hello! well, this is the second and final part to "crush". soooo, if you thought before was eww, this'll be ewwier. there a kiss in here. only a kiss, nothing more, but i'm making another itasasu story thats M so if you like child molestation, incest, and itasasu, your in luck. well, any way. onto the story!

warnings- a kiss(no tongue sorry to say XDD), yaoi, shouta, and incest.

reasons- cause i like itasasu!

rating- pg to pg-13

pairing- itachi/sasuke sasuke/itachi

summary-You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way

disclaimer- not my song, not my characters. please dont sue. i only have R rated itasasu doujin!

weeeeeeell, enjoyjoy!

a month.

it had been one month since the day sasuke had admitted his love. one month since his brother began dating, bringing home anyone who he saw fit to be near him. in that month, sakura had told ino, who told everyone else. in that month he was picked on horribly, by boys, ignored by girls, and had looks of disgust thrown at him by teachers. no one wanted to come near him, and he couldn't understand why. he saw people hug and kiss in public, sometimes it was even two people of the same sex. so why was this love so wrong? must be because they were brothers he had thought. luckily, no one had told his parents, as the ever looming older brother was always there. while itatchi never showed any sympathy, he did defend sasuke. but he couldn't stop the hurtful words being said behind his back. that wasn't in his power.

in that month, sasuke had felt more alone then ever before. every time he saw a girl firmly attached to itachi's arm, his heart cracked and it wouldn't be long till it shattered. he hadn't seen itatchi kiss her or anything else, but it wasn't long till he would. it was only one girl, but she made him boil with rage and jealousy the moment he saw her. he hated her, especially how she was so pretty and so annoyingly sweet. he hated it.

currently he was sitting on the porch, watching the gate with blank eyes. his face was far from blank as it was twisted in a frown. it was bright and sunny, and only a few clouds marred the perfect blue of the sky. he sighed, resting his chin in his small pale hands, which rested on his swinging legs. small thud sounds were heard as his bare heels connected with the polished wood, and scrapped them slightly. he must have either not cared or not noticed because sasuke didn't look away from the still gate. his ears perked up at the sound of cheery talking and a few light hearted giggles. sasuke's dark eyes immediately narrowed and anger clouded them, turning the glossy gray of his eyes to a hard lack-luster. he stood and was about to head inside to escape the vommitt inducing sight when a happy voice was heard.

"oh! sasuke-kun, there you are! we've been looking for you!"

he froze and he could almost feel the piercing gaze of his brother, who the girl was no doubt holding hands with. he turned around and forced a smile and closed his eyes in fake happiness. he would fake it if it made itatchi happy. anything for the one he loves. the girl smiled brightly, her bright purple eyes closing as her cheeks came up.

"o-oh yeah? sorry." sasuke replied.

the girl brushed her long fingers through her orangeish colored hair and let her smile fall slightly, and he couldn't help but wish to dissapear. that girl had just graduated yesterday, and she knew of his not so secret love for his brother. her pretty eyes were clouded in disgust, and sasuke knew that she didn't like him. hell, she was probably only following itatchi, as she didn't like him much from the start.

"well, its okay. I'm glad your okay." she responded with fake, yet believable, relief.

sasuke nodded and began to turn away, fully intent on hiding away from the annoying flirting girl until she left. that is, he would have if his brother hadn't spoken.

"your not going in your room again are you?" he asked blankly.

almost automatically he responded, "yes."

"you shouldn't lock yourself in there, its unhealthy."

the younger uchiha glared, "since when did you care?"

something in sasuke wished his brother would respond with a 'I've always cared!' instead of the slightly irritated, "do what you wish then."

a crack sounded off in his head, and it felt like his heart had cracked again. it took a lot to keep sasuke from retorting with a childish 'i will!' but he managed to simply walk away. he made it to his room before he felt that horrid pain in his chest. he hated it. he'd always make it to his room before he'd feel that retched pain, and know how much he regretted ever confessing. only then would he allow himself to sink down to the floor and let a few tears out, never any more than a few. his love, it wasn't right, thus wasn't worth mourning over. the girl had left early, and sasuke was just nodding off when a gentle knock woke him up. he woke with a start and blinked, clearing the sleep from his mind. he looked up at the door and called out "come in." and in came the last person expected, yet the only person he most needed.

the boy walked in, his face blank as it had been the entire month. "otouto, dinners ready." he called out in a low voice.

sasuke nodded slowly, watching in a memorized fashion as itatchi shut the door and walked away. well, he thought, its dinner. the one time where even if it was fake, his brother would speak to him. standing shakily sasuke ran a hand through his bangs, brushing them back momentarily as he let a sigh escape from his lips. well, at least that girl wasn't staying for diner like she had yesterday. it seemed to take longer than usual to wash his hands and face, and the walk to the dinning room couldn't have been longer to him. by the time he was sitting at the table he realized that only one person was there, and he could have felt happier with the presence if he wasn't totally being ignored by said person. across from him sat itatchi, writing something on a piece of small paper with a pen. curiosity took control and sasuke found himself leaning over to try and look at the paper, his view being blocked by a hand just as he was in view. he blinked and was about to question his brother when a cheery voice interrupted him.

"sasuke, dont lean on the table, i need to put the food down you know." his mother said with only light warning.

sasuke blushed and hurriedly sat back down and apologized sheepishly. his brother put the paper in his pocket and waited patiently for his food, thanking his mother when she handed him his plate. sasuke wondered why itatchi hadn't told him the usual speech about personal information. sasuke was so wrapped up in his thoughts he almost didn't notice the snap of fingers in front of his nose. he blinked quickly and stared cross eyed at itachi's hand in front of his face, poised to snap his fingers again if needed. the older uchiha frowned in slight annoyance before pulling his hand back and sitting back down. sasuke blushed in embarrassment and looked down at his lap. ugh, he was so caught up in his thoughts he hadn't noticed his mother had set his food down.

"sasuke, are you feeling well?" she asked in concern.

the boy nodded and apologized once more before saying, "yes kaa-chan, I'm fine."

his mother frowned, "tell me if your feeling ill, okay?"

sasuke smiled and nodded, "hai kaa-chan."

the woman smiled and sat in her own seat, and everyone began eating as usual. everything went as it normally did, eating and some chatter, and to sasuke's relief a bit of talking between he and his brother. it had been such a long time since they had last talked, so, to sasuke, this was heaven. everything went as usual until the youngest uchiha felt a light kick to the shin and a brush of fingers and paper on his knee. it didn't take much to figure out itatchi was trying to pass him something. being as stealthy as he could, sasuke reached under the table and took the paper from his older brother's fingers. being careful not to make any noise, sasuke shoved the paper into his pocket and after a brief eye contact with his brother went back to eating. after his parents had finished and itatchi began collecting the plates, sasuke dug out the crumpled paper and unfolded it from its square shape. in the nice and slightly curvy writing that was his brothers was written:

meet me in my room around twelve tonight.

sasuke's face twisted into a confused expression and he was about to ask the older boy why when he noticed that he wasn't in the room any more. frowning, sasuke tucked the paper back in his pocket and stood up, stretching before walking to his room. once inside he looked at his clock and realized he had four hours to kill before twelve. what could he do?

itatchi sat in his room staring at the wall blankly, thinking back to this afternoon.

the younger uchiha glared, "since when did you care?"

closing his eyes he tried to rid himself of that memory. he always cared. he opened his eyes and glanced at the clock on his wall, sighing when it only read 10:30. the boy closed his eyes again, and the hurt and angry black eyes from this afternoon reappeared in his minds eye, making him flinch at their sad sheen. now that he really thought about it, he hadn't really paid much attention to sasuke, actually, he purposely ignored him. as cruel as that was, he couldn't let sasuke love him like he did. as much as itatchi loved his little brother, he couldn't bring himself to taint the innocence in those happy obsidian eyes. never, that wasn't even an option. as many times as he dreamed of it, he couldn't see himself touching the little boy, without some kind of sick evil music in the background. because only someone evil would touch such an innocent and pure boy.

"heh...i must be damn psychotic then." itachi muttered.

a knock sounded on the door and with a quick glance at the clock he noted it was only eleven twenty. twisting his face into a slightly confused expression, itatchi stood and walked over towards the door, and opened it partially. outside it was sasuke, twitching nervously, such as glancing around quickly, fiddling with his sleeve, and biting at his lower lip. looking up quickly at the sound of the door the younger boy looked away.

"sorry, I'm early, but i couldn't think of anything to do..." the younger uchiha said all in one breath.

the older boy smiled faintly at his brother and opened the door wider and stepping away to let his twitching younger brother in. "its okay." he reassured.

sasuke looked up and frowned but smiled, even if a little bit nervously. "you sure niisan?"

"positive."

sasuke felt the weight on his mind being slightly lifted, and he couldnt keep back the happy smile from his face. walking inside, sasuke glanced around his brother's room, noting some of the differences in it from the last time he had been in it. it seemed more...dreary. like someone died in here or something. a shiver ran down the boy's spine and thought for a second it wasn't that someone had died, it was that someone WOULD die. someone like him. he paled and took a step back, believing his paranoid thoughts for a second. itachi raised an eyebrow at him, curious as to what was wrong.

"niisan...you wont kill me, will you?" he asked then thought nervously, if he was going to he wouldn't tell him first.

the older uchiha blinked and made a face, "of course not sasuke. what made you think that?"

sasuke shook his head and looked up to flash a faked smile at his brother, "no reason."

itachi shook his head, "I'm not going to hurt you. what would be the point of that?"

"i dunno...i just thought you might."

"whys that?"

the raven haired boy bit at his bottom lip. well for starters, itachi hadn't exactly been NICE to him lately. plus he seemed rather aggravated with him over the whole love thing. that and maybe this afternoon he really made him mad! who knows what could happen? what if his brother tried to kill him? would he be able to defend himself against such a powerful fighter? of course not. he wasn't even fast, so he was as good as dead if itachi tried anything.

"i dunno. it just popped up in my head. sorry if i offended you..." sasuke murmured quickly, bowing his head.

"dont be. come on in."

sasuke nodded and followed his brother inside, hearing the door close and immediately tensing up. what if itachi did kill him? he was so scared, and he could understand why. maybe itachi was sick and disgusted of him? then he'd deffinately kill him! itachi didn't keep things he didn't like.

"calm yourself sasuke. nothing will happen to you."

the boy nodded weakly and watched as his brother sat down on his futon, as he had been before sasuke came in. he pated a space besides him and sasuke hurriedly sat down. a few minutes of awkward silence passed by, neither boy knowing exactly how to start whatever was supposed to happen. a few more minutes went by when sasuke found he couldn't bear it any longer.

"I'm sorry." he whispered.

itachi looked over to him in surprise, "why are you sorry?"

"because..." the boy began.

"because?"

"because...because...becauseiloveyoubutyoudontlovemeanditprobablymadeyouhatemeevenmoresojusthurryupandkillmealready!"

itachi blinked a few times, not understanding the boy one bit. "okay, please repeat yourself, SLOWLY."

sasuke brought his knees up to his chest and wrapped his arms around them before hiding his face in them. "i love you. but...but you dont love me, and...and you hate me!" he sobbed.

oddly enough he could understand that clearly. for once in his life he felt total understanding yet horrible confusion wash over him in thick waves. he knew his little brother loved him, but just now when he repeated his confession, it felt like the first time to him. like this had never happened to him before. it was...weird.

"sasuke..."

"I'm sorry niisan. i-"

"stop saying your sorry. its not needed."

sasuke blinked in shock and lifted his head up to question his older brother, finding itachi's lips covering his own almost the second he lifted his head. he heard sirens go off in his head, and he felt a thick blush spread over his pale face. it...it was fake, not real. it had to be! the feeling of lips moving against his own told him it wasn't. he felt himself let out a weak moan as he squeezed his eyes shut. it was real...it was real! the lips left him and sasuke found himself gasping for breath as a amused smile crossed itachi's pale lips.

"no apologies are needed otouto." he said quietly.

sasuke looked up at the older uchiha and smiled happily before hugging his brother tightly.

indeed, no apologies were needed he thought warmly.

dun dun dun! last chapter. next is a short epilogue. enjoy till then!