Chapter 23
"What Relationships Are For"
Quote from the Author from the heart:
"Love is something that is forever and always, unless it was all a lie. You know it's something that you can never give-up on because if it's really true love then it's the ONE and ONLY thing that wont ever give up on you."
"Well? What did the doctor say?" John asked.
Persephanie stared up at him blankly, unsure of what to say. There was already so much going on, she wasn't able to think straight. "Uh…um…he said that uh-"
John stared at her with a questioning and puzzled look on his face.
"Well…n-nothing much. Uh- n-no-nothing is wrong." Persephanie miserably stumbled upon her words. She obviously wasn't good with lying and John obviously wasn't convinced.
His look was persistent, still a bit confused and not in full belief. "Are you sure?"
"Mmm-Hmm. Y-yeah. I-I'm sure," She tried to avoid eye contact to keep the conversation from continuing. "Well I'm getting really tired now, honey."
"Oh right. Yeah sure lets go to sleep now," John kissed her forehead then let her rest on his chest to sleep, still not convinced, about everything.
The Next Morning...
John rolled over in bed, stretching his hand out to feel the presence of his girlfriend. He kept patting on the bed and pillows, but that was all he got. No Persephanie.
John groaned. "Ah dammit! And I was looking forward to waking up to her, and hold her and-and. Tsk. Damn."
He sat up and sighed, looking over to the empty side of the bed. So much insecurities were running through his head and…
…. Same with Persephanie.
"I don't know ok!" Persephanie's voice was barely even there. Her eyes were back to normal, like before she'd met John. Full of misery, sadness, depression, and loneliness.
Randy sighed, "Sephie I know things are tight between you two, at this time. But I just think, that it'd make it harder if you didn't tell him about your pregnancy."
"Yeah and you might even chase John away for a bit, if he finds out himself. You know how hard he's been on himself, trying to make your life easier, and that one big factor that you kept from him, might discourage him! Sweetie, you NEED to tell him. He loves you and I promise it'll be easier once he finds out. I guarantee it." Kimmy advised.
Persephanie sighed. "I'll think about it. I mean I'm just afraid that he might turn on me! Like what if he doesn't want to have my child? What if he's totally disgusted by it? What if-"
"Sephie! Oh my god, girl you're thinking about this too much! Seriously! And what do you mean 'what if he doesn't want your child?' Girl Reanna is having his child too, and he's having to deal with it!" Kimmy chimed in.
"Yeah my point exactly! I don't know, I told you it's just weird now. I feel like he's getting sick of me, and maybe Reanna does have what he wants!" Persephanie took a lot of courage to actually say those words.
"What! Girl where are you getting all of this? Are you sure we're talking about the same John here?" Kimmy was is disbelief of how her best friend was taking things.
"Why am I so naïve to think that? I mean he's been hanging out with her a lot lately! And every single time I try to talk to him about our relationship, he just sounds so irritated with me. I just…I don't know what to say, except, something is wrong, and John doesn't feel like fixing it. And you know what? I don't seem to feel like it either!"
Randy shook his head, as if he was disappointed. "You can't just give up on love like that!"
Persephanie eyes were wet with tears but she wasn't crying…. yet, "I know, but it gets real discouraging when your partner seems to be! Trust me I'm trying me best, to make this work."
Meanwhile back with John…..
John sat in bed, thinking about the day before, when Persephanie saw him and Reanna. He remembered exactly what she said. 'I wont enforce anything.'
That just gave John a sudden thought. "Won't enforce anything huh?" He'd just found a way to take off, at least some, of his insecurities. He got up and went out the door; ready to talk to the woman he desperately wanted and needed.
Back to Persephanie…...
"Well just to change the subject, just a tweak, how or when are you going to tell Daisy about her upcoming niece or nephew?" Randy asked.
"Oh dear lord. I forgot about that! It's going to be hard for a seven year old, to handle two babies come into her world! Ah don't know how I'm going to tell her! Wow, another thing onto my list of problems!" Persephanie sighed, leaning her head back, letting it rest on.
"Yeah that's exactly why you need to tell John. Coz he'll help you get through the other problems, including telling Md, about your pregnancy." Kimmy said.
Persephanie shook her head, "No! I don't want John to have to take care of everything. I don't want to make him feel like, all he's doing in this relationship is healing my pain. I think that's why he's acting like this. He's been so extra hard on himself, just because of me, and I just don't want that. I want him to know, that I have my part in our relationship too, and that it is all worth it in the end."
"Awe. John is one lucky man." Randy smiled.
"And Persephanie is one lucky lady." Kimmy smiled too, hugging her best friend. "You're right. It'll all be worth it in the end."
"Mmm boy do I hope so! And I'll fight it till the end!" Persephanie rested her head on Kimmy's shoulders. While another knock was made at the door. "Oh I'll get it!" Persephanie always tried to be optimistic about things. Thinking she could get her mind off of her 'life crisis issues' she opened the door. "Oh boy, I spoke too soon."
John was standing in the door, looking at Persephanie, with a smile on his face, "Spoke too soon?" He leaned in and gave her one big wet kiss. Still with a smile on his face, he winked at her.
"What are you doing here?" Persephanie squealed, in a hyper tone of voice.
John laughed, "Why can't a man just want to hold his girlfriend, and not be asked questions? I mean, remember what you said to me yesterday!"
Persephanie eyed him, "What did I say?"
John smiled, "You said you wouldn't' enforce anything, so that means I can just do whatever I want with you anytime and any place right?" His smile went from sweet, to seductive. He walked into the room more, pushing himself onto her, then to the wall.
Seeing this, Kimmy and Randy decided to just be clueless and leave the couple all alone to what they were doing.
"Yeah uh, babe I wasn't talking about that! Come on, you know what I mean!" Persephanie pushed herself and John off the wall.
"Oh," he sighed. Looking into her eyes, he shot her a look that seemed to mean Get ready coz we really need to talk about us. "Well can I at least have my girlfriend not enforce me to find out what's wrong?"
Persephanie gulped, "Wrong? Hmm why nothing's wrong?"
John sighed. He put both hands against the wall, staring straight into her eyes. "Babe, you know, that I know, when something is wrong. Ok? I can read your emotions through your eyes."
"No but, it's just, its really nothing. I can fix it. Don't worry about it." Persephanie shrugged it off.
"Don't worry about it? What do you mean? So something is wrong?" John pulled her chin up.
"Well it's nothing I can't fix myself. It's ok you don't need to know." Persephanie tried to smile, to convince him. But it wasn't working.
"Sephie! Baby then what's the point of having a relationship if you wont tell me what's wrong? I mean isn't that why were together in the first place? Baby I'm here to make sure that you're happy. Ok? That's why we're together! To make each other happy and I really can't do that, if you wont tell me what's wrong." John pulled closer to her.
"I know but I just feel like things are stacking up on you, because of me." Persephanie held onto his hand.
"So? Who cares? I don't care if all falls down right now! Because you know why? I have you right by my side to pull me back up. Just seeing you happy and here with me, gives me the strength to pull through everything. Ok listen, don't worry if you think, that it's all your fault that I'm having problems. It's my job, we're partners, your problem is my problem. That's how I see it! We're together because we take each other's problems away. I wouldn't be doing my job if I didn't worry about your problems."
Persephanie took a deep breath, "Ok but if I tell you, you might get mad at me."
John's smile only grew bigger, "Ha! What do you mean? Baby, the only thing that you would tell me, that'd get me mad is if, number one, you want to break up with me, or two, that you've fallen hard for someone else. Baby, that's basically it. You can tell me anything! Common all I'm asking is to have you as my girl, and I don't care about anything else ok…"
Persephanie could see John was getting a little hyped up so she decided to stop it. She didn't want him to be really excited, so he wouldn't get sunk down hard when she told him what was up. "No baby, look just listen to me real quick alright? Look what has been on my mind, for what seemed like forever! Is just something I'm not sure you'll be so happy about."
John laughed, "Oh come on baby! What can it possibly be? Huh? What?"
"Well remember last night? When you asked me, what the doctor said?"
John gulped, his eyes buckled, slowing bringing his spirit down. He managed to say, "Yea w-what about it?"
Persephanie cupped his cheeks to make things easier, while he rested both hands around her waist. "Well I told you nothing was wrong…and nothing really is wrong. But there is something, and it is that…."
John gulped pulling in even closer to her.
Persephanie sighed and looked in his eyes sharper, "John, I'm pregnant."
Jhen's Note: OMG it's cliffhanger-mania! hehe sorrie guysI just feel so evil whenever it comes to the weekends since i'm so beat from skool! But hey its getting intresting right? Boy do i hope so! What did you guys think of my quote earlier in the beginning? Ops I thought of it myself! Well I'll just shut up now and say thanks for the supporters and the readers! R&R :D
Gurl42069 - Yeah well she told him! No I wasnt going to let her tell him till later but then i decided to be nice! So yeah, wait its paternity can be found out till 1 trimester? Wow thanks for the cue! I wonder if i have that long tho...i'd then have to stretch out the story...hmm...well thanks for telling me and for the review! Hope u liked the update! Did you? Or am i killing u with the cliffhangers?
Pianogal - Eh, u people convinced me! I was going to make Sephie hold up the 'pregnancy news' to John till like LATER, but nah...u guys are good with convincing! OMG. But yeah my updates arent as long now! ;P
XtremeAngel OMG i really am killing you huh? ANOTHER cliffhanger. What is it my fault? i feel attacked coz pianogal does ALOT of cliffhangers and then MEGGIE wont even update, so i had to give them a taste of their own medicine! hehe well thanx. Muchous Love!
JohnCenaLuver - Yay your reviews are still long! And last chapter was NOT a purpose cliffie but this one is! hehe! Well i'll just add onto the myspace comment you gave me, how fun was the sleepover? wait how many people were even there? sleepovers are FUN! Damn talking about john cena is even more fun! OMG. no but u didnt answer my question. Did you get any detentions? hehe!
Bettina - hehe it always cracks me up whenever you cuss Reanna and John out. But you cant cuss John out ANYMORE! no one can talk about my husband like that! lol. (or as u like to say eloel. lol) buts yeah john is SWEET in this chapter so my babbii needs good compliment this time! OMG, dave batista he made me cry..well not really, but yeh when he was talking about how he was going to surrender and stuff! i almost cried coz now i only have rko to watch! But he's urs so i have to back off. no fair! i want dave back! OPS, my babbii mite get jealous! ;P
My Lady 416 - OMG not only are you the SMARTASS but your the LUCKY one too! NO FAIR! You have ppl in your skool that look like cena? Not one but TWO? OMG your so lucky! I wish i had them at my skool! But then i'd probably fail all my classes since i'd be distracted! But still! You lucky, lucky, lucky! You must be loving ur life beng the smart-lucky-ass girl huh?
Super G - Am i still mean? another cliffie huh? sorrie! but thanks i hope this chapter is better! is it?
Leila Hardy - Yay your 'mentally attacthed' to my story! COOLIO! hehe yeah isnt my default pix of cena hot? DAMN! Ooh ok i need to contain myself...ok i'm back...aite well thanx for the review! keep it up! I'll holla over to ya at myspace later!
Karen L. GASP! KAREN how can u forget 'my future self' (since cena will be mine in the future) is only eighteen? lol. jk jk. hehe another cliffie! Sorrie girl i couldnt help myself! its good bussiness really! hehe luvs ya!
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