L.A

Sonny watch in amazement as Alexis, Angel and his mother trained. Moves right out of a Saturday afternoon Kung fu movie. He began to notice style and form, how they used there strengths and covered their weaknesses. He rocked a sleepy Kristina as she reached up and stuck her fingers in his mouth. He made noise at her and smiled, she sighed sticking her tiny thumb in her mouth. Once training was over Alexis sat down next to them. Kristina turned her head and looked at her mother, Alexis took her and Sonny handed her a bottle. Alexis rocked and feed the baby girl until she fell asleep. Sonny took the bottle and handed Alexis a bottle of water, he looked at Alexis she was staring at Spike and Angel. Not taking notes of there moves just watching them. Or trying not to look at him he wasn't to sure.

-Alexis?-

-What?-

The tone of being annoyed by him hit Sonny hard.

-Lets go.-

-Where?-

-To talk.-

Alexis didn't want to do this at all he made his choices and now he had to stick with them.

-You might want to record this.-

-Why?-

-I was wrong and I fucked up.-

Alexis was startled, then shocked, then suspicious.

-Yeah?-

-You sound as if the other shoe is going to drop.-

-Yeah?-

Sonny sighed.

-I...-

He didn't know how to confess his soul. He used to be able to with her, but so much had passed between them.

-I can say I'm sorry. It wouldn't mean anything not after everything I've done to hurt you. You where right you all were, Carly and I went from loving each other to loving to hate each other.-

-I don't give a shit.-

-You should I let Carly destroy the only friend I truly had besides Jason, cause I was afraid to lose her. I was afraid to make her deal with me having you in my life and I was willing to let that go. I'm asking you to let go of the past and lest star over.-

-You've got to be kidding.-

-No councilor I'm not. I asking you for our daughter sake lets not spend her life fighting like Carly and I will.-

-We won't fight Sonny I just don't want to have anything to do with you.-

-Are you saying this because you're angry or hurt.-

-What's the difference?-

-Angry you trying to get back at me. Hurt you just don't want to get hurt again.-

Alexis snorted.

-Both. I gave you my trust the one thing I cherish the most. I don't want my daughter to become a casualty of you and Carly.-

-I would never let that happen.-

-You already did not once but twice you let Carly use Kristina against me then you used Kristina against me.-

-I didn't know about her then.-

-So the fact the she wasn't your daughter then made it okay?-

-Don't even try and twist my words councilor.-

-Well was it!... Sonny?-

-No it wasn't! Don't you think I know? Don't you think I know I went too far? The anger in Jason eyes in his whole being, the terror in that little girls eyes. The very fact that you threaten Michael don't you think I knew! I play back the last two years of my life, I play back the way I nearly ran Lilli home to her father for Brenda. What Sam said about fucking over two good WOMEN for two bad GIRLS. Don't you think I know!-

-Then why did you do it? If you know why couldn't you just have some self control it's not hard. We slip from time to time but it seems to be your MO. I'm not going to play that game and neither will Kristina. -

-Alexis. I'm asking for a second chance.-

-And I'm telling you NO. Be a father to your child but don't expect anymore for me. I'm done.-

Alexis walked out passed Adella. She looked at Sonny.

-Michael?-

-She won't forgive me and I don't blame her.-

-But you want her.-

-What?-

-You want her back your looking at what you had even when you just where friends and you want more then just that.-

-In one day Alexis told me she was falling in love with me, we conceive a child and I kicked her to curb.-

-So you made a mistake.-

-There other shit to mom.-

-Yes there is but you don't get trust back you earn it. You know that, earn the women's trust Michael.-

-How she won't let me in.-

-Did she just let you in when you first met?-

Sonny thought about it.

-I thoughts so. You better get to work bubba.-

He kissed her check and looked in on Kristina.

-Well mi amour we have a long fight ahead of us.-

Puerto Rico

Jason had to laugh at them both, barely able to move Slayers more then others. He was trying to teach Elizabeth basic skills in protecting herself. Course after she was raped she took course so she didn't really need the basics so they moved up. But every time she got near a sore spot he'd lean away to that's point where she said.

-I quit I need a vampire or something to beat on cause if I hit you I'm going to hurt you more. Jason?-

Jason had sat down on the sand and began to play with Lexa she giggle and cooed at him.

-Jason!-

-Hmm, yeah I'm thinking there have got to be vampires in PR. We just need to find one.-

Someone whistled form the deck.

-How about me mate?-

-Spike.-

-Who's Spike.-

-A vampire and a friend.-

They headed toward him and he carefully backed away from the sunny door.

-You two look like shit.-

-Thanks.- They said in unison

-So the little chickie did this?-

-Yes.- again in unison

-Well never fear Spike here.-

They looked at each other

-Hooray!- unison, dead pan.

Spike smiled he liked these two. Spike saw Lexa and went toward her. Jason growled at him. Spike looked up in surprise and smiled.

-I'm very good with babies' mate.-

-Not this one mate, not my baby girl.-

-Jason don't be rude.- Liz gestured for him to hand over Lexa.

Jason shook his head like a child in a defiant no.

-Give him that kid!- Liz said through gritted teeth.

-There, there little one. Boy it's a baby factory with you bunch idin it. She's beautiful. You two do good work.-

-She's not ours.- unison.

-Her father was Xander Smith he died and my husband Ric was suppose to be her father but where not going to last so I need someone reliable.-

-Him.- Spike looked at Jason

-Yes.-

-Good choice reminds me of the poof in an Angelus kinda way.-

-Excuse me?-

-Angel.-

-Oh then who Angelus.-

-Angel without his soul.-

They both nodded. Spike smiled these two could be fun.

-Okay so what are you doing here?-

-M here to train ya luv.-

-Oh I see, well lets get to it the sooner I learn the sooner I can help Alexis and Adella.-

-Gun Ho eh chit?-

-Yeap oh and Spike?-

-Yes.-

-Don't call me luv, chit, sugar, honey, sweetie, darlin or anything else.-

-Then what the hell am I suppose to call you?-

-Elizabeth.- Jason said snatching Lexa out of his arms.

-No that won't do. Hmm you look like one of those sharp types.-

-Me I'm artist.-

-Nothing to do with combat. Oh I know diamond.-

Elizabeth looked at Jason.

-Diamond? Floppy frumpy even dumpy but not Diamond.-

-Before I'm done love you will be.-

London

Giles wasn't expecting him but there he was. Wesley was back in England and looking livid. Giles took in the man he saw as a pest no to long ago. That sort of naiveté and innocence where gone now, he believe that even this Wes could give the Ripper a run for his money.

-Wesley.-

-Giles. Do you know where my father is?-

-No Wesley I don't neither does anyone else. He took his group and ran.-

-Leads.-

-None.-

-Suspects?-

-None. He cleaned is tracks well.-

-Not form Wolfram and Heart I give my office a call then we'll find my father.-

-Wesley.-

-What?- Giles looked to use his word carefully.

-We don't want to deal with them.-

-Fine don't but don't get in my way when looking for my father. Not event he Ripper with help you if you do.-

The challenge in his eyes was very clear. Giles removed his glasses.

-Is that a threat?-

-You bet your arise it is. Care to test me on it?-

-To be honest no. I seriously doubt I'd win considering your state of mind right now.-

-Is that to say I'm insane with grief, pain and betrayal.-

-Wesley about Ms. Burkel.-

-You know my father imagine what is like to grow up in the house. Then imagine that you suddenly change all of that all of it the bullshit of the Watcher legacy means nothing. Imagine that loneliness compound by Cordelia death one I was prepared for then imagine being in love and wanting and finally getting that love and losing it imagine Giles. You and Buffy added that with your decision not to inform Willow.-

-Its a decision we both have to live with for the rest of our lives.-

-It will pass.-

-How could you say that?-

-Because you didn't know her, you didn't want to. Why is it that now we're working together, why is that when you heard Cordy and Angel where in trouble you didn't come to see if we need anything. Why is it when Cordelia died you never called. It made it easy, very easy for you all to judge us.-

-We never-

-Don't waste my time.-

Giles was hurt, Willow had said the same words to him but with a little more profanity. She'd laid into him so thick he thought she gone evil, Buffy couldn't even speak about there conversation in L.A. when she got back she could only assume Angel was nicer about his anger then Willow was. In the end, they had made a choice to let someone die, they had made the choice that Angel was off the path which Willow clearly pointed out was the same as theirs. Now Willow was replaceing what was lost without even a second thought and daring them to make the same stupid, judgmental decision.

-I won't let's find your father shall we.-

The tone in his voice told Wesley his words hit home course he was there when Willow went off on him. Wesley was sure that his choice was actually eating at him. When they came into the watcher council Xander met them.

-Wills didn't come.-

-Sonny and Alexis where attacked found a large nest. Almost thousands of the new creatures. Little boys, young men, they're looking for a way to destroy them. She's busy.-

-Thousands you say.-

-Yes.-

-Bloody hell.- Giles said.

-Wolfram & Heart.-

-How can you stand it?- Xander asked.

-Been fighting for so long its old hat. Often times they brought it to our door. Now we bring it to there's.-

Wesley sighed.

-I could us a Cordy inspired talk right now. God I miss her so much.-

Buffy was sitting in her office with Dawn when she heard what he said.

-Cordy? I'm sorry about her but you guys go on like she was a saint I remember vain, whinny girl and a pain in the ass.-

-I remember a beautiful, funny, seer who changed into an amazing women and warrior and gave up allot for Angel and his mission. It cost her, her life.-

Xander looked confused.

-I don't understand?-

-The vision weren't meant for normal humans.-

-What? What does that mean?- Giles

-The previous seer Doyle was half demon. It was meaning for normal humans it was killing Cordy.-

-What?- They said at once.

-She had a brain tumor she was taking heavy medication. She would have been dead sooner but she was set up.-

-How?-

-She fell into a coma, during that time she was giving the choice to be demonized so she can go in with the visions. She could have said no but she did it for Angel and his mission little did we know the demonizing and the whole choice thing was a farce. Then she ascended to a higher plan and Angel excepted that she was gone, the one day she was back no memory, the she got her memory back, then it become a mess with Jasmine that's when we discovered the whole thing was a set up but the evil had already taken over Cordy.-

Buffy stared in shock.

-For a long while we where getting along without her but we where off track. Then she came back and put us back on track. It felt like old times she was her usual Cordy self and then she was gone. This time for good.-

[tbc]