"Hello. How are you? Oh, well I guess that's a dumb thing to say. I'm sorry, I've just never been very good at this...come to think of it, honestly, I've never done this before. I've never...
"I don't suppose it matters much to you how I feel, but you're always telling me to be stronger, and I need to say this. You might really get angry, or you may not speak to me anymore, or something like that...heh, sorry. Its a habit. Always got to imagine the worst case scenario so I don't get my hopes up. I have too much hope, that's my problem. Or that's what you say, anyway.
"I'm just going to get strait to the point. ...you know, I see the way you look at Sir Integra. And I understand, I really do. She's everything that I'm...not. Its funny...I've never been all that confident, or smart, or funny, or talented at anything. All in all, I'm really boring. But something inside me keeps saying that there must be something about me that made you want to ask me that night. There must be something that you...like about me, to make me into what I am. Something that Sir Integra doesn't have.
"Then that other little voice inside me says, well Sir Integra has good reason not to be with you. And what if she doesn't even like you? And what if it's just my imagination, and you really don't like her either? That's my hope talking there again. Ugh, God, this is hard."
Seras sighs.
"I'm in love with you, master. When I'm with you, all I can think of or want at all is for you to look at me like you look at her. But...that'll never happen, so...that's all I have to say."
She stands from the chair she had pulled up next to her master's coffin. She knows he's asleep and can't hear her, but she hasn't slept in two days and she knew the only way to have peace of mind enough to sleep was to come down here and say it. Some small part of herself was chastising her for not doing it when he's awake so there would be some actual progress, but the words are ignored. I haven't the courage to really, really tell him, she says to herself. Believe me, I've tried. It doesn't do any good. He loves her. And not me.