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April Showers Bring May Flowers

Summary: Who is April? What if she was still alive? Would Roger and Mimi still fall in love? Would Angel and Collins still meet the same way? How would the plot of the movie/play change? Would Mimi, Angel, Roger, and Collins still have AIDS? Read to find out.

Far Away

(Present Day)

February 7th 1991

1:34pm E.S.T.

I can't believe a year has gone by so fast. Mark thought to himself as he walked down the sidewalks. He sighed and looked around for Mimi. He was suppose to be meeting her at the Life Café.

I can't believe that Roger is gone. He had always pushed those thoughts out of his mind when they came – but he couldn't stop the thoughts this time. It was true, Roger was gone. He had gone off to Santa Fe after April died.

Of course, Mark had tried to make Roger stay, but he wouldn't. Mimi was still with Benny and for some reason, he didn't care. He stopped caring about her after he found out that she went off with Benny the first time. That's at least what Mark thought when he looked onto the subject. Mark stuffed his hands in his pockets and entered the Life. Mimi was sitting in a corner drinking tea, he waved and walked over. Mimi smiled.

"I'm glad that you could make it, I was afraid that you wouldn't want to see me after all of this."

"I would never not want to see you Mimi, you know that." Mimi shrugged.

"Yes, but I was the one that made Roger leave."

"It's not you, it's just that he needed to get away from all of this and figure himself out. I think he'll be back soon." Mimi looked out the window.

"I don't think so… April is gone and he'll probably never want to come back here… What is there left here for him?" Mark flinched at this – he was Roger's beset friend, so Roger would come back to him again? They had been friends since forever; Roger couldn't just forget could he?

"You know Mimi, he still loves you." Mark said after a moment of silence.

"Fat chance – I mean come on Mark, how can he still love me?"

"Because…" Mark trailed off and Mimi glanced at him.

"I told you."

"He loves you Mimi, don't give up. I know that he'll be back."

"I should trust you… You're his best friend." She sighed and rubbed her temples. "But I can't, it's just too hard to believe that he'll come back… After all that I did to him, I hurt him and then he hurt me and then I hurt him again and… I just can't take it anymore – there is not way that Roger is coming back… Thanks anyways Mark."

The rest of the day was sat in silence, Mark got up first – after paying for lunch – he decided that there was nothing left to discuss. Mimi thanked Mark and walked along the streets alone. She knew that Angel and Collins were waiting for her at the apartment, but she didn't want to go there.

Two months – well almost. He had been gone for two months.

"This time, this place… Misused, mistakes, too long, too late. Who was I to make you wait?" She sighed and circled around the neighbor hood – she wondered what Roger was doing now. She knew that she was alone now, she had nobody anymore. She didn't love Benny, she loved Roger and she knew that even in death – he still loved April. She just had a feeling about it.

"Just one chance, just one breath… Just in case there's just one left, 'cause you know, you know, you know... That I love you, I have loved you all along… And I miss you!" Mimi sand and screamed out the last part. She missed him terribly, but she knew that this was all her fault and she should be the one hurting.

"Been far away for far too long, I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go. Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore." She ran into the man and stared at him, she couldn't go back to using. He checked her out and she made her decision. She wouldn't start up just because her life was in a wreck. She walked away from the man and shook her head, she looked up to the sky and prayed that Roger would come back to her, so she wouldn't have to die lonely.

"On my knees, I'll ask last chance for one last dance. 'Cause with you, I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand. I'd give it all, I'd give for us, give anything but I won't give up. 'Cause you know, you know, you know…" Mimi shouldn't have given up that easily that one time that he had told her to get out of the loft. She should have pursued him longer… Did he still love her? She was sure that she loved him.

"That I love you; I have loved you all along. And I miss you… Been far away for far too long I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go. Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore." Mimi walked into her building – giving up on her own thoughts and walked into her loft. She looked around for Angel or Collins; they seemed to be out for a little while.

"So far away, been far away for far too long… So far away, been far away for far too long. But you know, you know, you know…" She let her tears fall as she walked into the loft. She threw her jacket and keys down and looked around the empty apart. So many images of April always greeting her at the door with something home-made filled her mind. She traced her fingers along the oven and sat herself down in front of it.

"I know you miss April too." She whispered to the oven and looked around again. The loft was so empty – so dead, no life in here since April left. She missed the good times with April and Angel. She missed Roger too much for words.

"I wanted… I wanted you to stay, 'cause I needed… I need to hear you say, that I love you I have loved you all along. And I forgive you… For being away for far too long, so keep breathing. 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore, believe it, hold on to me and, never let me go." She pushed her hair out of her face and looked out the window. Where was Roger when she needed him? The loft door sounded as it opened.

"Keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore, believe it. Hold on to me and, never let me go. Keep breathing, hold on to me and, never let me go, keep breathing… Hold on to me and, never let me go…" Mimi finished and stood up as Angel walked into the loft with Collins along behind her.

One look at the tears on her face and Angel was there hugging her best friend to death. "I know you miss him Mimi…" She thought back to how she had pushed Roger out of the loft that one time that he came to see her. Mimi sighed and pushed away from Angel.

"It's okay Angel, I think I'm getting over him." Mimi lied and she knew what she had to do.

-:-

(Present Day)

February 7th 1991

8:48pm E.S.T.

Roger – at first – didn't even think of leaving as an option. But then he found out that life would be cheaper and easier if he just left them all behind. He could find a job – which he did – in Santa Fe and then… Well the future would come on its own. The only thing that he couldn't shake from his mind was Mimi and the way that she looked when he had told her that he was leaving.

He thought that she didn't love him anymore and he was sure that he didn't love her at all… But what to do now? He had already made his decision to move away and forget about April's request of him to talk to Mimi, to tell her that he loved her. He had never said it… He had never told her how he felt about her. Mimi had always been the one that cared more about the relationship more then he did… But what did they expect?

That he would tell her all the time that he loved her – when he couldn't even tell April that he loved her when she had said that she would always love him. He shook his head and finished up at the bar that he worked at. He couldn't focus with Mimi floating in and out of his thoughts. Why hadn't he at least told her that he loved her? He could have just said it to her and he hadn't remembered… No, that was stupid; he would remember something that meaningful. He waved to the owner of the bar, Paige, and walked out – his shift was done.

"Have a nice day Roger!" Paige shouted and Roger nodded as he made his way out of the bar. He walked along the streets of Santa Fe remembering what Collins had said about leaving New York for Santa Fe. It wasn't so great here – actually he hated it here and wished he was back with Mimi or April…

But mostly Mimi.

"Roger! You forgot this." Paige yelled and ran over to Roger, throwing him his leather jacket. "I don't get why you wear this anyways. It's burning out here." She gestured to her short skirt and black fishnets. Roger looked at her and got a image of Mimi instead of Julia. He pushed her out of her mind and looked around.

"It's just I need something to remind of where I come from."

"Come from?" Paige questioned and Roger nodded.

"New York – you know that." Paige laughed and shook her head.

"I didn't know that." Paige pushed her blonde hair of her face and turned around to the bar. "I'll see you tomorrow night Roger." She said and walked away. Roger sighed and turned in the opposite direction. Paige was like Mimi and he missed Mimi so much.

But he couldn't go back, he just couldn't. After all he had did to her, he couldn't go and lose his pride… To her, the one that cheated on him for Benny, who she knew they all hated… But he couldn't help thinking about Mimi. Maybe April was right, maybe he did love her.

Then again, maybe April was wrong – maybe Roger was only covering up for the pain that April caused him by being with Mimi… Maybe Roger was just covering up for the pain that Mimi caused him by going out with April again when she was sick. He finally decided what to do.

He loved Mimi – more then anybody else in the world and he had no idea why he was still in Santa Fe… He looked around for the bus station – he was heading home.

-:-

(Present Day)

February 7th 1991

8:48pm E.S.T.

Mimi hid in the dark alley way and looked around. Nobody was here; she could get this over with. She started to get her arm ready and then let the needle fall into her arm. She sighed as the pain washed over her. She had gone back… Gone back to being a druggie and she was risking her life and was throwing away everything that April had told her for Roger… She wasn't going to live if she couldn't live life with Roger. She cried after she was done and from then on, she kept doing it… Forgetting about everything – Angel, Mark, Maureen, April, Roger, Collins, Joanne, and Benny – just to let her pain fade away for a little while.

End of Far Away