Chapter 7

"We need to talk." Sam said coldly turning on her heel.

Martin looked around the table quickly before getting up and following Sam keeping his head down.

Sam walked out on to the balcony, Martin just a few feet behind her. She walked to the far end before turning back to face Martin. Her arms folded across her chest in a protective manner, trying to create a barrier between her and Martin.

Martin was very nervous. He couldn't bring himself to look at Sam, he was too ashamed.

"I'm sorry. I don't know where that came from" Martin started his voice almost pleading. Sam just watched him.

"I was just shocked. First I hear that my dad fired Jack. Then that you were in a coma for six months and suffered a miscarriage which I assumed was Jack's and then I find out that I was mine.

"I didn't want to leave you in the first place but I did and I met a fantastic woman and moved on. Then she gets a better job here and I have to move back and ever since all I can think about is you.

"I wanted to come back and find that you'd gotten pregnant from that night we'd spent together. I wanted an excuse to come back to you to be with you again. I wanted to have a family with you from almost the minuet I met you. Hearing that I could have had that with you was just hard to hear.

"I was shocked and lashed out. I shouldn't have and I didn't mean it. I never meant to hurt you, not ever. And I'm so sorry. If you want me to go I'm gone, right now. I don't expect you to let me stay and I defiantly don't expect another chance."

Martin finished watching Sam closely. He hadn't meant to tell her all that. He shouldn't have told her he wanted to have a family with her, that he wanted an excuse to be with her again. There was something about that night that was some how more special than every other night they'd been together. He knew they'd forgotten to use protection and ever since he couldn't help wondering if maybe the reason it was more special was because they'd created a baby. As it turned out he was right. Only problem was that she lost it.

Sam couldn't look at him. She turned and leant her arms on the ledge, tears in her eyes. She had expected him to apologize, be upset and blame it on shock. She was defiantly not expecting him to say that he wanted an excuse to come back to her. That he had wanted to come back and find her with his child. And she thought he'd had a shock today.

Sam had no idea what to say to Martin. She didn't know what to think. "You can keep your job. We're fed up of dealing with rookies." She attempted to joke. Sam didn't want to deal with what he'd said now. She needed time to think about what he'd said and sort her feelings out. She turned and walked towards the door.

As she brushed past Martin, he grabbed her arm and turned her to face him.

"Thank you." He said softly "I'd hate to have to leave you again so soon." He added moving both hands to rest on her upper arms.

"We can't just pretend I didn't just say those things." Martin said looking down and stepping closer to her.

"No we can't" Sam started pulling out of Martin's arms "Put we also can't ignore the fact that you're engaged."

Martin looked down and looked slightly ashamed but also disappointed. "You're right I'm sorry. I'm screwing up again. I just don't know where my head is at the moment. I see you here and clearly happier, you're so close with the team and I don't want to screw that up for you."

"For me? You're the one who's engaged!" Sam almost shouted at him. "I can't believe you're saying this!" She shook her head in amazement.

"Yeh well like I said, I don't know where my head is. I just found out I lost a child." He said beginning to get mad.

"Alright, alright, calm down." Sam said "I think we both just need some space to think about things and if can really work having you back on the team." She added without looking at him.

"Yeh, that's probably a good idea." He sighed "We won't come over for dinner tonight then"

"No you should still come. You wanna meet Em right and I know Danny really wants you to meet her."

"After what just happened I doubt that" He laughed bitterly.

"No they'll be fine with you now. Their just a little over protective of me."

"You don't say!" Martin said raising an eyebrow.

Sam laughed "We should head back in" She headed for the door again and held it open for Martin.

"Go ahead, I'll be in, in a minuet" He said a small smile on his lips.

"Okay" Sam said as she closed the door behind her.

By the time Sam finished tell Em what happened, she was in floods of tears.

"What am I supposed to think and do now? We slept together and he left before I woke up hen he comes back three years later, engaged no less, and tells me he wanted a family with me, that he wants to be with me." Sam sobbed

Em had her arm around Sam's shoulder and pulled her close knowing there was no easy answer.

"I'm just so confused Em. I've worked so hard to get where I am since the accident and now he's gonna screw it all up again!"

"He can only screw it up for you if you let him Sam. We're all here for you. I know you can do this. It's just going to take some time to deal with it. You've had a stressful day. You need to rest and take some time to think about things before you do anything." Em glanced at Danny who was stood in the hall entrance leaning his shoulder on the wall, arms crossed with a deep frown on his face.

Danny had been stood there long enough to hear everything that happened on the balcony but Sam was yet to notice his presence. Seeing Sam break down completely, her head on Em's shoulder, tore at his heart.

He walked over and pulled Sam from Em's embrace so that she was sat curled in his lap, her arms around his neck, her head buried under his chin. He rocked her and told her it was going to be okay as a father would reassure a child.

Em's POV

It broke my heart to see some one I care so much about in so much pain. Watching her as Danny tried to comfort her, she seamed so vulnerable. As much as or maybe more than she had at any stage of her recovery. All I want to do was take the pain away for her, give her the easy answers she so desperately craves, she's been through enough.

Listening to Sam tonight and watching the way Martin looked at her through dinner, whether he realised it or not, made one thing very clear to me:

Sam is still in love with Martin and he's still in love with her. So the only question now is how to get them to realise it.