Title: Not ready to say good-bye
Author: Chickee1

Rating: PG-13

Pairing: GSR

Summary: This is my first GSR fic..My take on what happens after 'Way to Go'.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything or anyone from CSI, the show and its characters belong people other than me. I am borrowing the characters for my own enjoyment.

"Mr Grissom please understand, we did everything we could to save your wife. She had lost and extraordinary amount of blood before she came in" said the doctor.

"And the baby?" asked Grissom.

"The baby was premature, but we were able to get your son out.."

"I have a son" whispered Grissom as he cut off the doctor. "Can I see him" he asked.

"Mr Grissom you son is very sick...and very tiny. We have him hooked up to machines to help him breath, but there's a chance that he wont make it through the night...I'm sorry. The nurse can take you to see you son...and your wife to say goodbye" the doctor said as he motioned towards the nurses station. "If there is anything you need, please don't hesitate to contact me".

"She's gone...what...she can't be gone...we" Grissom tried to get out, but didn't have the words.

"Gil, I'm so sorry" said Jim as he pulled his hurting friend into a hug.

"Come here" said Warrick as he saw the tears forming in Catherine's eyes.

"Hey, we brought some coffee...what's going on?" asked Nick as he and Greg walked up to the group.

"Sara...didn't make it" said Brass.

"What about the baby" asked Greg. Grissom pulled away from his friend and turned to Greg with sadness and than walked away.

"I need to see my wife" he said as he walked up to the nurses station.

"What about the baby?" Greg asked as he watched Grissom walk away.

"Doctor said that he probably won't make it through the night" Catherine cried.

"Take as long as you need" the nurse said as she left Grissom standing in the ER room.

'Sara' he whispered as he walked closer to her body. Tears began forming in his eyes, as he took her hand in his and kissed it. 'Why did this have to happen to you. It's not fair..if only I hadn't waited so long to tell you how I felt, than none of this would've happened' he said.

'I don't know what I'm going to do without you...my life just isn't worth living anymore' he whispered. 'I love you with everything that I have Sara, and I always will. I'll find a way for us to be a family, you, me and our son. I'll see you soon...I promise.' Kissing her hand on more time, Grissom slowly back away, taking one last look at his wife before he left the room and headed to see his son.

"He looks life his mother" said Catherine as she walked up beside Grissom.

"He does" whispered Grissom, who hadn't taken his eyes off his little son.

"Is there anything I can get you?" she asked. Shaking his head, Grissom took Catherine's hand in his,

"You've already done enough. Go home to Lindsey, tell the others to go and get some rest. It's been a long day." he said.

"What about you?" she asked.

"I'm going to stay with my son" he said.

Leaning down to him, Catherine placed a soft kiss on Grissom's cheek, "You know everyone's number if you need anything", she said as she walked out the door.

"Mr. Grissom, I'm sorry to bother you, but I think you need to begin thinking of the options for your son" the doctor said as he picked up his chart.

"Is there any chance that he'll make it?" asked Grissom.

"His organs are beginning to fail, he's not getting enough oxygen into his body. There's nothing else that we can do, besides letting him go" he answered.

"Is he suffering?" asked Grissom.

"We've given little medication to help, but I don't know".

"Can I have a minute to say goodbye to him?" asked Grissom as he turned his head to look at the doctor, who nodded his head,

"Take as long as you need".

'My son...this is hard, having to say goodbye to two people who were het most important things in my life. But I don't want you to suffer. I love you so much, even though I didn't get a chance to teach you about bugs or play baseball with you, someday we will. Be with you mother, I'm going to miss you like crazy but I'll see you soon.' Grissom said as he placed a soft kiss on his son's forehead.

"Do you think Grissom is going to be okay?" asked Greg as Nick dropped him off at home.

"I don't know, he loved her with everything that he had. It's got to be hard for him, saying goodbye to Sara and his son", answered Nick.

"Try and get some sleep Greg, I'll see you tomorrow".

"Are you and Lindsey going to be okay to night?" asked Warrick.

"I don't know. It's going to be hard telling her, she was looking forward to having a cousin. Are you going to be okay?" asked Catherine.

"I think that in time we'll all be okay..it's Grissom that I'm worried about" he said.

"I know, I'm just afraid that he's going to do something, that he'll regret. Thanks for the ride, I"ll see you tomorrow Warrick" Catherine said as she placed s kiss on his cheek.

A/N sorry for being so mean, I didnt want to kill Sara but in the end I hope that you'll like the outcome. Please R/R