A/N: Now before we get started this story is about the Sanzo Ikkou going through their life before they meet each other, so you can understand why I'm basing this Ten Years Ago…
When Butterflies Lose Their Wings
When a Butterfly flutters its wings
It flutters one step closer to death
As it dances in the Moonlight
It Dances closer to destruction…
Sanzo stayed there all weak and helpless as the rain continued to pour down upon him as they soaked his black clothing, it was cold, but Sanzo didn't care he was always out here. He had no where to go since after the temple that he left his master was torn apart by the darkened flames that consumed the once only home he had.
His gun still placed in his hand…
Be Strong Genjyo Sanzo
No matter how hard he tried, those words would repeat over his head over and over again no matter how many times he tried to chase them away, they would always find their way back to him. Through the rain, to him the Rain is the gate of his memories forcing them out.
The sky seemed so dark with emptiness…to him it was oblivion…to him it was nothing but a void sucking every piece of life out of him.
Why did you do that? Why did you have to protect me? Master…
"Oh shit…" Sanzo looked up to see someone looming over him, but the face was covered by a black hood connected to a black coat, was it death?
Did death come to take him away from this earth?
"Man you've been beat up real bad huh?" said the figure as they kneeled down on the wet mud; it felt like Sanzo was being taken away from this planet…
"What should I do?" now he was certain that this was death; Death has come to take him away. If he was destined to die at thirteen then so be it everything that he loved was gone. He felt light headed; his vision blurred then…nothing-ness…
Be Strong Genjyo Sanzo…
Why do you keep saying that? Do you see that I'm not strong at all! Master!
Be Strong…
Shut up!
…Genjyo Sanzo!
Shut up!
"I Don't Want To Be Alone!"
Huh? Who owns that voice?
Sanzo's eyes shot open as his violets went wide with confusion…he sat up slowly, he was lying in something comfy…was this a bed? He placed a hand on his head trying to remember what happened; he remembered being outside in the rain and then seeing death coming to great him.
Where am I?
He looked around; there was a bedside cabinet, two chairs and a table in the center of the room, there was a window at the right side of the chairs and table and at the left side was a cabinet connected to the wall.
At the moment, this was too pathetic to be hell…then again to dull to be heaven…
"Oh you're awake!" Sanzo jumped as he looked at the door in front of him, there was a man standing there with long black hair, grey eyes hidden under round glasses, he wore a white long sleeved shirt, a brown belt and blue jeans.
"It's quite rare to see a young boy lying out in the rain in these parts…so how you feeling?" Sanzo narrowed his eyes as he replied "Like shit!"
The man's eyes went wide open with a tiny bit of shock printed in his eyes, and then he quickly went back into a smile. "Oh well…I guess…that's cool…" said the man as he sat down on a chair from Sanzo.
"Where the hell am I?" asked Sanzo rudely trying to change subject.
"Ahem less of the cursing I do have a six year old you know? You're at my place…why is something wrong?" Sanzo made a little face as he raised one hand up.
"Well for one this room is too dull; you have cobwebs all over the place, you have a chair with three legs, your door has squeaky hinges, you window is filthy…so for the whole thing I rate it at -1, however for the accommodations I'll rate it at hmmm…0.1" the man looked at him even more astounded then before, then he slumped on his chair.
"Man I think I liked you more when you were unconscious…less annoying…" Sanzo closed his eyes agitated at that remark.
"Well I think I liked you more with that hood covering you're face…then you would look less ugly looking…"
"Well excuse my shitty services you're majesty…oh have you noticed that you have a face like a girl Kiddo?" Sanzo frowned at him angrily.
"For starters my name is not Kiddo, it's Genjyo Sanzo and secondly…I do not look like a girl…" the man looked at him surprised for a moment then made a little smirk as he closed his eyes.
"Oh so you're a Sanzo? We don't get much of those…but I always imagined that Sanzo Priest's were old men not little boys…huh?" Sanzo looked at the man whose face seemed to be at the door. He looked over to see big red eyes staring through the door's opening…
"Sakima…you coming to say hello?" then the door fully opened to a little girl a lot smaller than Sanzo with red hair tied in a braid, he was very cute and adorable while holding a little bear in her arms.
Huh? I never seen that colour of hair before…
She ran over to the man and jumped onto his lap. The man smiled as he petted the girl's head. "This is my six year old daughter, Sakima…say hello Sakima…" Sakima only waved her hand the man smiled at his daughter.
"She can be a little bit shy though…and I'm her father…Kyoko…Dehui Kyoko…" Sakima looked at Sanzo, Sanzo couldn't help but stare back at Kyoko's little daughter, he still can't get over her hair colour this was the first time he has ever seen hair like that before.
Kyoko looked at him then looked at Sakima…he then made a little smile as he closed his eyes and looked at his daughter. "Hey Sakima honey why don't you leave daddy alone with the boy for an adult conversation okay?" Sakima looked at Kyoko and then jumped off his lap as he ran out of the door with her teddy bear in hand.
"I see that you've noticed the colour of her hair and eyes right…" Sanzo looked at Kyoko as he looked at him seriously.
"Yeah…I've never seen hair and eyes of that colour…the colour of blood…" Kyoko made a little sorrowful face as he closed his eyes, bobbing his head towards the ground.
"You see…she's a half breed…a child of Taboo…" Sanzo's eyes were then directed to the small opening where in the next room he sees Sakima playing with her teddy bear.
"A child of Taboo…" Sanzo muttered…
"That's right…when a human and a youkai intertwine they have a child that is half human and half youkai…Sakima's mother was a Youkai…but she didn't…accept Sakima…and then started to neglect her…" Sanzo looked back at Kyoko whose eyes seemed to be almost watery.
"…every time that Sakima's mother looked at her…she would always…neglect her…so one day…when she asked me to talk to her alone…she asked me to…kill her…" Sanzo looked at him for a moment then blurted out.
"I see…but why…why should it matter that her child is half Youkai and Half Human?"
Kyoko looked at him with narrowed ice eyes and replied in a cold tone of voice. "Because Taboo…is forbidden…" Sanzo's eyes were completely frozen by those words.
"Blood of Youkai and Blood of Human are never to intermix…but…even though that Sakima is different…I'll always treat her as any father would for any normal child…no matter what anyone would say…I'll always love her…no matter what…"
Sanzo looked at him while he processed everything that Kyoko has said to him. "Well I should let you rest now…I'll check up on you later…pleasant dreams…"
Kyoko stood up as he turned and left, leaving Sanzo completely alone in the room. Sanzo laid his head down on the pillow as he closed his eyes lightly.
Doesn't he know…I can't have pleasant dreams anymore…
Sanzo took a deep breath as he entered the world of slumbers where dreams are smashed and where nightmares become his demons…
Be Strong Genjyo Sanzo…
When will you understand that I can never be strong…Master!
"I Don't Want To Be Alone!"
Huh who is that? Calling me?
"Can anyone here me? Anyone one at all! I'm scared!"
Shut up! You're so loud!
"I Don't Want To Be Alone!"
Shut up!
Sanzo quickly woke up as he shot up, his face covered in a cold sweat as he looked to his left, seeing that Kyoko's daughter Sakima was handling his sutra. He jumped as he snatched it off her small fingers.
"Don't touch that…" Sakima looked at him with her eyes full of innocence. Then Sakima began to cry as she placed her face into her hands.
"You hate me too…sniff, sniff…" Sanzo looked at her, he felt a little bit guilty in a sense. "You hate me…just like…Momma…because of my hair…sniff…and eyes…sob…" Sanzo directed his sad eyes downward to the covers. Why was she so sad? Was it because she thinks that he hates her…?
"Momma always…sniff…always…sniff…ignores me…sob…when I walk close to her…sob…Pappa…told me…sniff…that she was ill…sob…and that…I should leave her be…sniff…" Sanzo now felt a lot guilty.
"You hate me…sniff, sob…" Sanzo then looked at Sakima as he turned himself over and gave her a tiny smile.
"I don't hate you…" Sakima looked up at him with her tears still streaming her face; Sanzo placed a hand on her cheek as he wiped away the tears that streaked on her face.
"It's just that…this is the only thing I have left…of someone I care about…you understand?" Sakima nodded as she gave Sanzo a little cuddle. Sanzo didn't know he was a little bit shocked, and then he returned the cuddle as he closed his eyes.
"I like you Oniichan…you wanna know why?" Sanzo looked at her as he released her from the hug. He looked at her clueless as he wondered what? He nodded just so that the kid doesn't cry any more.
"Because you're eyes is a nice colour…they remind me of the clouds when ever the sun sets…" Sanzo tilted his head a bit.
"Thanks…I guess…" but Sanzo doesn't think that the clouds were ever in a shade of purple.
"Oh, I've gotta go now…bye Oniichan!" went Sakima as she ran out of the room smiling. Sanzo couldn't help but make a little tired sigh. If he made Kyoko's kid cry then he knew that he'd be getting it in the jaw…
It was in the afternoon now and Sanzo is up, he's outside in the country as he looks around the place. The trees looming over him, the sun seeping through the branches catching his golden hair.
Violet eyes switching from side to side, if he walks off too far then he knows that he'll get lost.
"Hey Kiddo!" Sanzo jumped as he turned round. Kyoko waving his hand in the air signaling him. "You might want to take cover…" Sanzo turned round to see a bear standing behind him; Sanzo stood there in shock then dropped himself down unto the ground.
"Thanks…" Kyoko had a rifle in his hands as he pointed it up and aimed it carefully. While Sanzo tries his best in not making a sound, if he does then the bear would attack him. This was not the bear that he had dealt with in the temple.
"Sorry man…" went Kyoko as he made a little guilty face.
Bang, Splutter
Sanzo looked up just enough time to see the bear slump down into the light grass, the sun coming down upon it as blood seeped out of the bear's wound. It was dead, this he knew. He knew from experience that it was dead because of the look in its eye.
"Sigh…that was a close one Kiddo…if that bear seen you then you might've been killed…just with one paw connecting into you're little face you'd die instantly…" went Kyoko as he walked up to the bear, leaning over it.
Sanzo stood up as he looked at the older man angrily, "Why did you kill that bear?" Kyoko looked up at the trees that surrounded them and noticed a little blue butterfly flying into the sky…
"Sanzo…what do you know about a Butterfly?" asked Kyoko softly as he placed his rifle on the ground, Sanzo looked up seeing the blue Butterfly fluttering by them as it went into the sun light, it's blue wings touched by the sun beams.
"I heard once…That When Butterflies Lose Their Wings…they immediately die…you know why? It's because it had one purpose…and that…was to dance to the death…Butterflies are only meant to live for one day…in total…and yet…they keep fluttering their wings…"
Sanzo watched Kyoko as Kyoko's head slouched down with a little smile on his face…
"If the Butterfly stops fluttering its wings…that is a fate worse to them than death…they rather die than stop flying into the sun…as it rises and as it falls…"
Sanzo narrowed his eyes at him "But…for us longer living creatures…we fight for survival…cause in this life Genjyo Sanzo…"
With that Kyoko turned round with his dark eyes turned to him; Sanzo was caught in his gaze as his glasses shone brightly.
"It's Either Kill or Be Killed"
It's the second day and Sanzo is fully healed to leave. He turned round to Kyoko and Sakima who was standing behind them. Kyoko smiled at the young priest cheerfully as he gave Sanzo his pistol and Sutra. Sanzo looked at them and looked back at Kyoko.
"You be careful Kiddo, cause I'm not going to save you're sorry ass again if I find yeah all bruised up again yeah hear?" Sanzo nodded as he made a little smirk.
"Don't worry you won't see me next time…" Sanzo turned round as he was about to leave. He walked on until he stopped at a little hill as he turned his head round.
"Kyoko!" Kyoko looked at determined violets as he looked at the boy for the last time.
"I will repay you…because I always repaid my debts…" Kyoko smiled as he raised one hand up to wave the young priest goodbye. Sakima went a little bit shy then jumped up as she shouted up loud.
"Good Bye Sanzo Oniichan! You will come back to visit right!" Sanzo stopped as he looked at the two for the last time as he made a little face. "Of course I'll come back…some day…"
Sanzo turned and began to walk again as he went into the woods to find his way out. It was pretty much easier since the rain had stopped a couple of days ago. He kept going through trees as their branches slapped against him as he went past.
Be Strong Genjyo Sanzo
Sanzo kept pushing the branches away as he continued to venture deeper into the woods. The leaves that kept fluttering down all over the place, falling from their positions on the trees.
I Like You're Eyes Oniichan, Because They Remind Me Of The Clouds When Ever The Suns Goining To Set
He kept pushing through the bushes and tress to get past everything that went into his way. The sound of them slapping and crackling through out the moment. The wnd went on blowing through his ears as it howled endlessly.
It's Either Kill or Be Killed
Sanzo then looked up at the skies as he took a deep breath of the cleansing air that surrounded him. He then closed his eyes as he looked up into the trees to see a blue winged Butterfly venturing into the skies that surround the trees above.
If the Butterfly stops fluttering its wings…that is a fate worse to them than death…they rather die than stop flying into the sun…as it rises and as it falls…
Sanzo closed his eyes once more as he continued to journey through the forests, to find his own way, to find his own path, to find his own Purpose.
When a Butterfly flutters its wings
It flutters one step closer to death
As it dances in the Moonlight
It Dances closer to destruction
Closer to the end…
To Be Continued
Sanzo's Guardian Angel: Hey people so what you think of my first Chapter? Depressing? Exciting? Awful? Terrible? The next Chapter is about Gojyo…so please wish me good Luck… and leave a review on how I can make it better.