Disclaimer: I don't own FMA or the characters. I just own this storyline. Title of story inspired by Gavin Digraw

Chariot - Ch. 4

Rinse it all Away

It was late after noon before I really woke up. The way Mustang had said he had just come to visit me because he wanted me back out on the field had made a tight indention in my chest, like an ach that wouldn't stop and I knew in some small part of my loathing that I really hadn't wanted him to leave.

I laid back listening to people walking through the halls outside my door and the song of birds chirping by my window. I then turned in my bed and was met with the most unpleasant smell ever; it was almost worse then the smell of Hawkeye's dog after it had been playing out side for the day.

The smell, by the way, was me. That's right, me. So after some sure fire peeping to make positive no one was going to walk in on me while I took a shower I leapt from my bed, pulled off my smelly cloths, leapt into the bathroom attached to my room.

As the water cascaded over me all the tension of the past few months melted away and I was reborn, but then a thought struck me, the water droplets felt like finger tips... I knew I needed this bath, but the feel for the water suddenly left me and I quickly washed my hair and body jumping out of the shower.

I felt hot tears fall from my eyes as images of that night came back to me. "Why-? Why-why-why-WHY?" I had slumped to the floor by now sobbing for the pain to leave me, to disappear, to...die...

There was a razor on the edge of the sink right in front of me...all I had to do...all I had to...take the razor...

And I did, but just as I held it to my warm shower-softened skin ready to slice my rist and take all the pain away the door flung open and the figure quickly reached out to me taking the blade and throwing it across the room still holding my rist tightly and he yelled at me...

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"I could hear you yelling from down the hall Edward, what he hell where you thinking?" I never would have believe he would sink this low, I'd always thought he was stronger then this.

"You cant just escape from this with a quick slit of the rist! Think of your brother and getting your body back! Doesn't that mean anything to you anymore?" His eyes were wide and staring, but not at me...at my hand which was enclosed around his rists and his eyes began to water, that's when I knew how much all of this had effected him.

I slowly let go as his naked limp form fell to the floor. "Why...?" He asked me as I crouched down beside him. "Why do these terrible things always happen to me...to us, Al and me? Why did our mother die? Why did we lose our body's? Why did I get...?"

I could just feel his anguish, so this is what he'd been wanting to say all this time? Ever since the first day I met him I knew he had a secret question to ask that none could answer, just like all of us really.

His question was simple and childish ,but so full of pain, "Why do all of these bad, horrible, gruesome things always happen to me?"

I looked over my shoulder at the other passerby's who had come to see why Ed had screamed and they all looked the same, pale and speechless. Then I answered Ed the only way I knew how..."That's just the way things are Ed...that's just the way things are."

A/N:

I know I haven't updated in a long time and stuff but here is a chap. now and I give you my word that I'll try super hard to update a lot sooner this time, k?

Sorry for the cliffy and augustness, poor Ed.

Ed: Your damn right poor Ed!

Me: Well, didn't I say I was going to get you and Mustang together before the end of the story and this is going to be a long one.

Ed: Well hurry up! You make me seem like I'm dead or something! Gosh!

Me: You'll get to have some fun...eventually.

Ed: "..." fuming

Well thats all folks, until next time! Bye bye!

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