He entered his room and placed the vanished girl on his bed. For once in all their years of friendship, Naruto was grateful for Hinata's habit of fainting whenever she passed him. Of course, that habit had disappeared completely long ago, but he was sure that the shock he'd given her by walking away as he did, and the few harsh words he said to her that night, had been enough of a shock to her to vanish on the spot.
-Would this be your first time?- He asked the instant he had separated from the female body. Hinata didn't know what was going on, so she just nodded slowly. Naruto looked angry, very angry.
He put a hand on his temples to try to calm the massive headache that was starting to come to him. He didn't remember a drunkenness going down as fast as it did at that moment. Everything he had discussed with Hiroki came to his mind, he had played the role of an idiot facing the Hyuga without having dedicated himself to corroborating his sources, and the bastard had not deigned to get him out of his mistake . He was probably still laughing at him.
-Is it that, mmm, you don't like that I'm a virgin?-Asked the girl doubtfully, who now covered her body with sorrow. She could see the complete dislike Naruto showed for her, and it was making her extremely nervous. Added to the intense change of emotions, the liquor seemed to be playing tricks on her. She felt very dizzy
-This is a damn mistake- he said, facing her, unable to hide his frustration, -you should have told me- he clenched his fists and looked away from the girl's eyes, -I would never have laid a hand on you if I knew you were a virgin-
That had been enough for Hinata to collapse. Naruto didn't think twice and took the girl's body to take her to a safe place. By an enormous stroke of luck, he had avoided making an unforgivable mistake with her, and he was committed to not leaving her at the mercy of anyone else to harm her. He first thought of leaving her at her apartment, but it was very close to the main Hyuga house, full of Byakugan owners who could see how he carried the girl in his arms late at night. He wasn't going to risk it, so he decided it would be best to take her to his own apartment.
Once he deposited her on her bed, he dedicated himself to removing the heavy kimono she was wearing, he was sure that trying to sleep with so many clothes on would be torture and he thought of lending her one of his shirts.
Naruto didn't want to be disrespectful to her, especially when Hinata was completely helpless, so he did his best to change her clothes, turning his gaze in another direction. However, during the task of undressing her, a strange texture in the skin of a rib made him turn his gaze back to her.
Naruto's vision was blurred, because where he felt the change in texture, the mark of a scar was observed due to an easily fatal wound. The young man closed his eyes letting heavy tears run free. There it was, on the girl's body, the proof of the love that she had bravely confessed to him and that he had rejected without hesitation, that mark showed how much she was willing to sacrifice for him, to the point of facing an adversary like Pain
He knelt down near her body and kissed her mark as he mentally begged for forgiveness:
Forgiveness, because tonight while Hinata was probably willing to give herself to him like a woman in love, he was simply looking to satisfy the accumulated needs of a few days.
Forgiveness, because she was giving him access to her body, giving him a privilege that she had denied even to her own fiancé, without caring what might happen to her future, while for him this was going to be one more of many nights, while he waited the resolve that Sakura would give him upon her return.
Forgiveness, because as much as he had sworn to protect her and ensure her future as leader, the biggest threat tonight had been himself. Because he selfishly wanted to possess her, without ever being willing to honor her. Less to commit to her.
He left the apartment and went to a nearby tree. He knew he wouldn't be able to sleep, but he didn't feel worthy of even spending the night under the same roof as her.
Hinata woke up disoriented, in a place that was unfamiliar to her. Little by little she was remembering the events of the previous night and she felt an enormous shame. She brought the sheets that covered her close to her chest, and noticed a bouquet of lilac flowers with a note laying on the bed, next to her:
Hinata
When you feel ready, I'll meet you at the training ground where we ate cinnamon rolls. I will be there all day. We need to talk.
Naruto
Hinata's heart was torn between pain and shame. She knew perfectly well that Naruto had never seen her as a woman and last night she had tried to take advantage of his state to achieve a selfish goal. The abrupt rejection of her beloved was nothing more than a well-deserved punishment for her boldness.
She let herself get out of bed as fast as she could to go to her apartment. Once there, she dedicated herself to taking a long bath. She wanted somehow to wash from her body the feeling of being so insignificant, she wanted to forget the eyes that looked at her with repudiation, like if she had suddenly become an aberration for the man she loved so much.
She dressed in her ninja uniform, especially hating that day the fact that left so much of her skin exposed (oh the trouble she could get from listening to Ino's advice!). She lastly washed and dried the shirt she had woken up with. Just thinking that she had to put Naruto through the awkwardness of changing her clothes, knowing how unpleasant her body was to the blonde made her even more remorseful.
She looked at herself in the mirror with a look of self-loathing and headed out to meet him. She didn't want to make him wait too long, it would cause her even more grief.
He had been waiting for a couple of hours but for nothing in the world was going to move from there. He had given Hinata his word to stay all day if necessary, and he always kept his word.
He watched Hinata's small figure approach in the distance. As she got closer he could see a strong blush spreading over the girl's face, accompanied by eyes that were trying hard not to look directly at him. Naruto could perfectly read her emotions, she felt deeply embarrassed. As she reached in front of him, Hinata immediately lowered her head and bowed towards him.
-Naruto-kun I wish to offer you my sincerest apologies. Yesterday I was not only careless and irresponsible, but I also gave in to selfish desires, putting you in a very compromising position and becoming a burden to you. I honestly didn't expect the kiss you gave me, but once it happened I wanted to do everything possible to reach more, even knowing clearly that you have never wanted anything with me. My behavior was disrespectful to you and to Sakura who is my friend. I really am very sorry-
-Hinata, I don't remember at any time that you forced me to drink like I did, or to touch you like I did, if I did it it was because I felt like it, so in any case the one who owes you an apology is me. At the time you moved from the Hyuga mansion, everyone in the village took it for granted that you had given yourself to your fiancé and that the move was nothing more than a punishment. I believed those comments at first, and only now that I know they were nothing more than malicious gossip I start to think about the hard time you must have had for them. Yesterday when you approached me, I wanted to fill the void that I carried using you. I was the selfish one because I didn't mind playing with you to satiate my frustration-
-But I knew you were having a bad time Naruto-kun, and in a way I knew I could use it to my advantage. To be honest, the liquor gave me courage and I had my plans- she lowered her gaze and her blush was even stronger- mmm I was trying to seduce you. But I should understand once and for all that your interests are for more attractive and experienced women. I'm really sorry for the upset it caused you.
-Wait a minute, do you think I felt repulsion because you were a virgin, do you think I considered you inadequate or unattractive?-
-Did I misread your eyes when you separated from me? It seemed like you just met a monster-
-Unfortunately Hinata, I had discovered a monster, but it wasn't you, it was me. Me and the damned desire for casual sex without commitments, which could have ruined your life.-
He approached the young woman and held her in a hug, whispering his next words in her ear
-I'm going to be honest with you Hinata, I don't remember having more desire to penetrate a woman like the desire I had for you yesterday. I needed a second to make the decision to do the right thing, but the fantasy of taking you, your heat, making you moan for the first time was exquisite and I needed all my self-control not to make you mine. You can check that I'm not lying to you, because the mere memory still turns me on - he said with a husky tone, while his hands tightened the hug even more, so their bodies collided and she was aware of his hardness.
Hinata felt that she could pass out again, the sensation of Naruto's breath on her neck, the closeness of his body and those words he said were creating a fire in her entire being.
-if so, why did you stop?-
-Because I know perfectly well the consequences you would have to face if we had continued yesterday. I know of your clan's seal of chastity, I know that sleeping with you would have led us to two scenarios: get married or let them banish you from the Hyuga family, and as much as I want you, I can't marry you.-
-I wouldn't mind the punishment Naruto, and even if something else happened yesterday, I know perfectly well sex would be the only thing I could expect from you. I wasn't looking for your love or a commitment, I just wanted one night.-
-Sacrificing the rest of your life? Your future as a leader? The promise to Neji to make the clan better? Hinata, you have every right to renounce all this, but you can't expect me to become the monster that brings you such consequences-
Hinata separated from him and sat on the grass, followed by the boy. She stared lost in thought at the sight of the training grounds, it was early and no one was around. She wanted to take the opportunity to be honest with the blond
-Yesterday the elders of the clan decided that during the next 3 months they will evaluate candidates to marry me. This time I won't be able to reject the candidate like I did with Hiroki, so my wedding is imminent. Once I get married I know that I will be condemned to comply with my husband and with the clan, even if I never come to love the man, and I will do so devotedly. But until then, I have these 3 months of freedom and I want to live them for myself. I understand that besides mmm penetration, there are other things in sex, right?
A mischievous smile appeared on Naruto's face, he had experienced so many things with so many women, that old Jiraiya would have had material for several extra books
-indeed, there is much more to do- he replied.
-Would you be willing to do all that else with me?-
-what?!-
-I can keep my virginity and the seal for my husband, but Naruto I want to give all the rest to you, of course, if you are interested in taking it, and without conditions or commitments involved-
He was convinced that Hinata was still drunk or had gone crazy. She was offering him access to her body, to do almost anything he wanted with it (poor girl who didn't imagine the perversions that he kept in his imagination). The idea sounded very tempting, but Naruto was wary that anything could go wrong during that time, he especially doubted his own ability to keep things within limits.
-You honor me with that invitation, and believe me there is a lot I could do with you Hinata- Naruto let his eyes wander over the young woman's magnificent body, giving himself permission to savor her curves.
Hinata saw a predatory gleam in his eyes and felt both eager to know and intimidated at the same time.
-However, it is an extremely risky plan, and I don't know to what extent I could control myself with you. Do not misunderstand me, above all I am a gentleman and I would respect you, however, very few people know that there is an instinctive, almost animal part that awakens with my sexual desires, linked to the Kurama's chakra, when that happens I simply let myself go in that need, until is completely satisfied
Hinata couldn't hide her surprise at such information, however Naruto's warning about her lack of control making wild love to her caused more excitement than fear, and at that moment it made her feel a pleasant tingling between her legs.
-the fox's chakra not only allows me to have access to an enormous strength, it also unites me with his animal instincts and just as the fox sniffs the aroma of a female in heat, I can now perceive the aroma of how fucking wet you are , and believe me it's driving me crazy-
Hinata squeezed her legs tightly and put her hands up trying to cover herself. She again felt embarrassed but at the same time an extremely powerful force kept her sitting there, with every word Naruto said, the more at his mercy she felt, and the more she liked it.
-That's why I don't know if I can agree to your request, resisting the need is sometimes difficult, and things could get out of control-
Those last words brought reason to the girl, who standing up, made a little bow. -I appreciate you being honest Naruto-kun, I really understand. By the way, thank you very much for the clothes-
She extended the shirt to the young man, who took it to sniff as he watched her walk away in a hurry, he thought that maybe he had scared her, however he knew it was the best.
Hinata smelled too good .