Title: Not ready to say good-bye
Author: Chickee1
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: GSR
Summary: This is my first GSR fic..My take on what happens after 'Way to Go'.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything or anyone from CSI, the show and its characters belong people other than me. I am borrowing the characters for my own enjoyment. The song used in this song is 'Words I couldn't say' by Rascal Flatts
"Sara are you sure you want to do this? I mean you can still change your mind" Catherine said as she poured Sara a glass of water.
"Maybe it'll make him think more clearly about things." she whispered.
"I just can't believe that he had to go and actually think about things, I've known Gil for a long time and I know how much he loves you" Catherine said as she took a seat beside Sara.
"I know...but I gave him that choice and he's just going to have to deal with the fact that I'm not going to be waiting for him anymore".
"What about the baby?" asked Catherine.
Lowering her head, Sara shook it, "I don't know, I just need to sort things out." she answered.
'What have I done? I should've went home last night and tried to work things out with Sara'
Grissom thought to himself as he quickly rose from the couch and headed out the door.
In a book- in a box- in the closet
In a line- in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch late one June
In a breath inside a whisper beneath the mooon
"Catherine, can you make sure that Grissom get's this" asked Sara as she handed a white envelope to Catherine.
"Sara are you sure...you can still wait for him" said Catherine.
"I've done enough waiting for him. My cabs here" she said as she picked up her suitcase and headed out the door.
"Sara, keep in touch. If you need anything you know that we'll only be a phone call away", Catherine said as she pulled Sara into a hug.
"Thank you for everything Catherine" whispered Sara as she got into the cab.
Catherine watched as the cab drove away, leaving her standing in the sunlight. 'You're a fool to have let her go Grissom' she said to herself as she look at the envelope that she still had in her hand.
There it was at the tip of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tounge
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away
"Sara...Sara are you here" called Grissom as he ran into the apartment. As he began to look around, Grissom realized that the apartment was missing not only Sara but some of her things. 'What have I done' he said aloud as he made his way to the couch. As he took a seat he noticed a white envelope on the coffee table. Picking it up he began to read aloud,
'Grissom,
If your reading this than I'm not there. I was hurt last night when you didn't come home. I never thought in a million years that you would have to actually think about what was more important to you work or me and our unborn child, but after staying up and waiting for you to walk through that door and take me in your arms I knew that you had already make your choice. When the time is right, I'll come back for the rest of my things, but until than I have what I need. You may think that this is unfair to you, me leaving with our unborn child, but you did this to yourself. I'll be sure to keep you updated on the progress of the pregnancy. When remember when I told you how afraid I was to raise this baby on my own...well that fear has come back. I loved you so much I was willing to wait...and I did. I waited for 6 years for you. I couldn't wait another day, I thought that today was going to be a new day...a new day for us to start over, but I was wrong.
All my love Sara'
What do I do now that you're gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say
'I've lost her...I've lost her for good' Grissom said aloud as he crumbled the paper and threw it across the room.
"I told you that if you didn't come home last night that you were going to lose her. I hate to say it but...I told you so" Brass said as he walked into the living room and took a seat beside Grissom.
"One night...that's all I wanted, was for her to wait one night, that we could start over again" whispered Grissom.
Theres a rain that will never stop fallin
There a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldnt pass my lips
So I held back and now we've come to this
And it too late now
"You can't start over again...too much has happened. All you can do is move on...and now you have another choice to make, do you want to move on alone...or do you want to go after the woman you love and who is carrying you child" Catherine said as she approached the two men.
What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say
"I'm too stubborn for my own good. I've lost the one thing in my life that made me really happy."
"And if you had realized that sooner, than non of this would be happening. Sara's right though, you brought this on yourself and you are the only one that can fix it" Catherine said as she took a seat in front of Grissom.
Taking his hands in hers, Grissom lifted his head, "Where'd she go Catherine?" he asked.
What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say
"Your going to have to go and change and you only have a few hours to do so. Your flight to San Francisco leaves in about an hour." Jim said as he pulled a plane ticket from his jacket pocket.
"How did you know that I'd go after her?" Grissom asked as he took the tickets in his hand.
Smiling Jim and Catherine looked at one another, "Just because you let her get as far as San Francisco, doesn't mean your that big of a fool to let her walk out of your life forever" Catherine said.
A/N, thanks for the reviews I apperiate it. So what do you think...will Sara take him back? R/R i'll update soon.