorrow, I felt my mood improve a little after how angry I'd been before. After a long time, I felt like cooking something the way I cooked for my mom.

I started digging into the ingredients that were here and decided to cook breakfast for my friends. I cooked classics, eggs with onions, bacon and bread. I could smell the simmering food again, cooking with feeling. I completely forgot that cooking is an art when I had to focus solely on fighting.

By the morning of breakfast time, the team had a morning meeting, and I plucked up the courage to be honest.

I put my hands on the wooden table, looked at my friends, and began to make a sad-sounding speech.

"I don't want to dissapoint all of you, especially you Blinky since you are my mentor, but I do not have any plan..." I sighed, and looked at my friends as they silently looked at me, and I continued "I recently suffered another loss... my mother passed away and I didn't recover from her death... please forgive me."

Blinky approached me first and treated me like a step-Dad the way he sometimes did.

"Master Jim, because of the fact that you don't have a plan now, I'm not mad at you, just like Aarrgghh the others who are here. I understand your pain and your hold on sorrow."

I looked at Aarrgghh and he said: "Wingman wants to keep you safe."

"You see Master Jim, Aarrgghh too cares about your good." Blinky added.

"When me and my sister lost our parents, I felt the same way you did, you don't have to apologize." Krel added.

I had a feeling Aarrgghh was going to want to protect me, because he couldn't keep safe Toby, so he wants to keep me safe and doesn't want this to happen again. This is what would've Toby wishes.

Claire came to me, and she kissed me on the cheek.

"Jim, don't you realize we're not just a team, we're a family? I know you want a family as much as I do, we're one big family, you're not alone." She hugged me as she said that and I was about to cry again.

"I'm happy I have you." I murmured wiping my tears, as I tried to stop crying again.
I wiped away my tears, fought back my tears, and looked back at my friends, my family.

"Master Jim, what do you want to do now? Would you like to visit the Heartstone Trollmarket under Prague? Czech trolls are honored by your presence." Blinky said.

"I'd like to take a look at the city first. I feel like going out and seeing this place at least."

"As you like, you can visit the Trollmarket by the tunnels under the city." Blinky responded.

Claire, Steve and Eli wanted to go with me to Prague, so I became a tourist for a while, nor alone. For a while I at least forgot I'm the most wanted person in the world. Claire wanted to take her parents and her 3 year old brother too, so I agreed.

"You'd better put on your baseball cap and sunglasses," Eli gave his advice and continued "people don't recognize you like that and avoid the cameras. The cameras will recognize your face through your glasses and cap."

"Eh?" I heard Steve.

"You do not know anything about predictive behavior or The European Surveillance System and the INDECT?" Eli asked, sounding kinda dissapointed.

My girlfriend's parents stepped in.

"I would have stuck to the words of someone who knows these things, I don't want to risk them doing anything to my family." Mr. Nuňez stepped in.

"If anything happened Dad, I can get you, mom and Enrique into safety." Claire responded to her Dad.

"Everybody stay close to me. If the history of this city has anything to do with all this, I'm going to find out, but first, a little rest. If something goes wrong, or if someone starts shooting at you, I want to be around." I said.