Disclaimer: I had one of those weird lucid dreams last night, you know, the kind where you can actually feel yourself getting tired or smell stuff and taste stuff? Yeah. I was like leaping and jumping off hills and stuff, and I could feel the wind resistance. It was pretty durnded cool. X3
A/N: Okay, I swear, Amy Lee was just BEGGING me to songfic this song. I swear!
…Okay, my hair was begging me to songfic this song. ;; But I couldn't shut it up until I wrote this. So here you go. And I'm making my hair my official muse.
Hair: -blows around happily in the wind-
EDIT: Oh, and for once, I didn't title the fic by the name of the song, because I don't exactly like the title as much as I would if they'd called it "Don't Cry To Me".
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Don't
cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You
want me
Come find me
Make up your mind
You keep watching from the sidelines, just waiting for me to become available for you to snatch away…that's not the way to do things. If you want something, go for it, don't just sit around waiting for an opening. And don't get all upset when I don't go for it.
Should
I let you fall?
Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember
yourself
Can't keep believing
We're only deceiving ourselves
And I'm sick of the lie
And you're too late
Yes, don't get angry…I'm not saying this to be cruel. I'm just telling the truth. You're doing things that you normally wouldn't do just to get to me, and it's almost like you're a different person because of it. All of it, I can't take it anymore, just pretending. I never was very good at pretend.
Don't
cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You
want me
Come find me
Make up your mind
It's only what you want, all the time, and you never give me a chance to talk. Did you honestly not realize it until just now? I don't think so. All this…all this stuff I tell you…it's not really how I feel. If I were heartless enough to really say how I feel, I don't think you'd be able to stand being near me anymore.
Couldn't
take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose
your own game
Selfishly hated
No wonder you're jaded
You
can't play the victim this time
And you're too late
Nobody did anything to you; why do you have to hate the world so much? Because someone else took me away from you? Feh, that's a stupid reason. If I hated you for something like that, I'd probably be in hell by now. If you're going to hate someone, make it a worthwhile reason.
So
don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind
And besides, maybe I wasn't taken. Maybe I asked him to take me. Maybe I begged him to take me, just to get away from you. How does that make you feel? It probably hurts…that's okay. I'm fine with that. You probably deserve it for what you're doing.
You
never call me when you're sober
You only want it cause it's over
It's over
I've distanced myself from you for a reason. I can't be around you if all you can think about is how to manipulate other people to stay away from me…if all you can think about is reasons that no one else deserves me. Do you have any idea how it makes me feel? To know that you don't think anyone else is worthy of being with me?
How
could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine
It makes me feel like you're a selfish, power-hungry devil. It makes me feel like I don't deserve anyone else either. You're making me feel like I don't deserve to be with anyone but you.
So
don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
Don't lie to me
Just get your things
I've made up your
mind
Just stay away from me…as long as you can't think of anything else but getting to me and doing anything to do it, I can't be around you and be happy at the same time. It's like happiness gets sucked into a black hole around you…no, you're the black hole. You need everything for yourself, including me. Just run along and find some new object to torture, someone who won't care if you shoot down everyone else that cares.
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Isn't the bashing-object sooo obvious? XD Especially with what I'm doing to the pinkfiend.
Pt. 2 of "Secrets Untold" coming soon to a FF(dot)net near you!