I'll always remember I helped you get her.
She was all you wanted; she was beautiful, thoughtful, and smart.
And you loved her.
I watched from afar was you laughed at her jokes, at first you were too scared
But I gave you courage and soon the laughing turned into hand holding the handholding to kissing, and you were hers, like you always wanted.
But something happened I didn't plan.
In the time it took you to be hers, I became yours.
I loved you, but you loved her.
I learned the meaning of unrequited and how much it hurt
You would tell me how happy you were, and I would see it, that sparkle in your eye that once was mine, was now hers just like the rest of you.
My heart broke I missed you.
But you were happy, and to me that's all that mattered.
I had to let you go; you belonged to her and always would.
You didn't know what you did to me; I felt sometimes you didn't care like you said you always would.
You didn't have time for me and I accepted it
Little by little I distanced myself, busied myself with unimportant work.
Pushed you away, let you go.
This time you confronted me…
You asked me how I could hurt you so, that you loved me.
Before I knew it I was crying letting the tears flow I worked so hard against.
I was furious, but not with you no, never with you. At me. For believing in false hope
I told you I needed to go but you held me back, I yelled, struggled and walked out that door away from you forever.
I'll never forget that hurt in your eyes when I told you I hated you-it was the only way.
How when those words left my mouth you dropped my hand as though I had electrocuted you.
I can never erase the hurt of my heart breaking.
I'll never ever forget it was my entire fault.
I'll always remember I helped you get her.