A/N: Thanks for all the reviews!
DPOV
Sam's been missing for three months now. We haven't found Nathan Tanner yet. It's been hard, watching Jack go through this by himself. He won't let any of us in. Teal'c came close one day. Jack was standing in front of Sam's locker doing, nothing. He'd been in there for over an hour, just standing. I'm not sure what was said, but Teal'c came out with his hand on Jack's shoulder.
It's scary some days. He'll exit the elevator and all I'll see was that rough, no nonsense Colonel I met so many years ago. The Colonel who had been sent on a suicide mission to another planet, and had been perfectly okay with it. We won't let that happen to him again, because Sam isn't dead. We won't give up on her and we won't give up on him.
We know Sam's alive, there's nothing telling us she isn't. No evidence to say something has happened to her. For all we know she's taken on a new name and continued on with her life. Unfortunately, we also know there's no way she's happy. Not with having to leave her family behind, especially Jack.
Something happened between them, though I don't know what. Nobody's said anything about it, but I can see it in his eyes. It's not just the normal "I'm in command, and worried about my team" look he gets when one of us is in trouble off world. This isn't even his "Carter's been captured again" look. He's walking around base looking like someone's just shot his puppy. I'm surprised at that, too, after the way I'd seen him after Charlie's death. I thought he'd react to this the same way, Janet gave me indications that it was possible, but I think the fact that he knows she's out there, somewhere, keeps him held tight.
We've been sent on a few missions in the last month, just the three of us. Simple meet and greets we'd done literally hundreds of times since we'd first stepped through the Stargaze, but I think it's more Hammond's way of keeping us busy. He knows there's only so much we can do on Earth before we go stir crazy. He has to get us out of his hair. I noticed he's even starting to get annoyed with Teal'c.
Well, I figured jotting down some of my thoughts would help, but I guess I was wrong. It still hurts just as much. I need to clear my head now, we're about to leave on another one of those pointless missions Hammond could have given to SG-10 or any other team. The civilization on P3N-586 is nothing special, they seem rather primitive, and there's no sign the Goa'uld even realize their planet exists, but if we're going to talk to them, I gotta have a clear head.