Chapter 14

Sam woke up early the following morning, still wrapped in Danny's arm's but in bed not on the couch where she remembered falling asleep. She carefully sipped out of his arms so as not to wake him. She walked across the room and picked up a blanket off the chair and wrapped it around her shoulders before heading quietly out of the room.

Sam headed for the sliding doors and walked out on to the balcony. She leaned her arms on the railing, wrapping the blanket tighter around her to protect against the morning chill.

He rejected me. Sam thought. But it doesn't change how I feel. I can't not tell him. I don't want to keep these kinds of feelings hidden. Wow. Three years ago I couldn't tell him because I was scared of being with him, scared of seeming vulnerable. Now I want him to know even though nothing will happen. And it might jeopardize our friendship. But then again not telling him might as well.

Sam sighed deeply as she heard the door slide open then closed. "You ran out on me" Danny started as he wrapped his arms around her "You know if any other woman did that to me I'd be really pissed about now" He joked making her laugh.

"That's better. You want breakfast?" He asked knowing it was stupid to ask her what she was thinking or if she was okay. If Sam wanted to talk about last night she would.

"Not right now. I'm going to tell him how I feel" She started "I know he doesn't want to be with me and it could cause problems with our friendship but I need to tell him anyway. More for my sake than anything I think. I lost him because I didn't tell him how I feel. It's to late now but I have to tell him."

Danny looked down at her with a smile "I think that would be a good idea Sammie"

Sam twisted in his arms to look up at Danny "Thank you. For last night, for supporting me and for always being there." She hugged him tightly for a few moments before letting him go "It's early, you should go and join your girl in bed for a while. I'm fine" She added seeing him about to argue.

"Works for me!" He smirked "You know where I am if you need me." He added giving her a last, brief hug before returning inside.

Sam watched his retreating form before turning back to look over the city. She knew that Danny didn't hold it against her that he spent the night with her and not Em. She also knew that he would have happily stayed out here with her and he only left because he knew she needed some time to herself for a while.

There was a time when she would have pushed him away when she wanted him to stay and she wouldn't consider going to him later if she really needed him. But she wasn't afraid of that anymore. And Danny knew she'd come to him if she changed her mind about wanting space so was happy to do as she asked.

Sam continued to look over the city trying to decide where, when and how to tell Martin she loved him.

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Martin barely slept and eventually gave up, leaving Anna asleep in bed. He headed for the lounge and stood in front of the window's looking out over the city.

Sam must think I don't want her now. How could she not after how I treated her last night. Martin thought with a deep sigh. I have to tell Anna I want out. And I have to do it today.

Martin had felt awful when Anna came in last night and crept in to bed with him. She'd seemed quieter since they'd come to New York. He knew it was mostly his fault they weren't communicating much, but he did wonder why she wasn't trying much to make things work.

He was a little bit worried about it if he was honest. Thoughts kept running through his head like did she know about his and Sam's baby? Or that he still had feelings for her?

He knew he had to talk to her and end it soon, but a part of him was terrified that even if he did, because of last night, Sam wouldn't want to be with him. For that matter he didn't know for sure if she wanted to be with him before hand. He thought she did, Danny had hinted that she did and that if he were to leave Anna for her, Sam would have him.

But after last night he wouldn't be surprised if Sam didn't want to talk to him and Danny showed up at his door to give him another piece of his mind. And this time he'd probably get more than just pinned to a wall.

"Hey, you're up early. You want some coffee?" Anna's voice startled him out of his thoughts.

"Uh…no thanks." He replied after a second. Anna came up to him and wrapped her arms around his neck pulling him in for a kiss.

"Come back to bed then" She said seductively as she pulled away, holding on to his arm to pull him with her.

"I'm sorry. I have a load of paperwork to do. I want to get through it as quickly as I can so that the rest of my weekend's free" He said pulling out of her grip with an apologetic and slightly guilty expression. It wasn't a total lie. He did have work to do but it could wait and probably wouldn't take too long. But he wasn't about to have sex with the woman he wanted to leave, it wasn't fair.

"Okay. I'll let you off this time but you owe me mister" She said mock sternly as she wandered back to the bedroom.

Martin sighed watching her go waiting until he heard the door close before turning back to look out the window. He knew that it had to be today. He couldn't keep lying to Anna, or Sam for that matter, about his feelings. Anna is a decent person and didn't deserve to be treated the way he was treating her. She deserved someone who cared about her. And not someone who spent all his time with her wishing she was someone else.

Martin continued to look out at the city trying to figure out where, when and how to tell Anna he was leaving her. He needed to let Sam know he was in love with her and would do anything to get her back.