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I don't own FMA or the characters in it I only own this story line for this fan fiction.
Chariot Ch.5: Dare
The sun was shining in though the windows when I woke the next day, even though I hadn't opened my eyes I knew the sun was up. From what I could tell it was late and beside me I could hear someone moving around. Shoving the covers from me I was met with the kind ,and yet unsteady, face of Hawkeye. She looked up from where she had been standing beside the bed at the sound of the sheets ruffle.
Setting the papers in her hand down on the bedside table she smiled and said in her motherly voice that she often uses with me, "How are you feeling?"
I knew she was worried about me so to save her from my depressing truth of feeling I simply said, "I could be better." Which was still the truth, just not the truth I knew she wanted.
Her eyes fell and she took a strong breath sitting beside me on the bed. I tensed at the closeness and I knew she could feel my reservation. "I'm worried about you Edward and so is the corneal. He's the one who asked me to stay with you last night since he was called to the capital on business."
I made no move to say anything and she continued. "He wont be back for another couple of hours so-"
"You can go I don't need a babysitter." I said in a stern voice making sure not to look at her. I still couldn't make a connection…with anyone. Then I herd the door close not having realized someone was standing in the door way.
"Well then I suppose its your lucky day Fullmetal because the furor has put you on suicide watch for the next month." Mustang…I was suddenly hit with all of the flashes of what had happened the night before.
"Corneal! I didn't expect you back before noon." Hawkeye said standing from her seat on the bed. I herd him laugh at her surprise and turned over in my bed covering myself again with my sheets.
Then he stopped and I herd his voice again only this time it was flat with no sign of the humor it had had only moments ago. "Lieutenant Hawkeye, you may leave. Edward Elric and I have some matters that need to be discussed."
The door closed and we were alone. He walked beside my bed then abruptly he pulled the sheets form me. "What are you-!" I began to protest, but then he grabbed me by the shoulders and pulled me up out of my comfort zone.
I could feel my body shaking and the tears rolling down my cheeks as I was held so tightly by him my toes barely grazing the floor. Then he placed me on the cold flat wood ever so gently and said, "You cant lay in this bed for the rest of your life. You survived being raped and having two of your limbs taken from you and your still alive."
I didn't know what to say. I just stood in front of him with my mouth hanging open and my eyes wide staring at him. He grinned. "Don't worry. The furor has appointed me to be your guide, for lack of a better word, as you heal from this experience."
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I could see the confusion on his face and knew he needed an explanation as to why I had been assigned to him instead of a subordinate.
"I thought after last night you might feel uneasy with anyone else so I told the furor I would take care of you until your well again." He had his eyes downcast as if he wasn't listening though I knew every word had soaked in him like a sponge.
In that moment something changed between us I felt his pain when he lunged at me his arms wrapping themselves around me like a child… "He is a child…" Only fifteen, but he's experienced horrors no one should ever have to face and that has made him an adult. My eyes were wide with shock when I felt the full weight of his depression on me. His sobs filled the room and it wasn't until moments later that he let go. And then he looked up at me, giving me something I knew he'd never given anyone but his own sibling…his trust. That was the change we'd made in those moments. He was trusting me not to laugh or judge or curse him for his weaknesses and I knew I had to respect that trust.
"You should take today to rest because tomorrow I'm taking you outside. Some fresh air and sunlight can do wonders for a person." He'd stopped crying and sighed in what I could only assume was his way of saying , "I'll try." Then he looked at me once more as I began to leave and he laid back down in his bed.
His eyes were so focused on me they gave me chills and I knew…I don't know how and then asked, "I can stay until you fall asleep." It was a deliberate statement because I knew if I asked him if he wanted me to stay his pride would have refused.
As he adjusted his pillow laying himself down he replied, "If you want to." Which I translated to, "I want you to stay." So I did and without thinking about it I watched him sleep in peace for hours clutching his pillow to his chest and waking every now and then to make sure I was still with him. And I didn't mind, I wanted to protect him…I just didn't know why.
A/N:
I am sooooooo sorry for the long and anticipated wait! Gahh! And dont sy anything about spelling for now b/c I'm working on getting a beta so neeeee! >XD
With holidays and my grandmother in the hospital, my sister having her first child, and my exams I just haven't had time BUT with the coming semester I have super mondo easy classes SOOO I will have loads of time to finish this lovely story which has been so praised and I have neglected for so long. I love you all for sticking with me and I'll see you in the '06! ----- 3
P.S.
You get a cookie if you count how many times I said 'so' in that little speal and al'so'(lol XD)
I will try my very best to update by the end of next week