Ode to the Goblin King
You watch me through your crystal ball and whisper kind words upon me
You tell me I mean everything to you yet I know not what that means
You tell me you love me, that you are a slave to my devices, yet I still fail to understand.
You call me cold and cruel for deceiving you, yet I do not mean to hurt you
You try to be resilient and pretend that what I do has no effect on you
You try to injure me with your words and actions, so tell me, what does that mean?
You say my eyes can be cruel, but what about yours?
I can't begin to say what I see when I look at you.
My eyes are at the brim of tears, you don't know what you do to me
I've tried for so long to close my eyes and remove the sight of you, but it's impossible
I can't live without you
Not for a second
We are quite a pair you and I
You torment me, and yet I let you do it
You push me to the very extreme of my emotional pain, beyond return, beyond repair . . .
How is it that I can't live without someone that does such a thing?
You tell me you love me but I don't know what that means
I can't understand your form of love
I don't understand pain and anger in the form of devotion for someone you care for
It's because of this that when you tell me that you're a slave to my devices, I can't believe it
You move the stars for no one but yourself
You are so cruel when you want to be, and that is always
You live without the sunlight, in a world full of darkness, a place where you want me to be
I cannot go there, not for you, not for anyone
I love you, I always have but you don't know how to return that love
Words are not enough, saying "I love you" is not enough
I cannot trust that you will change for me merely because you say so
Hence it is now that I will say the words that will release the bonds between you and me
Forgive me for this my love
Trust me when I say that this hurts me more than it hurts you . . .
"You have no power over me . . ."