They kiss in the complete darkness of Alucard's room - Integra is asleep and has ordered all her soldiers to do the same for the evening. There is a lull in the tidal waves of enemies and she thinks it wise for them all to rest while they can.

But the two vampires can't rest. Alucard is too busy assaulting Seras with intimacies she had never dared to dream of before - showing her all the things she unhappily did not know in human life. She does not bother to keep silent as she might have done before. She gasps his name as he caresses her shamelessly.

They undress each other slowly and surrender to the bed Alucard had brought in the room just for the occasion. He guides her to mount him and in the dark they commit themselves to one another - Alucard helping Seras move her hips with his hands, Seras throwing her head back and digging her fingernails into his skin.

As he nears his peak Alucard violently pulls her neck down to his mouth and begins to pull her life force from her. Seras, her mouth so close to his neck, does the same and they complete one another in a perfect circle of ecstasy.

After the moment of euphoria, Seras feels tears in her eyes, but she doesn't understand why. She lets go of his neck and looks into his eyes.

"What do you want from me?" she asks him breathlessly. "I still don't understand. I am what you wanted me to be. So why can't you love me?"

"You still want love from me, Seras, even though I smell not a drop of humanity in you."

"I still see how humans love each other. I see how deep and beautiful it is. Is it so wrong to want that for myself?"

"...No. It isn't wrong. But to survive, my dear, its for the best that we don't. The world would be covered with vampires if we did."

"You only want me because I'm a vampire now? Couldn't you learn to love me the way I was before?"

"No. And you'll have to accept that to have any peace of mind about us, Seras."

Seras sighs. "Then… you aren't right for me then."

Alucard laughs. "That's your choice, Seras. I am indifferent either way."

"You're indifferent about me?"

"It is who I am, Seras."

"…Why did you turn me, master? Why did you do it if you knew I loved being a human?"

"You said you wanted to."

"Because I fell in love with you the moment I saw you! It just took me this long to realize it..."

Alucard does not answer.

"I said yes because I wanted to be with you forever. Don't you want to feel anything that strong? Don't you want love for yourself? You can't watch all these humans go by and not want that!"

"Perhaps you're right."

"...What?"

"Perhaps I turned you because I wanted to feel love. But its been so long... I don't remember how to love. Perhaps I wanted you to teach me. But I taught you to survive, Seras. We must not feel love."

Seras looks at him, her bottom lip trembling. She yells, "Tell me what you want me to be and I'll be that! Tell me what you want me to do and I'll do it, just please..."

Alucard holds her arms and shushes her.

"I want you to be a vampire. But, I suppose, very selfishly, I'm asking you to love me at the same time. Love is what kills vampires. I want you to be a paradox, something that no vampire before you has ever been able to do. I know what I ask is difficult, but..."

Seras smiles and puts her hand on his cheek. Tears stream from her eyes as she laughs, relieved and happy. "No. you're not asking me to do something that's difficult. Because that's who I am."

Alucard laughs and kisses her.

"A vampire with a human heart. How very...cliché and unrealistic."

"Oh, stop it."