Mafia!
V1:I like...
I looked thru the papers but I couldn't do anything...My mind was at her and I could swear I saw her everywhere.I regretted how I treated her somehow...But I can't decide if I love ehr or hate her to death...Sometimes I just think how I would wish to just forget everything and hug her...ask her for a chance but that would be to low for me...Not low...My heart sais that it's not low to ask for a chance from the woman I love but...What if is hate?hate for what she did the last time...I know that the one I loved is somewhere buried inside this new Hotaru.But she's so different the same time...She's sometimes so cold from what Kyrya told me and what I saw by myself..My Hotaru was warm...This one smilles the same but it's not so honest like it used to be...She doesn't care about me like she used to...The way she would touch me and make me smile...This Hotaru seems to hate me...I made her...I have to win her somehow when I find her...Maybe I should use 'night' to obtain her love...I will find her...And she will be mine again...Love only me...see only me...care only about me.
-Sesshoumaru-sama.
I was disturbed again..By this...frog.He rolled his eyes and turned his back to Jaken.
-What is it Jaken?
The frog came into the office and looked with fear at his master.
-We could only find about this Eclipse things since his friendship with Kyrya-sama and until their break up when he .
-He what?
-He vanished...as if he dissapeared over the face of the planet.
-No one can just dissappear...Find him...Find him or I'll have your head.
-H...hai!
And he was finally alone..no matter what he will have her heart again...Only for him...He was possessive with what was his and she belonged to him for so long..
It's snowing again...I look thru the window and see the snow falling...I don't understand what's with the paint...But it's not me!I never saw this...man...in my life!How could I pose for him...and in such a maner as if we where...lovers?My bracelet...is still cracked and I hope it will fall so I could fight and escape...But escape where?Is it really still availale the word escape?2 weeks passed since I got here...And I kinds got used to it...Even with him...He allowed me to walk in the garden during the day...Maybe he's not such a bad guy...But I'm so confused...When I looked at him from the garden and saw him so seriously cheking something,maybe his papers...My heart didn't felt fear anymore...Not wormth either...Maybe I start to like him in a way...He never forced me into something...I feel his eyes looking at me when I turn so he wouldn't catch me staring at him...I know something for sure...I like his eyes so much...But that's it!I can't possibly like him further...He kidnaped me...or did he saved me?From my father...and from...Sesshoumaru...Another man I can't understand...He does some things that I don't understand at all...he's weird...Last night I met Eclipse...yes...such a...uniq name...I like it how it sounds.
-Eclipse.
We met in the hallway...Then I realised I missed somehow his visits even if we allways fight somehow..His eyes hwne he saw me...Such an expression...I like it...I liked his reaction...But I couldn't stand them more...I felt that I'll lose my composure...I can't love...or care about him...Eeven if I do...and even if he would...We can never be...My life had been tied by Sesshoumaru by the Mafia's laws...I can't walk over them...Even if I'll get to love him...it will be unrequited love...I'll still be to marry him...the Ice prince...Sesshoumaru.So I walked further...ignoring him...well...pretending to ignore him...As I passed I felt the tears falling madly...Tears for my life...Tears for my ended future...Tears for my...decided life..