LEX POV
Damage Control
Part: Fifteen
Author: Jacey
Rating: PG13 - R
Disclaimer: Krit, Syl, Max, Alec, and known characters belong to James Cameron, Chuck Eglee, and FOX. The names of Jondy and Zane also belong to them, but their personalities and characters belong to me. The story idea belongs to me, along with any additional ideas. I own, Lex, Ash, Rai, Trey and Bram. Tawny belongs to Kara.
A/N: I generally write M/L fics, (even though now I'm a total M/A shipper) but Lexie and Ash got me obsessed with Krit and Syl and I made myself obsessed with Jondy and Zane...The title of this fic, was allllll Lexie's idea :D.
Dedication: For Lexie and Ash who made me realise that there's more to DA than there seems, and that the other X5's are just as interesting, if not more so than the main characters. SO, for Lexie and Ash. May you both find your own Krit's. :) (btw - save me one ;) )
Characters: I modeled the character of Jondy, mainly off Lexie ;)
A/N: Every third part (i.e. Part's: 3, 6, 9, 12, etc..) will be a P.O.V chapter.
A/N: On recent info from Lexie, I take back any claims I made for Lexie, saying that she created TAWNY. Kara did. So, thanks Kara. He rocks!
IMPORTANT NOTICE: I'd like to apologise for the shortness (word?) of the last chapter. I basically ran out of ideas... and having already written the next chapter (not this one - the next one) I was in a hurry to finish what I had... And seeing as it didn't go as planned, and somehow Max ended up pregnant as well (HOW, I mean, I know how, but it was so NOT planned..) I'm gonna have to re-write bits of the next chapter ;) But have no fear, it will be here (ohhhh rhyming!) tomorrow. or even later tonight, if I can change the bits I need to change..
Jacey
Lex POV
Have you ever wondered why life turns out the way it does?
I think about it all the time. I may not seem the serious type, and I put on a front that makes people think that I'm someone different, but really, I wonder, why does life turn out the way it does?
What made some assholes in lab jackets think that they could play God, and create us? What made us decide to have free will, and escape that night in '09? What make's me love Tawny? What makes him love me? What makes the 'norms so scared of us transgenics? And what made me have two miscarriages, and my two little sister's get pregnant, when I should be the one having a baby? But I guess that's life, and sometimes life deals us up a nice big ol' plate of shit.
Sometimes I wish that things had turned out differently.. I mean, now I wouldn't give up knowing my brothers and sisters, or having Tawny; but maybe if it hadn't happened this way... maybe if I'd gone my own was instead of sticking with Rai after the escape thing's would have been different...
Lex POV
A Different World
In my other world, I escaped in '09.. Cause I can't change the fact that I'm a transgenic..
In my other world, I escaped by myself. Rai went with someone else. I was found on a street corner in New York, by a nice old man, who's son and daughter in law couldn't have kids. They adopted me.
I grew up as Alexandra Maria Christinna Carson, daughter of Michael and Marie Carson, granddaughter of David and Anna Carson, and Alexander and Breanne Williams. I was a spoilt child, but I never became one of those rich snobby teenagers, like the other girls at the Buckland's Academy for Privileged Children. I guess my Manticore roots took care of that aspect. I never took anything for granted, because I so easily could have never had any of it.
The Carson's were one of the few rich families left in New York, and they didn't mind spending money. I grew up in one of the few nice neighborhoods left in NYC, and we lived in a penthouse apartment over looking Central Park, which had been turned into a privately owned garden after the Pulse. My Grandpa Carson owned a third of it, and my Grandpa Williams, my mom's dad, owned another third of it.
I think the one thing that stopped Zack from ever finding me, was the fact that when I was found, I told them that I was 7, not 9. Also, I was never called Lex, or Lexie, as I had been at Manticore. I was simply, Ally.
I never told anyone about my Manticore roots, nor did I let anyone see my 'super powers'. When I was 14, I started dating Nathan Carmichael, the grandson of Wilson and Anya Carmichael, the owners of the other third of Central Park. Nathan and I dated until we were 17, and then in the picture perfect fashion of that era, he asked me to marry him, whilst we were having a moonlit picnic in Central Park.
6 months later we were married, and 7 months after that, our first daughter, Jacelynn Grace Carmichael was born. When Jacelynn was 2, our second daughter, Ashlynn Olivia Carmichael, was born. We were happy together, we had the perfect family, we had everything we needed...
But somehow in every single dream I have about my perfect world, Nathan looks a little more like Tawny every time. And somehow it never occurred to me, until 2 weeks ago, that I'd named my 'daughter's after two of my sisters. I guess some things just never leave you..
So while I don't have the perfect family, or the mother and father I've always wanted, or the money, or the children... I do have all my brothers and sisters. I have a life that's not going too badly, and I have Tawny.
Life isn't fair sometimes... And even though I'm so incredibly happy for Jondy and Max, it makes me think that it should be me... I should be the one who's having a baby; I should be the one who's boyfriend is about to propose to her... opps, did I just say that? Ignore that last comment. You know NOTHING... Nothing at all...