Don't own Twilight

Don't own the lyrics, they belong to Cauterize and are part of the song "I'll Cry Tomorrow," (OK, so the lyrics aren't amazing, but I like the song)

I went upstairs and blasted my stereo to drown out everything.

"I know that I should probably hurt so bad but I can't feel a thing.
I know that I should probably say something but I can barely breathe.
And I'm sorry if I'm giving up too easy
I just don't have the strength to fight no more."

The words ran through my mind over and over. Edward and I had so many adversaries. For one we were of different species and by nature could never live in harmony. Then there was James, Billy, my human frailties. Yet, somehow we always seemed to manage to stay together. But a vampire sweetheart? How could I compete with that? The idea of true love floated through my mind.

"Bullshit." I spoke aloud.

I must have been delusional to think that this would ever last. I was stupid, stupid for ever thinking he could really love me the way he said. I was even stupider for believing him, trusting him. Oh, but I did, I did! I trusted him with my life!

As thebrilliant sun was setting that evening I decided not to heed Edward's warning and stepped out into the woods. I walked admiring the last rays streaming in through the trees. It was getting chilly, but I didn't care. I walked deeper and deeper into the forest. Then I heard it.

A rustling in the shrubs nearby made me stop dead in my tracks. A second later, a musical laughter filled the woods. I was confused.

From between the trees a most beautiful woman emerged. Her hair was rich chocolate brown, long and wavy. She was slender and sleek, with skin like porcelain. Her golden eyes glowed warmly and her perfect skin glimmered where the setting sun hit it. She was easily as pretty as Rosalie if not more so. I suddenly realized that this must have been Layla. My admiration for the astonishingly beautiful creature turned to utter fear. I took a step back as she slowly floated towards me, her long silver gown fluttering in the wind.

"Don't be ridiculous Bella." She giggled lightly, her voice like velvet. "I'm not going to hurt you." She smiled sweetly, but there was something in her eyes, a kind of deep seated malice that caused me to shrink from her.

"I'm simply here to talk." She stopped a few feet away from me.

"About what?" I barely managed to get out.

"Oh, I'm sorry. Allow me to introduce myself. I'm Layla. I think you know what I want to talk to you about, or rather whom I'd like to talk about." She paused studying my now terrified face. "I love him very much. I know he still loves me. You see, I'm a vampire, I can be with him forever. I can give him what you can't. I can understand him in ways you never will. We were very close. We knew each other… biblically." At that she giggled again. She loved my misery. She continued, the same smile still plastered on her face.

"I think you should leave him alone. If you don't, he will leave you. I will have him. You see, it's nothing personal, but we're meant to be together."

"Edward loves me." I said meekly, not quite sure.

"You poor thing. Well, Edward can be quite charming. I'm not surprised he's made you believe that. But did he ever offer you eternity, did he ever offer to marry you, or give you this." With the last words she flashed her hand. Her finger was adorned by an exquisite diamond ring. I couldn't believe it.

"You were engaged to Edward?" I stammered feeling stupider by the second.

"Indeed. We were supposed to be married shortly, but I had to leave. I swore I would come back for him. And now I have. Now we can get married, and you can just run along."

It's over I thought. I knew it couldn't have been real. I was fooling myself the whole time. I was angry, angry at myself, angry at Edward. He was engaged?

"Layla, leave her alone." I heard his sensual voice behind me.

"I was only informing her about our relationship. Something you failed to do." She retorted. Her eyes narrowed as Edward approached.

"Get out of here. I told you. We're through."

"You can't mean that. I know you still love me. Why did you give me a ring, why did you propose if you didn't?" She questioned.

Edward's face was pained. He looked to me apologetically. I looked away the second our eyes met.

"I don't' want to see you. Go Layla. Leave Bella and me alone. Forever."

"Are you saying you never loved me Edward Cullen?" She demanded.

"I don't want to talk about this here." Here with me, I thought.

"This is a fine place to talk. Answer me!" She demanded. Edward flinched.

"I .. did. I did love you Layla. That was a long time ago. We were young, we didn't know any better."

Layla took of the diamond ring and flung it at Edward with such speed and force that I didn't realize what she did until he was gripping it between his fingers.

"Good bye Edward." Her eyes filled with such sadness and sorrow that I almost hated Edward for making her so miserable. She was gone in an instant.

He turned to me. I didn't want to see him. How could he do this?

"I'm sorry Bella." He said with melancholy eyes.

"Shut up." I said angrily. He looked surprised by my boldness.

"You still love her." I whispered, clearly lying to myself.

(AN: Insert prologue here)

"Bella, it's over. Yes, I had feelings for her, but I never felt anything close to what I feel for you. You are my life, Bella. I don't want anyone, anything else. Please believe me." He pleaded.

"Believe you?" I asked outraged. "You've been lying all this time. How can I ever trust you again? 'Bella, my darling, my love. You're my only one, the only one I've ever loved.' " I mocked him.

"I know, I know. I've been terrible, lousy, I deserve it. But please, please come back to me. I have never loved like I love you. I swear to you." He looked so pathetic, I couldn't help but pity him. I wanted to reach out to him, comfort him, forgive and forget. Instead I did something that I later deeply regretted.

"Is that why you didn't want to change me? So you can be with her after I'm dead and rotting in the ground? That was the plan all along wasn't it? Get rid of the damn human, so you can screw you're vampire sweetie?" I yelled at the top of my lungs. I stopped suddenly after realizing what I said.

His eyes never looked so menacing. They were jet black. And then he was gone. In a flash I found myself standing alone in the forest. I had gone too far.