Hello : ) This is Linnéa asking for your attention for the little while, maybe the few minutes it would take for you to read through this message. And she… wait why am I talking about myself in third person? Well, let's start over again.
Hello : ) I just wanted to take the opportunity to, tell you how much each and every one of you mean to me. This is kind of random so if you think it's nothing else than nagging for attention you're probably right! Well… onto what I was actually going to say to you.
Well, if we have been chatting much the last few months then you might know that right now I am facing some major changes. And I'm not going to lie, I have been feeling… like everything I have done earlier is just going to waste and that this will never go well… but that feeling have started to fade more and more, and right now I can usually shrug and have a feeling that "it will be alright"
A while ago I got a couple of really good news and well… I know that other people- not least my friends on here have helped me to get so to the point I'm going to be able to do this so to the point that I just feel that things are going to be alright in the end- no matter how! So I just wanted to say thank you.
I wanted to thank you for being my friend, or for believing in me- because even if it maybe from time to time was only a "great chapter" a bit here and there or a couple of messages every once in a while or whatever it was- it was too much for me to explain in a simple message with written words.
So if you were there for me, and believed in me then thank you. There is no way I could have been where I am today without you. So thank you yet again, you've meant so much more than I could ever say.
And if there is something I have gotten wrong and in fact you weren't my friend or didn't believe in me. Then I think that the news I have gotten the past few days will give me the right to say…
…in your face!
-Linnéa
LocalXmusicXjellybeanX: YAY, done with the fifth chapter : ) it makes me so happy whenever I see you've gotten caught up with another chapter. Haha, yeah, I'll take your word that it was almost. I kind of liked the names too, even though I changed the girls' name in chapter six. And no, I did not know that Boo is one of your nicknames. I just chose it here because as long as Kenny doesn't know herself whether it's a girl or a boy it will work to call the baby. Although she and all of you and the others will know whether it's a girl or a boy in some while and then she will start calling Boo by his or her name when Boo is born.
TamJaspie: I am so happy you liked the chapter and that you're enjoying this story. And yes, I believe Kenny will tell the others about the pregnancy, possibly in this chapter but I'm not sure.
I am so, so sorry for not updating for so long. I don't have much ideas for this so updates might be slow, but I can tell that however it goes I am not giving up on either this or any of my other stories. I will keep on going until the end even if it means doing time jumps every once in a while and things like that.
"Kenny!" Just as I came inside the door Faith came up and met me in the hallway. "How are you? Are you okay?" I nodded, but didn't have the time to answer anything else before Mo came up and shoved a card he obviously had made for me into my hands.
"I made you a get well card." I opened the card and loads of glitter fell out. "Floss helped, she must have put too much glitter again. But look!" He brushed off the glitter. "Everyone signed it." I smiled, Mo might have been nagging and annoying at times. But he did have a lot of heart. "Do you like it?"
"Yes Mo" I smiled at him. "I like it. Don't worry about the glitter." Just as I had said that May- Li came out in the hallway from the kitchen and tightly embraced me right away.
"Oh sweetheart I was so worried about you." She stepped away and stroke my arm. "Are you okay?" I nodded, then chose to leave the hallway before everyone else came out to greet me. And so I walked up to mine and Faith's room where boxes stood spread around the room and Faith seemed to be packing for something.
"Are you going somewhere?" I asked, and sat down on my bed and turned the box with my clothes upside down to fold all of them and find out where to put them. "Oh wait… are you moving or something?" I hoped that the fact that Faith had packed things that she wouldn't be packing if she wasn't moving was telling me wrong.
"I'm sixteen." Faith said and emptied the bottom one of the drawers in the dresser. "Then you're thrown out of the social services' system." She sighed. "I like this place but they need the space for other children and everything and I've been searching for an apartment and moving things and everything for the last year. And now it's only these things left so I'll be leaving in a few days."
"Oh…" I didn't know what else to say but I dropped the shirt I was folding and it was almost like I'd forgotten what I was doing with it. "Where will you go?" I grabbed the shirt again and just laid it to the other side almost on my pillow.
"I'll only move a few blocks away so I will visit and you can visit me at any time… in a few weeks Rick and Kazima will also be leaving, and only in a couple of more months after that Johnny will. So there are quite a lot of people leaving now. I don't really know how it got like this but now it is so… you will be fine though, and everyone else as well."
I frowned, but nodded. Then I turned to my clothes again and acted like I didn't care about what she had just told me. While the thoughts were just spinning in my head. If Faith was leaving- it would mean that I would have this room on my own afterwards and I… I had never been sleeping in a room on my own before.
I had grown up at Sunshine, where I was the only actual child and had always lived in the same room as my mum, when I got ill I had to come home with one member of the stars- but I usually came home with Janette and that meant I shared room with her for a night- or fourteen just so she could keep an eye on me.
When I slept on the bus on the way to Newcastle that Mr. McCullen guy that drove the bus had been there, so I would guess. The only times in my whole life I had slept alone were those few hours at the bus station at Washington street and the time in that old barn that fell upon me. And both of the times had gone very well hadn't they?
And both of the nights had been dark and lonely and… I had just been so alone and it was so quiet without hearing the breaths or snores from a person in the same room as me and it had been so… so frightening!
"Kenny?" Faith's voice reached through my thoughts. "Are you okay?" I shook my head and returned to reality. "You're not getting sick again are you? Should I get Mike? " I held up a hand to silent her. I was fine, I had only dreamed away and… God those lonely nights would be so frightening!
"I'm fine." I answered her. "I'm going to go down and talk to Trenton." I stood up and walked down the hallway to Trenton's room where I sat down on the floor while he sat at his bed as usual. And for several minutes after we greeted each other none of us said anything.
"So…" Trenton said with a slight smile. "I heard you come back only I figured everyone would come and greet you right then so I decided to wait until later." I nodded, but didn't actually answer as I was still thinking about Faith and the others leaving. "Did Faith tell you that she's leaving?" It was almost as if Trenton had been able to read my thoughts and I nodded. "So how are you thinking about that, will it be nice having the room to yourself?"
"Trenton I…" I hesitated about telling him. "Look! You're my best friend and that's why I'm telling you this. I… I have never slept in a room on my own before, well except for that night I slept in that barn. And I… I guess I…"
"You're afraid that something might happen and we can't hear it from the other rooms. Or just afraid of being lonely- and afraid of the dark being so, freaking dark when you're alone." Trenton sadly stated. "I know. I've felt it too! Hey, don't worry. We are loads of people in here and there will always be someone here for you. And if you don't want to be alone then just tell Mike and he'll let you move in with someone else."
I sighed. "But what if he don't? What if he thinks I should just brave up and learn how to do anything at all on my own?"
"Mike's not let that. And besides, because you are pregnant we are all afraid something might happen to you and no one will know. So maybe sharing would be the best anyway." I nodded, and was on my way to answer him again when the door flew open.
"Are you pregnant?" Jody came skipping in with a weird look on her face. "Trenton said you were…" At the same time I and Trenton started stuttering the one crazy explanation after the other. "Does Mike know?" I sighed, and bobbed my head up and down as answer. "Shouldn't you tell the others?"
"I…" I hesitated about what to say, I knew Jody had a way with shouting it all out to the others at the same time if she heard something she found exiting. "Trenton, help me." Trenton knew Jody a lot better than what I did and pushed himself up and patted next to him on the bed to have Jody jump up next to him.
Jody walked over the floor and climbed up on the bed next to him and turned to sit. "Listen… Yes, Kenny is pregnant. And…" He started to say something else, but we had totally forgotten the door being open and it was impossible to speak with the door open at a place like this without anyone hearing it.
"Kenny is pregnant?" Floss came into the room, then stopped for a split second. Jumped around and then ran out the door and ran down the hallway and down the stairs. "KENNY IS PREGNANT. KENNY IS PREGNANT. KENNY IS PREGNANT." I closed my eyes, god let this be a dream so that it wouldn't happen like this.
I opened them again. "Darn it." Then I reached out my hands and Trenton pulled me up and ran after Floss. And in the hallway doors had started opening and the residents from elm tree house were walking down the stairs and several ones of them turned to stare at me and asking things I didn't really catch as I ran down the stairs and to the living room where Mike was just catching up with Floss.
"FLOSS BE QUIET!" I shouted at the top of my lungs and then at last she silent and the room was left all quiet, everyone were here by now and they were all standing around all staring at me, and for a moment it was all silent before Harry was the first one to speak up.
"What does it mean that she's pregnant?" I sighed and gestured to Mike- I was not going to take this talk with Harry! Mike sighed, let go of Floss and gently but firmly pushed her down to sit in one of the sofas and then spoke again.
"That Kenny is pregnant it means that she's going to have a baby. And Floss, what you did really wasn't nice to Kenny. I want you to say you are sorry and I will think of a punishment for you. You are not getting away with this young lady." Floss bit her lip and lowered her head as if she understood she had really done something wrong.
"Is it true that you are pregnant Kenny?" She asked, and with the tiny voice she was using I felt the anger running off. She was just a little kid and didn't understand what she was doing. I sighed, put a hand towards my stomach where I could just slightly feel it having changed from the way it had used to be before.
"Yes Floss." I sat down on the arm support of one of the sofas. But Floss, it wasn't your truth to tell. I was going to tell soon but I was just figuring out how to do it because I didn't want it to just come out too fast like you told them. And the way you just waved us off and told it to everybody it… it really hurt me." Floss hung her head.
"I'm really sorry Kenny." She pushed herself up and then came and stood right by me and looked towards my stomach. Floss then glanced up at me and then leaned closer, so close she almost held her lips to my shirt. "I'm sorry baby." I couldn't help but smile and ruffled Floss's hair a bit to show that she was forgiven.
"So…" Carmen began. "Is that why you got sick? Because pregnancies usually mean that you get sick in the morning right?" I looked around… I guessed I was going to answering some questions right now. I turned my head and looked up at Mike who smiled comforting and squeezed my hand in his.
"I guess I…" May- Li stood up and turned to me and Mike and spoke more quietly. "I'll take the little ones and speak to them only. Floss…" She turned to the others again. "Harry, Mo. Can you come with me to the office please and we'll talk there?" None of them protested and stood up and followed after May- Li while I turned to Carmen to answer the question.
"I got sick at first because of that yes, then I kept on getting sick because I was dehydrated so yes and no." I looked around and tried thinking of what questions that were most definitely going to be asked so I could answer them right away all in once
"I am not going to tell you who the father is so you will get nowhere with asking that. However- No I wasn't raped. It was something that we both chose to do only… we hadn't really counted on any consequences. I'm seven weeks exactly today and that means my Boo will be born sometime around the ending of April. What more do you want to know?"
"What?" Bailey began. "What are you going to do with the baby when it's born?" I sighed- that was the question I had hoped wouldn't come but at a place like this I should have known there was no chance everyone were going to miss it.
"I don't know. I… I just don't know I… I… I have promised myself that whatever I'm going to do I will do what is best for my Boo… which I call him because I don't know if it's a boy or a girl- some days I think it's going to be a girl, and some other days I think it's going to be a boy- today I think it's going to be a boy."
The room fell silent again, and the minutes slowly ticked away until we heard four pairs of feet down the hallway and then Jody, Mo, Harry and May- Li came back into the room. "They have got one question each for you Kenny." May- Li stated and the little kids lined up in front of me. "So Mo will go first, then Harry and then Floss. Is that alright?" I nodded. "And you don't have to answer anything you don't want to answer okay?"
"Okay!" Mo cleared his throat.
"Do you love your baby?"
"Yes, of course I do. My baby is a part of me and I never knew I could love this strong." I looked to Harry.
"Is it a boy or a girl?" I smiled.
"I don't know yet, but I have decided that I will be finding out at the hospital as soon as it's possible." Harry nodded and seemed happy with that answer, and so Floss was the only one left.
"If you could go back in time and prevent this from happening would you?" I frowned, and even though the answer was clear to me straight away it was several questions until I answered her.
"No"
So, I am making Faith leaving, then Rick and Kazima and then also Johnny. I have decided that when I make them leave I will take one or two characters to come to Elm Tree House to live and these characters… will be sent in by you! So, I will send a private message to you and if you're interested in sending in a character I will send rule and form. If you haven't got an account you can leave characters in reviews but if you got one and see this or get my pm then I want you to send them in pm's. If you haven't got an account the form will be posted at the top of my profile. If you leave them in reviews you can only do it anonymous so then I will save them on my laptop and then delete the review.