Woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
Kate sat up upon waking, and looked around her small makeshift tent. He back ached slightly from sleeping on the ground. She looked next to her and felt a sense of loneliness, wishing in the back of her mind that someone was there to wish her a good morning.
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
She crawled out of the tent and stood up. She looked out at the water, and thought that maybe she should swim out as far as she could to escape the lonesome and sadness that this island had to offer.
And oh I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do
When you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
She saw Jack straightening up the top of his tent across the beach and he looked over at Kate. He nodded, then went into the jungle, heading for the caves. She looked back out at the ocean, and thought about the day that she kissed Sawyer for him to tell her where Shannon's medicines were. She hoped Jack didn't see her kiss Sawyer.
You got what you deserve
Hope you're happy now
Cause everytime I think of you
It's killing me
She watched Jack disappear from sight, completly hidden by the trees that waved back and forth in the wind. She sighed and looked down at the ground, trying to make her heart ache look like a stomach ache to the other survivors.
Inside and now I dread each day
Knowing I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
She walked down the beach a little ways, ignoring Hurley asking her if she was okay. She took the band around her wrist and tied her hair up in a sloppy bun. Kate sat down by the water and felt the wet sand consuming her as she sunk deeper into it. She looked out at the water, and wished she could get of the island. She'd rather be in jail than have to go through so many painful thoughts between Jack and Sawyer.
And oh I don't know what to do
Not sure if I'll pull through
I wish you knew
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do
When you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
She turned when she heard someone cough. Sawyer was pulling a pack of cigarettes out of his pocket. He looked up at her for a second, then sighed as he looked back down to to take out his lighter. She turned back to the vast ocean and wished no one had told him that she had kissed Jack that one day when Sawyer was first waking from his sub-concious state.
What do you do
When you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say
When everything you said
Is the reason that he left you
In the end?
How do you cry
When every tear you shed
Will never bring him back again?
She buried her head in her hands and started to let the tears fall.
I hate myself for loving you.
Well this is my first song-fic I've ever done. I want to thank Josh Holloway Fan for letting me use his format for the whole song thing. And thank you for reading!