Title: Not ready to say good-bye
Author: Chickee1

Rating: PG-13

Pairing: GSR

Summary: This is my first GSR fic..My take on what happens after 'Way to Go'.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything or anyone from CSI, the show and its characters belong people other than me. I am borrowing the characters for my own enjoyment.

'Do you have any idea how hard it was for me to see you go through all this, or how hard it was when I found out I was pregnant and than I thought I had lost you. Do you' Sara had yelled with tears forming in her eyes.

Even though he too had yelled Grissom knew that Sara was right. 'I could've handled things better' he said to himself as he continued to walk down the road.

'With everything that I'm going through I haven't even took a second to stop and ask her how she is...she's so strong I didn't think I would have to' he thought.

"Can I borrow your couch for the night" Grissom asked after the door had opened once he finished knocking on the door.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Brass asked as he moved aside to let his friend in.

"Do I have a choice?" asked Grissom as he took a seat on the couch. Shaking his head, Brass took a seat in front of Grissom.

"The Doctor told me that there's about a 99 percent chance that I'll never regain use of my arm, which means I may never be able to go back to work. I yelled at Sara telling her she doesn't understand how hard this is for me" Grissom said as he placed his head in his hand.

"What did she say?" asked Brass.

"Why do you think I'm here" said Grissom. "She told me not to bother coming home until I find out what's more important to me...work or her and the baby".

"Don't tell me you actually thinking about that? You shouldn't have to think twice about that Gil, everyone can see how much you and Sara love each other and now your expecting a baby." Brass said as he rose to his feet and went into the kitchen.

Following Brass into the kitchen, Grissom leaned on the door frame, "Things are complicated..." he started, only to be stopped by Brass slamming a glass on the table.

"Their not complicated, your just to damn stubborn to admit that you need help. You think you can do this on your own, than you might as well let Sara walk out of you life right now with that baby, before you cause her any more pain."

"You know I try so hard to have answers for everything, but for this I don't. Part of me thinks that Sara can do better, that she deserves better, but another part of me wants to run home right now and take her in my arms...but I don't think I can do that. I love her..don't get me wrong but..."

"There shouldn't be a 'but' if you love her Gil. You can't treat her like this...she's waited all these years for you and your going to let one little thing stand in your way of having complete happiness?" Jim asked.

"One little thing...I wouldn't call my career ending one little thing. I've worked to damn hard for this, and just because that stupid asshole Ecklie couldn't accept what I've done or what I had he had to go and ruin it all" yelled Grissom.

"Your right...what you 'had'. If you wait to long she's not going to be there when you get back. And I don't want to be the one to tell you so. Right now is when you need each other the most. Don't make her wait for you like you did. I'm going to bed, you know where everything is" said Brass as he headed off into his bedroom.

Slowly making his way to the closet, Grissom grabbed a blanket and layed down on the couch, 'Just one night Sara...wait for me just for tonight' he whispered as he closed his eyes.

A/N...Please R/R more to come, hope your all enjoying it as much as I am writing it.