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I am so, so sorry for the wait. I have been so bad with updating lately, reasons are on the top of my profile if you want to know.
I finished a little one- shot the other night. It's called Loveable and I've been working on it since November then finally finished it… you can go read it if you want.
"I'm pregnant"
A very tensed silence fell over the room. It was like the world had stopped, Mike, May- Li, I and Faith had all silenced. I didn't know what else to say- for me there wasn't really anything left to say but I guessed the others just didn't know what to say. Mike sighed and bit his lip- he seemed to be wondering about what to say next- what he could say.
"So this was why you were so distressed about if you may have hurt your stomach when that barn had fallen?" He sighed- more of a statement than a question. I nodded. "Was… your little one hurt? Could they figure out if it was?" I nodded.
"Yeah- they made an ultrasound and there wasn't any damage done on the baby… I can still stay here can I?" That question had been spinning in my head the last few days, now I asked it before I had the time to change my mind because if I couldn't stay here I wouldn't know where else I could go. Mike sighed and sat down on the edge of the bed and told the others to leave the room. When the door was closed after them he turned to me and I sat up and leaned against the wall.
"Yes, you can stay here through the whole pregnancy- but after the child is born he or she cannot. We haven't got any education to take care of infants or toddlers so then you either need to give it up for adoption, a foster family or another care home. Or you both need to move to a care home for teenage mothers and their children.
Well that didn't make my decision any easier to make did it? For a moment I had wished he'd tell me that I'd have to stay here and give the baby up- it would be so easy if I didn't have to make this decision on my own. I sighed. "You alright?" Mike asked, I nodded and rested my head against the closest shelf of the bookshelf. "How did this happen?" I understood he was talking about the pregnancy.
"As far as I know there's only one way to make it happen unless you're over eighteen." I snap. Mike goes bright red. "No but seriously, it was something that we were both choosing to do. I wasn't raped or anything. And no I wasn't kicked out when I told my parents I was pregnant." I hesitated. "I chose to leave before they found out." I chose to say they meaning both mum and the rest of the residents and the staff on Sunshine- and because I knew that if I said "she" there would be further questions about my dad.
"Sometimes people…" Mike began then hesitated. "People think that other people will choose to react in a way and therefore chooses not to do anything or wait with something because they think that these people will react in a certain way. And therefore they choose what for the moment seems like the best, so they won't have to tell." I could understand where this was going. "But the thing is- you never know how a person's going to react until you've told them. So usually…"
"It's a good idea to try?" I sighed. "Seriously Mike, you don't know my mum and you don't know my dad. You don't know my mum's… friends and you don't know any of them I've been living with before- you don't even where I used to live or anything about my life before that freaking barn fell on me." I bit my lip. "And I was doing just fine before that, I only made a stupid choice that made me end up here and do you know what?" As soon as I realized what I was going to say. "Never mind."
"No… Kenny what were you going to say?" I didn't want him nagging on me so I just went with something that would make him give up on it and laid down again.
"I'm tired… can I just be alone for a moment and rest." Mike pulled his hand over my forehead- feeling it with the back of his hand in case I had a temperature. I wasn't actually that tired, a bit but not too- I had just wanted to blow the conversation off, yet I closed my eyes and felt when Mike pulled a blanket over me- but kept my eyes closed until I heard the door close after him, first then I opened my eyes again and rolled over to my back and stared up in the ceiling.
I wasn't going to tell him- I actually hadn't really admitted it to myself yet. But Mike was one of those people and persona's that I probably would have needed every moment of my life living at sunshine. I loved how he just simply felt my forehead to feel if it was hot- instead of backing away like my mum used to have done when she thought that I might be ill not to get caught. I loved how he just accepted the fact that I was tired without continuing to nag me to tell him because he was so curious, I loved how he kept silent walking out of the room. And those were things that just were to other people- while they didn't work much at all for the kind of people like the ones living at Sunshine.
I sighed and turned over on my back again leaning my head backwards. I wasn't tired but if I stood up now and went out of mine and Faith's room Mike would start asking questions I didn't want to answer. Maybe if I waited a while he would have forgotten his questions for the moment and if he'd ask them later then maybe I could have come up with some other excuse not to answer him- or just some great lie for an answer!
I heard the sound of the others having dinner downstairs and rolled over to my side again, pulling an arm around my stomach because it started rumbling because of how hungry I was. I sighed, I really couldn't have come up with something that would let me go downstairs and have dinner with the others? To check if I could just make the time go a little faster and sleep I laid my head down and closed my eyes.
"Hey." What felt like one second later I woke up from hearing May-Li talking to me. I opened my eyes and pushed myself up- and I wasn't even falling asleep! Well I guess I had anyway. "You okay Kenny?" I looked over to her and nodded tiredly turning around to lean against the wall. "I brought some toast, you need to eat- and don't think we didn't notice that you barely ate anything for lunch. I know what it means when someone just eats a bit of potato and then sit and push the rest of the food back and forth on the plate until it's gotten cold."
"You do? Then you would have known eating that fish woulda killed me!" I mumbled. Not clear enough for her to hear. And slightly fingered on the epi- pen that laid under my mattress- for some reason I had always been ashamed of being allergic. Or well, not for just any reason but because of some old guy that lived on Sunshine when I was little told me that he thought that allergies were signs of weaknesses and the stronger the reaction the weaker the person- Idiot.
Or idiots! Idiot him for believing that and idiot me for believing in him!
"Pardon?"
"Nothing." I reached for the toast and took a bite so I would not have to answer any annoying questions. May- Li sighed and leaned towards her knees with her elbows. I looked down not to have to look at her and callously chewed on my toast. I didn't feel hungry anymore so I just put the sandwich down again.
"Come on now Kenny." May- Li exclaimed calm but firmly. "You need to eat." I sighed and hugged my legs, mumbling about that I wasn't hungry. Then May- Li sighed too. "I'll leave it here. Please try to eat some more." She stood up and walked out the door closing it behind her. I took the piece of toast and chewed on it callously again. Trying to ignore the nausea that started creeping up my throat- again.
"Ugh" I threw the toast down at the plate when it was clear the eating was only making it worse. I needed some air so I stood up and walked out in the back garden, walked through the trees and sat down with my back against a tree where they couldn't see me from Ashdene Ridge, trying to draw deep breaths to ease the nausea which actually didn't help much.
"Are you okay?" I heard May- Li's voice and she came walking. I had been so concentrated on myself I hadn't heard when she came walking. "Hey. Are you feeling sick again?" I nodded, just couldn't get myself to speak as every movement made me feel even more sick. "It's alright." When I moved a bit to lean forward May- Li placed her palm against my back. "Deep breaths, you're gonna be just fine."
I swallowed, and continued trying to fight against the nausea. "Don't fight against it Kenny." May- Li said as if she could read my thoughts. "Just relax." I looked up, but it didn't last long as I lurched forward and threw up. "Okay, you're okay." I felt May- Li's hand rubbing circles on my back and kept leaned forward as I lurched forward again. Feeling tears burn behind my eyes as I started dry- heaving.
"Oh…" I suddenly heard a voice from a boy standing by us and looked up fast to see Trenton there. May- Li told him to get Mike and Trenton right away ran away towards the house about thirty seconds later coming running back with Mike after him just as I finished and then leaned against May-Li's shoulder too worn out to hold myself upright.
"Is there something I can do?" Trenton seemed helpless. Mike showed him to come over and with each of my arms around Mike's and Trenton's shoulders we slowly made our way back to the dumping ground. May- Li ran before us to fix something while we slowly walked back. When we came through the hallway and slowly up the stairs towards the second floor I could see the others standing around looking to me. Several of them worriedly.
Johnny broke through the crowd and helped Mike and Trenton help me up the stairs. At this point I was so drowsy they were more or less pulling me forward but when we came into mine and Faith's room I steadied a bit onto my feet and then mostly fell into bed. I just wanted to go to sleep. "No Kenny. Don't fall asleep yet. You need to drink something." I shook my head.
"At least clean out your mouth and spit it out." May- Li pushed me up to sit and I took the glass she reached me but my hand was shaking so much I could barely hold onto it as I cleaned out my mouth, spat it out in the bucket they had placed by my bed and then laid back down feeling someone pushing a thermometer under my tongue. I wanted to protest but couldn't fight the energy to speak again and just waited for it to beep- which seemed to make my head want to blow up because of the headache that had started pounding through my head.
"Oh sweetheart" May- Li brushed her hand over my forehead, and despite my drowsiness I could feel her hand felt cold to me. But that was the last thing I thought before my head fell to the side and I drifted off to sleep. Hoping and believing that I would feel better once I woke up after a few hours of sleep.
But I was wrong, first I didn't even get to sleep for half an hour. And when I woke up I felt even worse. My mouth and throat was so dry I could barely breathe and I could barely keep my eyes open because the dizziness was making me nauseated. "Here" May- Li's voice was heard but yet again every sound was making my head pound and May- Li held an arm to my back helping me to sit up, then she held a glass towards my lip.
I tried shaking my head. I didn't want to, I would just be sick again but she tipped the glass over. "Come on Kenny. You need water." I didn't see any other way out of this then to simply take small sips of water from the cup. Which I highly regretted when I, two seconds later hung over the bucket dry heaving.
Mike POV
The rest of us were all gathered in the living room. We hadn't told the others that Kenny was pregnant- of course that would have to wait until Kenny could choose herself who would know and how and when. But they were all worried about how ill Kenny seemed to be and Trenton was walking back and forth in the living room because he was too worried to keep still.
We could all hear Kenny being sick again on the second floor. It crossed my mind that I might should have gone up and helped. But what could I do? If there was sometime Kenny wouldn't want an audience or too many people around her it would be right now, so I stayed there in the sofa listening to the dull sound of Trenton's shoes hitting the floor over and over again.
Johnny sat and twisted the thread of the hood between his fingers, Tee was tapping the table but apart from that no one seemed to be moving at all and no one said a word. There was nothing to say! There was nothing anyone could say to calm the worry in all of us! Trenton made a failed attempt to calm himself and sat down by the piano, but his fingers had barely touched the keys before he stood up and started wandering back and forth again.
"Trenton?" Carmen's voice broke through the silence. "Would you stop walking? You're making us all even more nervous?" It was in the almost silence that followed I could hear that Trenton's breaths had gone slow and shallow of him panicking so I stood up and more or less pressed him down on the piano chair.
But as soon as I'd turned around to get him a glass of water he was up on his feet again and walking back and forth. I sighed, but understood that this would happen every time I tried to make the young Wilburton to sit down this would only happen again so I sat down myself again and then we were back at square one again because not even I could let go of what was happening to Kenny enough to make anyone do something else than just sit there and worry.
I took up some magazine from the chair next to me but when I started realizing I didn't even know what I was reading about I put it down again and continued with just sitting there in waiting for some news about Kenny. About half an hour later we heard Kenny start dry- heaving again and this time I had had enough and stood up and hurried up the stairs.
When I came silently into Kenny and Faith's room Kenny was just lying down again and with breaths short and shallow she whimpered silently. I tip- toed over the floor and stroke my hand over her forehead. God the poor girl was burning up. The thermometer laid in the shelf so I took it and then sat down by her. "Hey Kenny." I said softly to her. "I'm just going to be putting this in your mouth okay?" Kenny nodded barely noticeable, but opened her mouth slightly and then closed it to keep the thermometer in it's place.
39, 2
"It's gone up." May- Li whispered to me. "I checked it only an hour ago and then it was thirty eight point eight." She bit her lip. "Do you think we should take her to the…" Before May- Li had finished, the door to the room opened and Trenton came in.
"I'm just going to check something okay." He kneeled by Kenny's bed and took her hand, grabbing the skin on the back of her hand and then let go of it and it slowly went back to it's usual position, Trenton worriedly looked back to me and May- Li.
"It's getting quite bad. You need to get Kenny to the hospital right now before it goes even further."
Dun, dun, dun, duuun. Cliffhanger. So- I hoped I would have this up today and it's now fifteen minutes before midnight YAY. I hope you liked this chapter and see you next time.