A/n: XD I decided to add a little comedy to this since it was so freakin angsty. LOL yay Koneko got the humor in the convo! This chapter is going to focus on Hisoka's developing feelings for Watari. As of this chapter I'm going back to alternating the pairings again for a while. So next chapter we get to find out a little more about Muraki's daughter, and all I'll say right now is she's a chip off the old block so to speak. And of course I have plans for Tatsumi and Tsuzuki's cooking lessons!

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Hisoka woke with a start, shaking all over.

Sleeping alone forced him to have his own dreams instead of Tsuzuki's usual influence over them.

This was a nightmare to rival the memory of being raped by Muraki.

It was rare that Hisoka had these types of dreams but now that he was alone it affected him more.

The last time he'd had one, Tsuzuki had been right there next to him, enabling him to fall back asleep.

But now he was alone and his heart was racing.

All he wanted was for someone to wrap their arms around him.

At this moment he wanted to be with…Watari.

By no means could he answer his own question of why, but he wanted Watari.

Running on scared instincts he turned on the lamp by his bed and picked up the phone.

He wasn't even sure what he said to the older blond, but within minutes there was a knock on his door.

He was relieved to see Watari standing there and stepped aside for him to come in.

He was able to mutter the words.

"I'm sorry…"

Before he was swept off his feet and carried back into his room.

Watari set him down softly and his worried but calm emotions rushed towards Hisoka, breaking him of the trance he'd been in.

Now fully awake, he stared up at the older blond.

"I don't want you to think I'm being a child but…"

Watari shook his head, sitting beside him.

"I understand Hisoka, it's okay. Look, don't take this wrong but…Maybe I should sleep here for a few weeks. Sort of allow you to adjust to being alone again."

He smiled as Hisoka lay back with a yawn.

"We'll worry about that tomorrow. I just really want to get back to sleep."

Watari nodded and turned off the lamp before crossing to the other side of the bed and lay down.

They were silent until Watari spoke softly.

"Can…I mean, is it okay if I lay my arm over your waist?"

Hisoka smiled secretly and nodded.

To Watari's delighted surprise, Hisoka took his hand.

In only a few more moments, he stopped shaking and eased into a peaceful sleep.

Just before he let himself fall completely, he whispered.

"Thank you Watari."

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The next morning Hisoka woke to a light, sweet smell coming from the kitchen.

Sleepily he wandered out into the living room and turned to enter the kitchen, but was stopped by the older blond.

"Back in bed with you!"

Hisoka was thrown off by his overly hyper companion.

"What are you doing?"

Watari smiled brightly and shoed him back into his room.

"You have fifteen minutes before your alarm goes of, and I'm making you breakfast in bed."

Hisoka smiled at this.

"I don't think I've ever had breakfast in bed…"

Then something crossed his mind and he cringed.

"Watari…you didn't?"

Watari was silent for a moment before laughing.

"Actually I haven't even been to my lab in three days. Besides, it's only fun against Tatsumi or Tsuzuki. I promise, no crazy potions added."

Hisoka stopped him before he could leave.

"Thank you for this Watari. I really don't like to ask, but sometimes I just need someone. So thank you for being here."

Watari smiled warmly and took his hand, kissing his fingers gently.

"Anytime you need me, just call."

The younger blond nodded with a smile and settled back into his pillow as Watari went back to the kitchen.

'You're not so bad Watari…not so bad at all.'

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At work that day Hisoka couldn't help but notice Watari's glowing smile.

Finally he couldn't take it anymore.

Watari was obviously happy about something, but he was keeping his mind on work for once and to some point that was driving Hisoka crazy.

"Okay Watari, what are you so happy about?"

Said blond looked up and smiled widely.

"I have a surprise for you after work."

Hisoka blinked for a moment.

"A what?"

Watari chuckled at this.

"A surprise! A really nice surprise that you'll enjoy. But please don't ask me what it is, I really want you to be clueless until we get there."

Hisoka wasn't sure exactly what to say to this.

Watari was taking him somewhere?

"Do I need money?"

Watari stared at him for a moment before shaking his head.

"I've got everything covered. No more questions or you'll figure it out!"

Hisoka couldn't help but chuckle.

"Okay, you win."

Watari looked down at his watch.

"It's almost lunch already, but I'm not hungry."

Hisoka shook his head.

"I'm not either. It was a good breakfast, thank you again."

The older blond set down his pen and pulled Hisoka to his feet.

"I want to try something."

Hisoka looked at his puzzled as he was practically dragged out into the hallway.

"Where are we going? I thought you said you weren't hungry."

Watari shook his head as he stopped for a moment.

"I'm not talking about food. I'm taking you to my lab."

Once there, Watari closed the door and leaned against it.

Hisoka was getting scared; he could see it in his eyes.

"I want you to trust me Hisoka. Nothing is going to happen to you that you don't want to happen."

Confused emerald eyes stared into Watari's.

"What are you going to do?"

Watari reached out to take his hand, but he stepped back.

"I'm going to turn off the light and show you what it's like to be loved. Why are you so afraid right now Hisoka?"

Hisoka looked away.

"I don't like not knowing what's happening and you just suddenly started dragging me down the hall. I'm not used to you. Tsuzuki was always so open with his intensions. You…you hide them too well and that scares me."

Watari against reached out, but this time gently turned Hisoka's face to look into his eyes.

"Hisoka…please trust me like you trusted Tsuzuki. I swear I'll never hurt you like that."

He felt the smaller man stiffen under his touch for a moment but suddenly he let out a sigh and relaxed a little.

"I'm willing to give you a chance, just don't expect things to come fast or easy for a long time."

Watari smiled at this as he switched off the light.

"We have forever. As long as it takes to win you Hisoka; that's how long I'll wait for you."

His eyes slid closed.

"Why?"

Watari kissed him softly.

"Because I've loved you from the second you walked through the door. Now, there should be silence."

Hisoka was increasingly amazed at how Watari's warm kisses felt on his cool skin.

Tsuzuki had never made him feel like that.

There was never any middle ground with Tsuzuki.

It was either soft kisses in the morning and at night, or passionate kisses that always led to something else.

Yet here was Watari, kissing him for the sheer sake of kissing.

Being almost forceful, but gentle at the same time, and Hisoka somehow knew Watari's intentions were not to sleep with him at this moment.

They made him feel safe and tingly and after a few moments, he began to return them.

For the first time in his life, Hisoka felt comfortable standing in this darkened room in someone's arms…in Watari's arms.

He wrapped his arms around Watari tightly and let go of his fear and frustration, sighing deeply in content as he soaked in Watari's soothing emotions and soft kisses.

If nothing else, he thought, he could get used to this…