A.N.: hey guys this is the last chapter of this story! It is a little angst but I hope you like!
Disclaimer: don't own anything!
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It was night time and everyone was bored. Well, I was sooooooo bored I couldn't stand it anymore.
"Hey guys, why don't we do something for fun"
"Like what Maxwell?" said Wufie with a raised eyebrow.
"Umm let's play scribbles?"
"It is no fun, Tro"
"Ok" said Quatre with a little evil smile "We can add rules to it to make it more fun"
"Like what?" asked Heero
Quatre smiled and said "We can make the loser do something funny"
"Hn"
"What do you have in mind Winner?" asked Wufie with a smirk
"The loser will sing tomorrow in the bar two songs. One to confess his love and the other to describe his lover"
"I didn't know you were that evil Quatre" said Trowa with a little smile that made Quatre blush
"Does the loser have to say his lover's name?" I asked worried.
"No, not necessarily"
I sighed in relieve.
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Two hours later ….
"Duo, make sure you practice for tomorrow night" said Wufie while smirking at me.
"Oh, I better call the bar to inform them of Duo's debut" he laughed and left me alone.
Ok so I lost big deal. Well, I have to confess my love to ….Heero….through singing.
It was not what I had in mind!
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"Dou, we are leaving you to get ready" Quatre was amused he chuckled and told me to break a leg.
To tell I was nervous was an understatement. I am terrified!
Ok so I put on the clothes that I brought with me a faded low-cut jeans and a sleeveless, tight black v-neck top.
I applied a little black Kohl around my eyes. Had my hair done in a high pony tail and to end the look I wore a dark red ribbon around my neck in bow.
I looked amazing. Of course, I was confessing my love to Heero I wanted to look the BEST!
I took a few deep breaths on my way to stage then I closed my eyes and said a little prayer and hoped I will not fuck this up.
I walked to the centre of stage the crowd cheering me up and clapping for me I took the microphone from the sand nodded to the music to start and I sang my first song confessing to my lover.
A.N. the translation is provided
ORENJI iro tsuki yoru ga kuruto kimi no koto o omoi dasu
kakko tsuketa ore no SERIFU wa hoka no dare kano SERIFU de
When an orange-colored moonlit night comes, I think of you,
as though the chic affectations in my words were someone else's words.
fui ni miageru SHIRUETTO kimi no yokogao o terashita
awai hikari wa ima demo
Even now, (I can remember) the pale light
that illuminated your silhouette as you suddenly glanced up (at that night's
sky).
nani o matteru kimi wa inai heya
tokei dake ga ashi oto no youni nemurenai mune ni hibiku
ima mo matteru hitori tomatteru
futari mita anohi no tsuki o ima dokode kimi wa miteru
What is it I'm waiting for, in this room without you --
it's just the clock's ticking, but it resonates in my sleepless heart like
the sound of footsteps.
Even now I'm waiting; I stop here alone.
From where do you now see the moon we saw together on that day?
ore no shigusa manete waratta kimi no koe mo omoi dasu
kimi to aruku yoru no SHIIN wa ORENJI iro PHOTOGURAFU
My behavior made a mimicry of laughter, even when I remember your voice.µ
The scene of the night when we walked around together is (now) an orange-colored
photograph.
kage ni otoshita uso to ore no wagamama o yurushita
kimi no namida ga ima demo
You forgave the lies that fell from the darkness and my selfishness,
but your tears, even now...
nani mo iwazuni toki wa nagareru
yagate kuru asa no hisashi ni tokeru youni sora ni kieru
saigo no yoru wa doko ni mo nakute
okizari no ore no kokoro o tsuki dake ga ima mo miteru
Without saying a word, time flows on;
the sky is extinguished by the light of the morning that's coming soon,
like it melts away.
On that last night, no matter where it is,
only the moon looks at my deserted heart even now.
kimi o matteru tooi omoi demo
tokei dake ga ashi oto no youni nemurenai mune ni hibiku
ima mo matteru hitori tomatteru
futari mita anohi no tsuki o ima dokode kimi wa miteru
I'll keep waiting for you, no matter how far apart we are --
it's just the clock's ticking, but it resonates in my sleepless heart like
the sound of footsteps.
Even now I'm waiting; I stop here alone.
From where do you now see the moon we saw together on that day?
The crowed cheered for me and clapped loudly. The whole time throughout the song I noticed that Heero was staring at me and my heart kept beating fast.
Then I went on with the second song describing my lover…
kawaita tsumori ame ga tsuzunaku katari kakeru
namida wa seijaku ni...samayou yoru ga akeru
The dried aftermath of the passing shower has begun painfully to tell the tale:
"In tears, so silently... the wandering nights have passed."
KARADA o tsutau ame ni furueru awai omoi
guren no yuuwaku ni...samayou yoru ga akeru
Shivering with the rain that trails down my body, a fleeting thought passes:
"In crimson allure... the wandering nights have passed."
Mabushii kiseki o irodoru SMASHING BLUE
hajimaru MAKE ME TRUE kieyuku tsuki wa SILENT
kimi no koe mo iranai SMASHING BLUE
Suhada ni nokoru kiramekimaru de TWILIGHT
Coloring the radiant miracle Smashing Blue
Beginning to make me true The vanishing moon is silent
We don't need even your voice Smashing Blue
Our bodies are left naked, glittering just like twilight
OH! OH! SMASHING BLUE OH! OH!
OH! OH! SMASHING BLUE OH! OH!
OH! OH! SMASHING BLUE OH! OH!
OH! OH! SMASHING BLUE OH! OH!
GLASS no shareta uso ni nanika o hoshigaru MY HEART
shien no sono yubi de wazukani sasoi kakeru
Amid these glassy stylish lies, my heart seems to want something.
With those smoke-illusory fingers, you've merely begun to call out to me.
Towa ni hirogaru sekai wo SMASHING BLUE
kioku no MAKE ME TRUE usureru kimi wa SILENT
koware souna SPEED SMASHING BLUE
subete o kakete kake agaru toki wa TWILIGHT
Smashing Blue the world that stretches toward eternity
In memories, make me true Fading, you are silent
Speed that could break us Smashing Blue
Twilight is the time that begins everything and then races on ahead.
OH! OH! SMASHING BLUE OH! OH!
OH! OH! SMASHING BLUE OH! OH!
OH! OH! SMASHING BLUE OH! OH!
OH! OH! SMASHING BLUE OH! OH!
DRAMA shitate no FAKE IT MOON
kodoku o seou STORY TALE
sameta hitomi de MAKE IT BLUE
Drama's preparations, the Fake it Moon
The storyteller, burdened with loneliness
With awakened eyes, Make it Blue
Mabushii kiseki o irodoru SMASHING BLUE
hajimaru MAKE ME TRUE kieyuku tsuki wa SILENT
kimi no koe mo iranai SMASHING BLUE
Suhada ni nokoru kiramekimaru de TWILIGHT
Coloring the radiant miracle Smashing Blue
Beginning to make me true The vanishing moon is silent
We don't need even your voice Smashing Blue
Our bodies are left naked, glittering just like twilight.
I smiled while the crowed stood cheering me and clapping their hands even whistling for me I blushed and bowed for the crowd for their cheering and thanked them for listening. I went back stage to have a bottle of water and a towel to swipe the sweat from my forehead.
I joined the guys to take off and grab Chinese for dinner to enjoy at home.
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"Duo that was a brilliant performance. I never knew you could sing that good"
Said Quatre while eating on the table and every body nodded in agreement. I blushed and said "Thanks"
Throughout the dinner Heero kept throwing glances at me and I didn't know what I meant. Maybe he figured it out. He knows that I meant him in those songs.
He finished his dinner early and left without saying a word.
After dinner everybody took off to bed except Heero he went to the study room and sat in front of his laptop.
So I said good night to everybody and I was on my way up stairs to the study to say good night to Heero.
I Knocked on the door twice and stepped inside
"Goodnight, Heero"
He turned in his chair stood up and did not answer me he walked toward me and I felt my heart pumping between my ears he closed the door and locked it and ….WAIT A MINUTE …..did he lock the door he looked at me and crossed his arms on his chest and said
"Are you in love with me, Duo?"
"…..umm….uhh….i.."
"Baka"
And then he stepped closer to me and put his both hands on my cheeks and …..
KISSED ME……
Heero Yuy kissed me …. Oh my god ……please don't let me wake up if this is my imagination.
The suddenly he broke the kiss unlocked the door and walked two steps out side then looked at me over his shoulder and said
"Your room or mine?"
"For what?"
"Hn" and he smirked
And oh god oh god oh god oh god oh god oh god did he say that?
I turned bright red like a bulb
And he took my hand and lead me to his room.
Later….
I was in Heero's bed lying on my back with Heero on top of me catching our breath and relaxing in the after glow when Heero stared at me and ….. smiled … the he said
"I think I am falling in love with you"
I smiled back and kissed his cheeks while tears started falling from my eyes. He kissed my eyed and said
"What do you wish for?"
"To always be with you, koi"
He chuckled and I said
"Hee-chan, how did you know the song was about you?"
"Baka, you are the only one who said that I have smashing blue eyes"
I blushed and he nuzzled his nose on my neck.
He hugged me and went to sleep I stayed a while then drifted to dreamland thinking that right now I would die happy
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The next morning we woke up took a shower and went down stairs for breakfast.
Everybody gave us a knowing look. Heero ignored them and sat down while I said good morning to them and stuffed my mouth with waffles.
"You know, next time keep it quite Maxwell and Yuy because I couldn't sleep with the noise" said Wufie while keeping a straight face. On the other hand, Quatre and Trowa laughed out loud.
I turned red like a tomato and Heero only said "Hn" but I noticed a blush on his cheeks.
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The rest of the day was normal. Quatre on the phone checking on his company. Trowa and Wufie reading books. Heero on his laptop. Me chatting to no one in particular while watching TV.
Suddenly, the ticking on Heero's laptop stopped and everybody turned around to see what is wrong.
"Heero, what's wrong?" asked Quatre while frowning
"…" he did not answer. It is not like Heero would answer but at least turn around to stare or give us one of his famous Hn's but he did nothing but stare at screen of his laptop doing nothing.
So I walked to him and put my hand on his shoulder to turn the chair and noticed that he was grabbing his shirt from his chest and closing his eyes shut as in pain.
I screamed to Trowa to get the car ready and Quatre helped me walk him to the car.
Half the way to the hospital Heero passed out and I panicked.
While Wufie kept checking his breathing and pulse.
"His pulse is faint and his breathing is ragged" Wufie said without trying to hide to fear from his voice.
Quatre said '' ALLAH! Please save him"
I kept silent but tears kept flowing down my cheeks.
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In the hospital they took Heero to the ER and we kept waiting outside the room Heero was in every time the door opened everyone would stand up but sit own again when we see a nurse.
After an hour or so a doctor came out of the room and he approached us with a serious face then he asked us "Well, do you know his parents to call them"
"No, he does not have a family (sniff). We are his only family (sob)" I answered through tears.
"Ok. Then let me tell you that Mr.Yuy is in a critical condition.."
At his words Quatre sobbed harder and Trowa tried to calm him down. Wufie nodded to the doctor to continue so he did..
".. he has a heart malfunction due to exposure to unknown virus the only hope we have is to give him a heart transplant before his heart give up on him"
I looked at the doctor trying to understand what he just said.
"Do you mean that if we don't find a donor soon Heero ….. that Heero would…." And I broke down in tears that I could not control.
"Yes" the doctor said "But let's not give up on hope"
"Doctor, can you tell us what to do?" asked Trowa trying to fight the choked tears in his throat.
"All you can do is pray for him and stay strong to cheer him up. You may see him but you an not stay except for one"
"I'll stay guys. You can visit tomorrow" I said while trying to dry my tears with a tissue that Wufie had given me I mumbled thanks to him and he nodded.
"Are you sure Duo? I mean can you ..." asked Quatre with a frown.
I nodded to him and tried to smile but ended up looked sad "Yeah, Sure Quat. I'll be fine"
"Please call us if anything comes up" said Trowa and I could only nod at him.
"Ok, Gentlemen you may see the patient" said a nurse at the door of the room Heero was in.
It was weird to see Heero attached to this machines and wires to keep him a life. I felt my heart tear at this sight. I was so used to the careless, emotionless, tough bastard but, not this Heero who looked weak and exposed.
He looked at us and smirked though it looked weak. We all smiled back at him and joked with him though he didn't say anything except the usual Hn and nod. I made me feel a little bit better to see him act his normal self. So half an hour later the nurse said that the guys should leave and she would bring me a blanket to sleep with on the chair and I said thanks.
Heero looked at me when the guys left and said
"Koi, don't look at me like I am going to die. You know that I will always love you"
At his words a tear slipped down my cheek at I wiped it fast with my sleeve.
"Hey, Hee-chan don't say stupid things like that"
He smiled a little but then looked at me seriously and said
"I think I was exposed to that substance we took from OZ laps on our last mission"
"Yeah I think so. The guys thought so too so Quatre will inform Doctor J about this"
"Duo, I have a heart malfunction and we both know there is cure for that except a heart transplant and even that is a long shot"
"Shut up Heero!i told you, you will be fine. You will have a new heart soon so stop talking like that and get so sleep. You need to rest"
With that I kissed.
"I love you, Hee-chan"
"I love you too, Koi"
With that he closed his eyes and within ten minutes his breathing became even in sleep.
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The next morning the guys came by with breakfast and a change of clothes for me and told me that I should sleep because I didn't sleep the night at all I was watching Heero. So I slept and decided that when I wake up I will take a shower and change into the new clothes that they brought for me.
The next day Heero went into coma and the doctor told us that if we didn't find a heart that matches his blood type we might lose him. We didn't take the news very well. Quatre tried calling his connection from other hospitals to tell them that he will provide a jet or helicopter if they had a heart that match Heero's heart and Trowa was doing his job to comfort his lover. While, Wufie kept quite I told them I needed a walk a round the hospital garden to clear my mind.
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While I was taking a walk I called the doctor to tell him that I found the heart and he should prepare Heero for the operation he told me if I was a hundred percent sure I said that I will bring him the report that show the details that this heart matches what Heero needs. He said he will prepare him immediately and he will be waiting for me to give him the report and the heart before the operation.
I ran through the hospital corridors with a box in my hand and a paper. I turn a corner and entered the doctors office he was ready to operate scrubs and all. I handed him the paper and he looked at the box and told me to take it to room where Heero is being aneasthized for the operation I ran to the room he told me about. I saw two nurses giving Heero a needle and the other checking the monitor.
"Could you please give me a second?"
They nodded and left the room.
I leaned down and kissed Heero while I opened the box I whispered into his lips
"Hee-chan, I love you. Please God help him and save"
I wiped away the tears from my cheeks. I don't know when that happened and I heard the doctor and nurses coming so I took one last look and said goodbye.
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Five hours later…
The doctor came out of the O.R. and Quatre, Trowa and Wufie stood up waiting to hear the news.
"Well, the operation went well and the patient is recovering just fine"
Quatre cried while hugging Trowa and Trowa sighed while Wufie just smirked.
Then, Quatre looked up at the doctor and asked
"Doctor do you know where Duo, our friend who stayed the night is? We didn't see him since you told us he will bring the heart"
"Follow me" the doctor said. And they followed him into the operation room the room smiled of blood after the operation and he pointed at a bed with a white bed sheet covering a body with only a bloody brown colored braid was exposed.
At this point everything looked clear. Quatre screamed and hugged Trowa while Trowa cried a river and Wufie fell on his knees trying to control the sobs that over took him.
The doctor handed Trowa a letter with Duo's handwriting on the cover that read
"To you guys!" The doctor then told them that Duo handed him a report that showed that his blood type matched Heero's but he didn't notice Duo's name until later so he tried to catch him on time but he heard a gun shoot outside the door before he entered. Duo had hidden the gun in a box that he fooled him because he thought that the box contained the heart. Looks like Duo was prepared.
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Heero waked up two hours later and found that everyone was the in his room except for Duo.
"Hey Guys"
"How you feeling Heero?" asked Wufie keeping a normal face.
"Tired but fine. Where is Duo?"
"He went on a mission for a week. He says hi though" said Trowa fighting back a lump in his throat.
"Is it serious?" asked Heero because he knows that there is no way in hell that Duo would leave on a mission while Heero was in the O.R.
"No, the usual" said Wufie. All the time Quatre kept quite because he knows that he will burst the minute he opened him mouth and Heero noticed that so he asked
"Winner, are you ok?"
"Oh he is fine. You know Quatre always the one overreacting to everything. He was just worried about you"
"Hn"
Five days later Heero was dismissed from the hospital. And he was at the safe house walking around when he reached Duo's room he entered and found his bag on the bed so he checked the closet and he found every single shirt and trouser in their place or on the floor as usual. So he knew this was strange. He heard a little noise and noticed that Quatre at the door looking shocked with tears falling down his cheeks. Heero ran to Quatre and held him from his shoulders and shook him while asking him what they are keeping away from him. Quatre didn't answer but started to sob. Wufie and Trowa came in next after hearing Heero screaming.
He looked at them with anger and Trowa took him outside to the living room.
"Heero, I think you may need to read this letter"
He gave Heero the letter the doctor gave him five days a go. They didn't dare to open the letter until Heero will read it with them. After all Duo was and always will be in love with him.
Heero glared at the letter then took it and noticed the writing was in Duo's handwriting.
He felt his heart beat faster as he opened the letter and read it out loud:
Hee-chan, Wu-man, Tro and Quat it's me Duo. Of course you will know who else call you that except me. You know me I was never good at writing even those god damn mission reports. I want to tell you that I love you all guys and you were the only family I had for years. I am sorry if I caused you grieve of heartache. Please forgive me. Don't be sad that I , you know, done what I did because this is the only way to be together and yes I will always be with you guys cause I gave my heart to Heero I mean really gave him my heart. This is the best ways because you I could never live without him I would be died anyway so why kill two people? It is better to sacrifice my life in order to save more and I know the world need four Gundam pilot more than just three! Well, Heero koi I said that wish that I will always be with you and my wish is granted! Now I live and beat inside you all the time. Please Heero try to understand and don't even think about killing yourself in war or after war cause you will kill me with you and I know you will never do that to me. I love you so much. Quat, I know you will be heartbroken when you hear that but it can't be helped you have a sweet kind heart and you are an angel and I know that you will do the world good deeds after the war. I will miss talking to you and chatting about sweet nothings. Tro, I have come to release that inside you there is big heart that cares about all of us and I know that you try to keep it under wraps but you cherish us and care for us like your brothers and for that I will miss you. Wu-man, the smirks, the angry looks and your screams
Is what will make me miss you but mostly I will miss teasing you and calling you nicknames you act that you hate but deep down inside I know you love them.
I want you to forgive me and take care of my gundam. I love you guys!
P.S. a shinigami will never be afraid to die because he is a death god smirk
Yours truly,
Duo Maxwell (aka shinigami)
Kisses and hugs!
After reading the letter Heero dropped the letter and put his face in his hand and cried.
"Baka, I will miss your smiles and grins and your annoying chattering. I will miss the way you walk will your braid swinging at your hips. I will miss you stupid jokes and your puppy eyes look when you want some thing. I will miss the way you sometimes act like a three years old child. I will miss your violet eyes and the way they sparkle every time you think of something. I will miss you so much. I love you, koi. I can hardly wait until we meet again in the other life. I will definitely find you in the gundam paradise!"
The end.
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The songs are from the anime Gravitation OVA the first one is called " in the moonlight" and the second one "smashing blue"