Title: On his death bed
Summary: House's thought before he dies
Author: Mikesh
Disclaimer: Do not own House wish I did but I don't
Part: 2 of 10
AN: Italic is house's thoughts
When you died fifteen years ago I tried to join you but I didn't succeed like I wanted to.
House had just gotten home from a very long day of work. He had just turned on his TV when all of a sudden a news report came on. They were talking about a police chase that had happened earlier that night.
House wasn't really listening to what they were saying. He only caught bits and pieces about how the guy that hit a Toyota Camry was in critical condition at PPTH. House was making dinner when his cell phone rang.
"Hello," House said.
"House it's Wilson," Wilson said sounding upset.
"Hey what's up?" House asked.
"Have you seen the news tonight?" Wilson asked.
"Yeah bits and pieces. Why?" House asked.
"Did you hear what happened?" Wilson asked.
"If you're talking about the car accident yeah I heard about it," House said.
"I'm sorry House," Wilson said sounding sincere.
"Why?" House asked.
"You didn't hear that Stacy got killed?" Wilson asked.
"What are you talking about?" Greg asked not in the mood to play games.
"The guy that they put in the hospital is the one that hit Stacy and her husband. They were killed on the spot," Wilson said.
"Ha-ha. Very funny. Now what did you want?" House asked.
"I'm not joking House. Turn on the news," Wilson said.
"Fine I will. See you tomorrow," Greg said hanging up before Wilson could say anything else.
House went into the living room and turned up the TV so he could hear it. He was just about to go back into the kitchen when he heard them coming in with a new report.
"It's just in that the Toyota Camry that was hit tonight there weren't any survivors in it. Stacy and Mark Mcken were killed on the sight. We're very sorry for earlier reports that the man had survived. Again there were no survivors from the car," the reported said.
House just sat heavily in the chair. He couldn't believe that she was dead. The woman that he'd let go was gone forever.
I was so mad at God because he took you and not me. I threw my cane through the window and then I started drinking until I passed out. The next morning when I woke up I thought that it was just a dream. Then I realized that it wasn't. Instead of getting up and facing it like a man I took the coward's way out. I took out my vicodin and swallowed the whole bottle. Shortly after that I passed out.
The next morning Cameron, Foreman, Wilson and Chase came into work to find that House wasn't there. They all knew of what had happened last night too. Wilson had called them to let them know. They all had puffy eyes and they all looked like shit.
"Hey did House take off today?" Foreman asked.
"No I talked to him last night. He hung up on me though," Wilson said.
"Then where is he?" Foreman asked.
"Shit!" Wilson said running out of House's office.
"Where are you going?" Cameron shouted after him.
"To his house," Wilson shouted back while still running.
"You don't think he would have tried to kill himself do you?" Chase shouted after him.
"I think it's likely because the only thing that he was living for was her. Now that she's gone he figures he might as well be gone too," Wilson said standing at the end of the hall.
"How do you know that," Chase asked looking at Wilson.
"Because he told me one night when we went drinking," Wilson said.
"When did you two go drinking?" Foreman asked.
"Yes it was when Mark was here and no of us thought he'd make it. House was hoping he wouldn't because then Stacy would come back to him," Wilson said taking off again.
"Come on," Cameron shouted and with that they too left House's office.
"Who's car do you want to take?" Foreman asked once they caught up with Wilson at the ambulance bay.
"I say we take that," Allison said pointing to the ambulance.
"Like they'll give us a ride," Chase said.
"Hey Allison," Rob said.
"Hey Rob can you give us a ride?" Cameron asked sweetly.
"Where to?" Rob asked giving Allison his best smile.
"House's place," Cameron said.
"Now why do you want to go to that cranky bastard's house?" Rob asked.
"Because I think he might have tried to kill himself," Cameron said.
"Why would he do that?" Rob asked not understanding.
"Because the only thing that he was living for was the girl that got killed last night. Now that she's gone he figures he might as well be gone too," Cameron said.
"Ok I'll do it for you," Rob said smiling at Cameron.
"Thank you," Cameron said smiling back.
"Get in guys!" Cameron ordered.
After everyone got in they headed over to Greg's house. Once they got to Greg's house they ran up to the door. They saw the broken window. When Foreman looked in and saw House laying on the floor he picked up the fallen cane and smashed the window. After he got in the others followed suite. He knew they didn't have time to use logical methods of getting in so that was the only way.
"He's not breathing!" Cameron shouted.
"Shit! He took all of his vicodin," Wilson said seeing the empty bottle laying next to Greg.
"He must have overdosed," Foreman said trying to start House's heart back up.
"Once I get his heart going we're going to have to get him to the hospital to pump his stomach," Foreman said
"Chase go get the stretcher so we can get him to the hospital," Wilson said.
"Ok," Chase said running out the door to go get the stretcher and oxygen tank.
By time he got back with Rob Foreman had finally gotten House's heart started again.
"Let's roll," Wilson said after they got House on the stretcher.
"Called ahead so they're expecting us," Dave the driver said.
"Good now let's roll," Wilson said after he got in.
"Wait where's Foreman?" Cameron asked.
"He stayed behind to close up the house," Wilson who was attaching House so they could see his vital signs said.
"Ok," Cameron said.
When they got to the hospital Cuddy and a couple of doctors were waiting for them.
"How is he doing?" Cuddy asked.
"His vitals are strong but we need to get him into the operating room so we can pump his stomach. He took all of his vicodin," Wilson said.
"Ok but you guys are not going to do it. Theses two are," Cuddy said pointing to the other two doctors.
"Why?" Cameron asked.
"Because you guys are too attached to this patient. It's best if it's someone who isn't attached to do it," Cuddy said.
"Fine," Cameron said knowing that she wasn't going to get her way with Cuddy.
By time Foreman got there with House's car House was already in the operating room.
"So how is he?" Foreman asked.
"They're just now pumping his stomach," Cameron said.
For the next hour and a half all the four of them could do is wait and see what would happen.
"How is he?" Cameron asked jumping from her chair when she saw Cuddy coming.
"He's stable for now but he's in a coma. I don't know if he'll ever come out of it. I'm sorry you guys," Cuddy said looking ready to cry herself.
"Can we see him?" Wilson asked.
"Not right now. Maybe later tonight. For now just go home and relax. I'll call you as soon as I hear anything," Cuddy said.
"Cuddy how do you expect us to do that when our boss is fighting for his life," Cameron said.
"I know it's not easy but you guys are not going to do him any good here wearing yourselves out," Cuddy said.
"Come on guys I'll take you back to my place," Wilson said.
"Ok," Cameron said not too happy to have to leave House on his own.
The four of them left to go try and rest up for a little bit.
None of them knew how tired they were but the next thing they knew they were waking up and it was two in the afternoon.
"Has anyone heard how House is," Cameron asked after she walked into the kitchen.
"Cuddy called about three minutes ago. Says he's the same nothing has changed so far. She says once we're up to it we can come over," Wilson said.
"Let's go," Cameron said.
Once they got there they headed straight to House's room. He was still sleeping which meant that they played the waiting game still with him.
Cameron stayed until she was thrown out by Cuddy. After she was thrown out Allison went back to House's office where she found Wilson sitting at the desk.
When I woke up I pretty much had just enough time to see Wilson over by the machine for my heart rate then I was back in the land of darkness.
I woke up a second time you were there by the bed asking me why I did it. And how could I leave the child. I didn't know what you were talking about and really didn't care at that point. I just wanted to hold onto you but before I knew it you were gone.
The third time I woke up again there wasn't anyone in the room and it was dark outside. I was awake for five minutes at the most before I was back to sleep.
Now the fourth time I woke up it was light outside. That's when I realized for the first time that I had a tube down my throat. I tried to move my hands to try and pull the tube out but found that I was restrained to the bed. I started to pull at the strains but they wouldn't give so I stared to thrash on the bed. Well with all of the noise I was making and the heart monitor they had on me started spiking. It took about three minutes before Foremen, Wilson, Chase and Cameron came running into the room along with two other doctors and a nurse. Cameron and Foremen were trying to calm me down but I wouldn't calm down. One of the doctors that was in the room gave me a shot through my iv to try and calm me down. Once it had set in they removed my tube. I would have set in on the curse words but my throat was too horse to talk. It wasn't long after they removed the tube that I was back to dreamland. They had given me something to help me sleep. I didn't sleep well at all. All I kept seeing was the car crash that they showed on news. When I woke up Cameron was in the room with me. When I asked her why she was there she said she wanted to see how I was. I asked her how she'd be if she'd had a tube down her throat and being restrained to the bed. She was taken aback by it but I didn't care at that point. I told her to leave me alone and she did.
I know it wasn't Mark's fault that you died but I blamed him the whole time I was in the hospital.