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TamJaspie: Yes it was sad, but I guess it was necessary. Kenny doesn't actually believe something will go wrong, only with what have just happened she's realized that there are things that can go wrong and it's just in case. I hope to get this chapter up before you're back so you will have something to read

I'm sorry it's taken me so long to update. But here's a chapter for you all. I hope you enjoy it

I put my pen and notebook to the side on the bedside table, then I suddenly started thinking about the names I had written- Molly Rose if it was a girl and Elijah Christopher if it was a boy- Elijah there was no doubt about- but Molly? I had always known that if I was a boy I was going to call him Elijah but there were so many girls' names I like, some of them better than Molly like Amelia or Isabelle- weren't those prettier.

I picked up the letter again and was just writing that I would write a list of names that I liked- when it just popped up in my mind- I didn't need to write a list- there was one name- that I had loved all since I was little and I just knew it would be right. I erased Molly Rose quickly- and then wrote- smaller so it wouldn't be too long.

Madison Gabriella LaRusso

That was it!

"Kenny?" I heard Mike's voice- hoarse with drowsiness. "Are you still awake?" I nodded, but felt my eyes starting to flutter as I got more and more tired, and then I laid down to get some sleep. The last thing I saw before I closed my eyes and fell asleep right away was Mike smiling and then leaning his head back as he fell asleep again.

But I should so have guessed!

I should have known I would as usual wake up from morning sickness

And that was what should have made me speak to the doctors about it

So that maybe they could give me something against it

So that maybe I would be able to wake up without having to feel sick

Again!

That morning, as usual my eyes flew open as I woke up with a start of another wave of nausea hitting me. "Mike" Mike was still sitting sleeping in the same chair as he had been sitting in tonight and now lifted his head and his hands to rub the sleep out of his eyes. "Mike, I'm gonna be sick!" Mike stopped in the middle of a movement, looked around and then more or less jumped across the floor and grabbed a vomiting bag from a hanger in the wall and then ran back to me and held it under my mouth just as I felt bile rising in my throat.

"Okay, okay." With shaky hands. But mostly to have something to hold onto I grabbed the vomiting bag myself and Mike used one hand to rub circles on my back and the other one to push away the hair from my face. "You're okay." I lurched forward one last time and then leaned backwards, sinking back towards the cushions. "Finished?" I nodded and felt Mike pull off my fingers and then pull away the plastic bag from me while he clapped my shoulder. "I'll go check with the doctor if they can give you something against the nausea."

I wanted to tell him I didn't need anything now. At least the throwing up was done for this time. But so I figured at least it would make me feel better. I still felt nauseas and disgusting- maybe it would make it better- but my baby? Couldn't medicines hurt the baby for pregnant women? Mike came back into the room with a female doctor that pulled out some equipment from a cupboard and then held up a huge needle to me.

"I don't want anything that could hurt my baby." I pulled away my arm when she came with the tourniquet. The doctor frowned, then put the tourniquet down and then held up the syringe while she took my hand in hers and stroke it with her thumb.

"Honey." She stated. "We would never give you anything that could hurt your baby okay?" Something in the calm tone in her voice and her deep, blue eyes made me feel like I wouldn't even think twice about trusting her. "This is called Zofran! And the only way it could hurt your baby was if we gave you a really big dose. And we're not going to give you close to that much." I nodded, but something told me that maybe I should be careful anyway and I forced myself to hesitate.

"Honey…" The doctor spoke again. "I know what it feels like, I have a son and a daughter myself and I was given Zofran when we were having Jack- I was scared to death something would go wrong but nothing happened and he turned out just fine." I nodded. "So do you want to give it a try?" I nodded. "Okay… hey… do you know what we'll do. If you go up for check- ups during the closest months and with the baby and so… ask for Dr. Tricia… that way I'll be the one following you, so I will keep an eye on everything we give you and everything and with only one doctor it will be a less chance for mix- up. Is that alright?" I nodded. "Okay, do you want to give it a try?"

I nodded, but when I saw the huge needle again I almost wished I hadn't answered her yes and even though the nausea was getting worse again I just wanted to jump out of the bed and then run for my life. "Hey…" Mike noticed me getting nervous and took my hand. "It's okay, it will be over in no time." He stroke my hand with his thumb while I felt Dr. Tricia pull the tourniquet around my arm and I gripped tight around Mike's hand.

"Kenny Honey." Dr. Tricia said. "Close your eyes and imagine you're on a beach." I did as I was told. "Can you hear the waves and some birds flying high over your head? The sand under your feet and the wind in your hair. Don't you feel very… very calm…" I understood she was doing it to keep my thoughts away from the needle and have me relax- and in fact I kind of liked it. So I let go and just dreamt away.

For a moment I really felt as if I was there. Standing barefoot in in the sand with the sand getting in under and in between my toes, wind blowing in my hair and the sound of the waves from the sea. Birds were flying far up high over my head with their hoarse sounds and patter of their wings, and there was just nothing that could destroy this precious moment- but it only lasted for a second.

"Kenny." Mike's voice pulled me back to reality and the same hospital room again. Both he and Dr. Tricia smiled at me and the nausea was gone and the syringe empty so I could understand Dr. had given me the medicines with me didn't even noticing it. "So… when can we go back home?" Mike looked to the doctor while she threw away the stuff.

"We'll keep you here for observation for a couple of hours more. With someone who is pregnant and especially this young we are always especially careful and keep under observation." I nodded. "Do you want me to prescribe some Zofran in pills so you can take some with you home?" I nodded and looked to Mike, he nodded too.

"Kenny…" Mike spoke again and sat down on the chair closest to the bed I sat on again when Dr. Tricia had left the room. "I know it's still early but you should probably consider telling the others about… well… this." He gestured. "So that maybe… if something happens they will know at least a part of what is going on." I sighed. I had already been thinking about this and maybe that would be for better and for worse… I just didn't know. "I guess it won't be long until they can tell themselves and I'd rather have them being told from you than from anyone else or from rumors!" Mike continued, I nodded.

"Maybe… maybe we could tell like… well Trenton and Faith already knows… so maybe the older ones then… Johnny, Carmen, Tee, Rick Etcetera, and maybe wait for a bit with Jody and Harry and them." Mike frowned and then shook his head slightly, well I should almost have guessed what he told me.

"That wouldn't work at Elm Tree House- if some of them find out and the others know about it they will all try and find out- and they will find out about it believe me." Mike sighed. "But maybe… we could tell the older ones first, and then take the younger ones right after and explain to everyone on their level." I nodded, guessed that would be a good plan. "You don't have to do it know of course, but I would like you to consider doing it as soon as possible."

I nodded- well I guess I couldn't keep it from them for too much longer anyway. It would be hard living in the same house as them. And Mike was right, it would probably be better to tell them all before they all started to guess things themselves and spread rumors that weren't true before I had a saying in anything.

And again, Mike was right. It would probably be better to tell the older ones and the younger ones in groups. I pulled up my foot and fingered on my shoelace like I always used to finger on something when I was thinking. "I'll tell them." I said at last. "But not today. I don't know when I just… God I don't know anything anymore." I scratched my forehead.

"So…" Dr. Tricia came into the room again with a paper that she handed to Mike. "Leave this paper in by the cashier at the pharmacy and you'll get some pills with Zofran. You take them when you feel nauseas okay?" I nodded. "Well I guess that's it for now… I'll be back when you can go home, you just ring the bell if you need anything." I nodded again.

"I like that doctor!" Mike said when the door closed after her. "It feels like she's talking to the both of us, some doctors just talk too one person at the time and as well… she treats you like a person and not like a patient. She's really good." I nodded. "So how would you feel with going to her during the pregnancy?" I nodded to show I was okay with that- I also liked Dr. Tricia- but right now I mostly wanted to go home.

No- not home like that. I wanted to go back to Sunshine! For a moment I just wished everything and everyone there so much it almost hurt. I missed my mum's hugs and her telling me that she loved me all the way to the sun and back again. I missed the others living there. Their childlike manners, sweet comments and playing. I missed feeling like there was always someone there.

I hugged my legs and rested my chin against my knees. Mike sat with his phone and scrolled through some page. For a minute I thought back and wondered why it was that I suddenly missed Sunshine so much. I had already come to the conclusion that even if I missed it and it was a home it could never have been home enough for me, or mean as much as Ashdene Ridge already did.

"Kenny?" Mike's voice sounded worried. "Are you alright?" I looked up and nodded. I had just dreamt away for a bit. I thought about my mum again, where was she right now? What was she doing? Was she worried about me and wondering where I was? And what had happened to Scotty? Would anyone notice that he had something to do with how I disappeared and in that way blame something on him?

For a moment I hesitated about telling Mike my real name and where I came from. But at last I decided against it. It could wait. I wondered about Mike as well, someone had told me that he had been working at care- homes for a really long time, since before even the oldest residents of Elm Tree House were born.

At last I started wondering about Jace. Had he thought anything about me since that day outside when he shouted at me that it was over? Did it haunt me like it haunted me that we were going to be teenage parents- at least biological! Did he wonder about what would happen to me since I couldn't run away from the fact like he could?

"Good news" I was woken from my thoughts when Dr. Tricia came into the room again. "We can send you home now. Here take this." She reached me a small sticker with a phone number on. "That's my cellphone number, if you have any questions just call okay?" I nodded. "So… we'll just fix with the papers and everything, you can get dressed in your own clothes and so and you will be going home in just a few minutes." I nodded and grabbed my clothes that was hanging on the side of the bedside table, a yellow skirt, grey tights and a grey, knitted shirt.

I might as well use this kind of clothes while I still could!

"And here we are." Mike pulled over in front of Ashdene Ridge a little while later. "Trenton took in the box with your things yesterday so you don't have to worry about that." I nodded and pulled the belt of and opened the car door to step out. "Kenny…" I looked up at him just as I laid my hand on the door handle.

"Yes?"

"If anything would go wrong or you're worried about something or anything- then please just come to me or to May- Li okay?" I shrugged. "I mean it- we're here for you- for all of you." Mike ruffled my hair. "Hey you have got nothing anything against sharing a bit of your hair with me do you?" I sighed and shook my head. "I'm just kidding kiddo… just kidding."

So, it's now ten minutes to midnight and my goal is to have it up today. I know it's mostly a filler but well… it's not the worse. Please review and let me know what you think