Ok, I got this chapter out very quickly because I know a lot of you might be confused from Chapter 13. If all your questions aren't answered in this chapter they will be in Chapter 15. So don't worry. I might take a little bit to get Chapter 15 out, but I'll try to write it as fast as I can. Thanks again to everyone who reviews. I hope you guys like this chapter:

Chapter 14-I'm Not Talking

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How could I've been so stupid? He was just using me all along. Just to get her back.

"Lily, Lily wait! Whats wrong?" James shouted.

How could he? How could I?

"Lily stop!" James called grabbing my arm.

"Let go of me you git!" I screamed and ran into the common room.

He's terrible, evil, the biggest git in the world, I hate him.

"Lily! Lily!" Paige called, "Whats wrong."

"N-n-n-othing," I said as tears streamed down my face.

"I-I'm g-g-going t-t-too be-d-d," I said and walked into my room and laid down on my bed.

How could've been so stupid? Why would he do that? How could he just kiss someone else, and just act like everything was fine. How could he………………

"Lily…..Lily wake up," a voice said.

"Please Lily, we need to talk," another said.

What? Whats going on? Why do we need to talk?

"What?" I asked grumpily sitting up.

"Why are you so mad?" the voice known as Sarah replied.

Mad? Mad at them? Why am I mad at them?

"I'm not mad at you guys….." I answered.

"Mad at James, why are you so mad at James," Paige said.

Mad at James……..that evil jerk! How could I have forgotten!

"She remembered," Bridget mumbled.

"I don't know how I forgot! How stupid am I he was making out with other girls and, and, and just being a jerk!" I shouted.

"When did he supposedly "make out" with other girls?" Paige questioned.

"I saw! In the corridor, he and Rachel were snogging!"

They do believe me, don't they?

"They weren't Lily……" Sarah replied.

"Yes they were, I saw!"

"No they weren't, I saw to," Paige said.

Well…….maybe it just didn't look like it from your direction……
"If they weren't they what is going on?" I asked.

Do not say ask James……

"Ask James," they said all said at once and walked away.

Fat chance that will ever happen.

"Lily, you can't not talk to him forever," Paige said between bites of food.

Oh yes I can.

"He's miserable, you're miserable. You guys need each other, face it,"

I'm not miserable, just because I'm not talking to him, or anyone else, doesn't mean I'm not happy. I can be perfectly fine without him.

"Lily, you have to talk to him……..please?" she asked.

I won't.

"Don't act like you can't hear me, Lily, answer me, please, why won't you talk to him?"

because I'm afraid, afraid that I was wrong, and I just blew our whole relationship, afraid, I'm right and he really doesn't love me………………………….

"Fine, don't talk to me about it, but you MUST talk to James about it," she said and walked away.

Ok, maybe I MUST talk to him, but not today, not tomorrow, maybe next week, or maybe...never

"Lily!" James called, "Lily, we need to talk."

Oh no, not now.

"Oh coming!" I yelled and quickly got up from the table and ran for it.

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Why is she so angry? I can't even get her a minute alone to find out. Her friends refuse to talk to me; they say we need to talk. Sirius and Remus just say the same thing.

"So James, how is the Lily problem coming?" Sirius asked.

"Terribly, every time I try to talk to her, or get within ten yards of her she jumps up and runs away. It's getting a bit annoying actually," I answered.

"Well just keep trying, she'll come around," he said.

But I've been trying that and it hasn't been working!

"No, stop trying James," Remus said, "Lily isn't ready to talk, so stop pushing, and wait for her to come to you."

Makes sense.

"But, what if Lily thinks that he isn't interested anymore, then James and her will be done for good," Sirius retaliated.

Good Point

"But if he keeps pushing her to talk, Lily and him will never talk again," Remus answered.

Oh yeah...

"Well…umm, James you decide," Sirius said.

"Um….well I…..I have to think about it, I'll just lay low for awhile until I am sure of what to do," I answered.

What do I do, I haven't talked to Lily in 3 days, and I have no idea how to talk to her…...I need to find a way to talk to her, without talking to her...this needs to be fixed before Christmas, I can't stand not talking to her…

"So James, have you figured out what to do?" Remus asked at dinner.

"I have no idea, I just, I just need to talk to her, to tell her what happened, but she won't let me get near her, I just don't know what to do," I replied.

"Well, at least she stopped screaming at you," Sirius said happily.

"Yeah, I guess your right…….."

But hearing her scream at least let me know she was still thinking about me……..

"She seems happier so, maybe she'll come around, or……." Remus said.

"She'll find someone else," Sirius finished for him.

"What?" I asked and spun around.

How could she have found someone else this quickly? Who is that, that little git, I'll………

"Who is he?" I asked them.

"It's Matt Hemlock," Remus said.

Matt Hemlock……what's so great about him……..

"He's in Ravenclaw, captain of the Quidditch team, very smart, but a huge git," Sirius said.

If she can get over me that fast, then I should stop worrying about her and move on with my life

"I'll be back soon," I said and grabbed my bread.

"Don't do anything stupid!" Remus called.

"Don't worry!" I shouted back and started to walk down the corridor.

I will………

The first girl you see ask her out……Claire…..no never mind second girl……Aubrey.

"Aubrey, could I talk to you?" I asked.

"Yeah sure," she answered.

You can do this, this'll show Lily, and she'll see that I can live without her, and want me back, this plan is foolproof.

"Would you like to go on a date Saturday?"

"Sure, that would be cool," Aubrey answered and kissed me on the cheek, "see ya Saturday."

This will work, it has to