A/N This chapterI dedicated to the families who lost their children in terrible tragities on good friday. sorry its taken me so long to get these last few chapters up my computer is playing up, so i'll try and post a few more today.

Chapter 10 Ryan's girls

Ryan sat in his office at home and looked out the window watching his two girls play with their dog Coco. He went from looking at them to the picture of Natalie, he missed her so much. Those lovely big brown eyes that stared back at him tempting him to remember his lovely wife. It only seemed like yesterday that he meet her at a party held at the yacht club in Newport Beach. She had been on holiday to visit an aunt she had never meet co-incidentally it happened to be Julie Cooper the mother of Marissa Copper who he had been engaged to at the time, but certain things happened and they broke of the wedding each feeling it was the right thing to do 'things were just not ment to be' he remembered telling Marissa. About a month after Marissa had moved to Hollywood and Ryan had started to see Natalie, they had planed to stay in Newport but after what had happened at a party involving Seth and Luke they moved to New York.

Natalie was a caring sweet person with a heart of gold, that heart had captured the likes of many men in her life but none so as Ryan. After they married, she started work as a children's author. Writing for children of all agers from babies to teenagers, after two years of marriage they had their first daughter Kelly a bundle of joy with sandy blonde hair just like her fathers. After she had Kelly she went back to writing books but this time for young children as she could read them to Kelly, and the story lines were always easiest to come up with. This was just what she wanted a loving husband and a cute baby girl never would she have expected to fall pregnant again but she did, three years after her first child, came her second daughter Jamie unlike her sister Jamie had dark brown hair like her mothers. Six months after Jamie was born, every thing seemed to go on as normal, but this was not to last for long. Natalie became sick never being able to get out of bed and when she did the farthest she could go was the living room, Ryan worried for his wife so he took her to hospital where she was diagnosed with cancer, it had spread from her liver to her bones, there was nothing they could do for her seeing it was to advanced, they helped her with medicine that would make her life more bearable, two weeks after Jamie's first birthday she died in Ryan's arms in hospital.

Kelly Attwood was a lively young girl, no matter how much she denied it she was daddy's little girl, the spitting image of her father although she hated to admit it, most people would just look at her and stare. It was not her fault that she looked like her father infact in some ways she liked it. She also liked being a big sister although she and Jamie were only three years apart, it was one thing she liked to remind her sister of. Kelly and Jamie were close probably closer then any sisters they knew, although they had different friend they still did almost every thing together. Horse riding all year round, swimming in the summer and when their dad took time off they went skiing at some of the best ski slopes in America and Canada. Kelly's favourite by far was the Canadian Alps, it had a special feeling to it. That feeling may have come from the reason that it was one of the few memorise that she had of her mother. Kelly knew that she was lucky to have any memories of her at all , Poor Jamie had none.

Unlike her sister Jamie was more the conservative type. She never fully opened up to people there was always something she was hiding from people she did not know, according to half the people she knew at school her mother worked in Australia with her grandfather, Someone had said that they had seen them at the airport waving her off. Jamie never corrected them by telling them it was their aunt they were seeing off she thought it was easier and less embarrassing for them to think that her mother lived some where else rather then saying she died when she was a baby and had no memories of her. One of the hardest things Jamie found was when she was out shopping with her father and sister, seeing all the other little girls out with their mothers some dressed the same all having fun and laughing; both she and Kelly would look at them then at each other, they did not understand why it made them feel so bad, they had the best dad in the world he did every thing for them, but there was something missing neither of them could figure out that was exactly. Their dad had, had plenty of girlfriends. None of which Jamie or Kelly liked, all wanting Ryan to themselves not having to share him with two children that's why a lot of them had only been there for a month or so, if they could not accept that Ryan's girls would always be apart of his life then they had no future in the Attwood family.