Disclaimer : Can't believe i have to write this ... i don't own anything but my own thoughts.
A/N: Ok , today i WILL find out how to make Paragraphs in this damn thing ...
Neon Cogitus Evangelion
Chapter 3 : Of the Heart and the Soul
It was quiet and peaceful , Shinji dozed a long time and he had a lot of patience.
Or rather he could not decide on which alternative would hurt less.
To die of boredom in the bed or the outside of this room with all those people that did not like him.
Finally he got up and ventured out.
Empty corridors and rooms greeted him with an eerie feeling of loneliness.
So this was the void small Shinji figured out ... there was nothing anywhere.
This was not funny, playing was funny, but this was not.
Shinji wanted out. This was bad. He started to cry.
When crying didnt work he got angry, very angry. He didnt like to get angry.
Father got angry too often. Mommy didnt like it when Father got angry.
He was mean then and that was bad.
But now little Shinji was very angry.
He roared and a pulse was sent out into the void.
Something out there was attracted by it.
It moved towards little Shinji to investigate the source of this delight.
Not much time had passed when Shinji finally heard sounds and voices.
Someone was crying it seemed. It came from the Room at the end of the corridor.
Shinji didnt really want to know the source of the sadnes , he didnt like crying much.
He was always compelled to cry too , and boys weren't allowed to cry.
Still he went down the corridor.
He moved hesitantly , but he reached the door to see his Mother and the most beautiful dream , the blue haired girl.
‚She is real ... can't be , dreams don't just come true'
The girl was heavily bandaged. Her right eye was covered too.
A Beast was rising with one eye left , the other was only a gaping hole of pain.
It wanted to utter ist pain and inform the prey of ist soon demise.
It was hindered ... something which aroused even more anger.
So it removed the restraints and roared.
Shinji cringed slightly under the sudden pain of a Headache.
„Mom ?"
The moment he said that his Mother uttered with pure loathing „Useless !" and slapped the girl of Shinjis dreams in the face.
After realising that her Son had to be behind her she whirled arround happily andrushed towards him.
„Shinji, oh dear you're awake and well, i was so concerned about you"
He stood there shocked.
‚Why is he looking so strange ?' Yui was asking herself.
Shinji could't believe what he just saw.
That Girl was cryingand his mother was the reason..
His inner turmoil was quite big for such a young boy, he turned on his heels and ran like an Angel was chasing him.
His mother stopped in the door totally befuzzeled and was dumbfounded for one of the rare times in her life.
Shinji blindly ran out and directly into the nice chest of Misato.
„Umph, hey not so fast Shinji-kun, i thought we wait until our first date with that !"
He immediatly retreated and felt kidded, which he didn't like at all.
„Get lost" he murmured and strode past her.
„Hey , where do you think youre going in that hospital gown ?"
„I dont care"
‚Strange boy, where did he learn manners ?' Misato thought and followed him.
„I said get lost , i want to be alone"
„Yea , i heard you , but im your commanding officer and hence responsible for your wellbeing" she giggled.
Now he was completely annoyed and his hand flexed unconsciously.
‚Can't really argue with her. I just can run away. Can't bear that at the moment'
He ran for good.
And he was fast, outrunning the Major after a few minutes.
Aimlessly he wandered around and finally found a bench in a park to sit down and think.
Alone Shinji sat on the Bench when a Purple Monster shot out of the ground behind him shaking the entire Park.
It's mouth broke open and the gaping maw shot down swallowing Shinji and the bench.
He was yelling , never before he has been so scared.
His left arm got caught between the enormous teeth of the behemoth and was crushed between them.
He cried out in pain, blood was sprouting from the stump where his left arm had been.
He fell down into darkness. Still yelling.
He shot up from the bench and wasn't comfortable around here anymore.
Shinji wandered off , wanted to get out of town.
It was around two hours later when he reached a viewpoint above the town.
On the horizon the sun ventured into the ocean.
But below him buildings were rising from the bowels of earth.
How was that possible ?
„Marvellous" he muttered to himself.
Flanked by two shadows, a red eyed girl and flaming haired boy he saw down to the last line of defense , the Fortress of Mankind, Tokyo-3 in all his beauty.
If he guessed right he had to pilot a giant robot to defend this.
He gripped tight to the fence and vomitted into the depth beyond it.
A/N : Ok , slightly longer chapter ... finally some time, saturday afternoon without any friends and no raids scheduled ... good for all that take a slight interest in this , bad for me P. This came out rather nicely paragraphed ... haha. Better now don't you think.
Thanks for the reviews btw ofc. When i see where i am ... and what i rather want to tell ... i see LOADS of work before me... and damn i can tell you im lazy as hell normally.