SYL POV

Damage Control

Part: Six

Author: Jacey

Rating: PG13 - R

Disclaimer: Krit, Syl, Max, Alec, and known characters belong to James Cameron, Chuck Eglee, and FOX. The names of Jondy and Zane also belong to them, but their personalities and characters belong to me. The story idea belongs to me, along with any additional ideas.

A/N: I generally write M/L fics, (even though now I'm a total M/A shipper) but Lexie and Ash got me obsessed with Krit and Syl and I made myself obsessed with Jondy and Zane...The title of this fic, was allllll Lexie's idea :D.

Dedication: For Lexie and Ash who made me realise that there's more to DA than there seems, and that the other X5's are just as interesting, if not more so than the main characters. SO, for Lexie and Ash. May you both find your own Krit's. :) (btw - save me one ;) )

Characters: I modeled the character of Jondy, mainly off Lexie ;)

A/N: Every third part (i.e. Part's: 3, 6, 9, 12, etc..) will be a P.O.V chapter.

Syl POV

It's not like I'm unlucky or anything. I have a good job, a nice place to live, enough money to buy what I want - that's generally helped by Krit's little outings - and the best friend I could ask for, Krit. And I know he wants something more from me than just my friendship. And I understand that.

I want more. I want him, in everyway I can have him. I want, no need everything about him. But I'm just not sure if it's safe... yeah, I know Jondy and Zane have done it, and Ash and Bram, and Rai and Trey and Lex and Tawny, BUT that still doesn't persuade me.

I mean, look at Tinga. She gave everything up for her husband and son. And she died. And Maxie's gone, and Zack, and Ben. I guess their deaths didn't really have anything to do with loving someone, but I don't want to loose, no, I can't loose Krit. He's everything to me, and I don't know how I'd survive without him. So, I guess we'll both just have to survive with friendship... Or until the time is right.

Sometimes I wish that I got a family like Jondy did. But I guess it's easier this way. Like Zack say, no emotional ties. But, if Jondy got caught she'd fight SO hard to get out, just to get back to Zane and her family. I don't know if I'd do that. I mean yeah, I have Krit, but is that enough?

I envy Jondy. For more than her family, and Zane. I envy her because she has guts. She had courage that they would have been proud of at Manticore. I envy that she has such a good relationship with Ash, Lex and Rai. I envy the fact that I know that if Maxie was still alive, Jondy would be her best friend. I WANT THAT! I want to be able to talk to my sisters, and tell them anything.

But I can't. I'm not like that. I can tell Krit anything, but my sister's, I don't know what it is. Maybe one day I'll be able to tell them why.

Until then, I guess I'll just be happy with what I have, although I'm thinking I might buy a duck...