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On Tuesday afternoon September the last it was time for Faith to leave. Even though it was only a few blocks and so, Mike made everyone help her with taking things and simply just carrying the things down the few blocks and into Faith's new place.
During walking I was walking mostly in my own thoughts, even though Trenton had told me that Mike wouldn't be angry or anything, I hadn't dared telling him that I was afraid of sleeping in my own room. Somewhat because I was afraid that Mike would think I was a wimp- and the rest because I was afraid that it would come out so everyone else would think I was a wimp- and I would have to explain why I was afraid of sleeping on my own- and then I would have to explain where I came from!
"You alright Ken?" Trenton's voice woke me up from my thoughts and I flinched. "You're not feeling sick or anything are you?" May- Li and Mike reacted to on what Trenton said and worriedly turned to me but seemed to calm down when I shook my head and smiled. "Okay… then why are you looking so distressed?"
"I'm fine Trenton. I was just… well thinking about Ashdene Ridge, thinking about the baby, thinking about what this sort of care- system is and… And so I was thinking about my mum. But nothing actually important I guess I was just brainstorming! Trenton nodded and started whistling on a Beatles' song. "Oh please Trent! I really hate the sound of whistling!"
"Sorry." He smiled and silent. Then sighed and seemed to get lost in his own thoughts. I had noticed he used to do that a lot. And since I also had noticed that when he did it could take a bit of time and energy to get him back to reality so for the moment I chose to let it go and just dreamed away and thought about my mum.
I loved my mum! And I knew she loved me! So every once in a while, a few times a day the thought hit me what I must be doing to her right now and how terrible it was hit me with all of its power and most of all I just wanted to crouch in some corner and cry my eyes out, or go home and show mum that I was perfectly fine and explain to her what was going on.
I shook my head and pushed the thought away- if I knew my mother right I was just like another one of those toys when she broke them, cried for an afternoon and then forgot about it. Yeah! She had probably forgotten all about me by now- as long as the staff weren't constantly looking at photos and such of me with her. No… she had probably forgotten all about me anyway!
I just sometimes wished that I somehow could forget her too. Not because I didn't want to remember her. But because I didn't want to feel how much I had hurt her if she did remember me after- all.
"So are you okay here then Faith?" Mike asked when it was only him, me and Trenton left helping Faith to put things in the right places, and Faith nodded and looked away from him. "Aw, come here." He embraced her. "I know it's a scary thought that you're leaving but you know you've got us just a few blocks away. We're only ten minutes, or a phone call away if something happens- and it won't because everything is going to work out just fine."
Faith sniveled. "Okay, you two. Come here you too!" I and Trenton let go of what we were doing and embraced Faith and Mike from each side.
"It's only scary to after all… wow I'm such a wimp!" Mike glared at her. "Okay I'm not bit…. Well I guess… nothing really! Oh God can you three leave some time so I can stop crying!" Mike chuckled and patted her shoulders, then asked me and Trenton to go and wait outside while he only wanted to talk alone with Faith about a few things and I and Trenton hugged and said goodbye to her.
"See you." I said letting go. "Thank you for letting me share your room and everything you've done." Faith only smiled and patted my shoulder before I and Trenton walked out where I sat down on the porch steps to actually get to sit down a minute before we were walking back to the dumping ground not to get way too dizzy and faint- again!
"So did you talk to Mike about sharing room?" I sighed. "Kenny?" I shook my head. "Why not? You said you would and if you really don't want to have your own room then you're going to need to talk to him today!" I nodded- I knew that didn't I? "Or do you want to try and have your own first?" I hesitated and just as Mike came outside I nodded and stood up. "Well, do you know a great thing about that you've got your own room now?"
"No!"
"It's that you get to paint and rearrange the room the way you want it!" Mike sighed and shook his head at him.
"Not really Trent! We do have a budget you know… but if you want to Ken. May- Li's trying to sell this bed with a bulletin board and bookshelf and drawer attached to it whatever you call that, and I'm trying to get rid of this old chair- and the things in your room are from some time in the last century so I think it's time for them to get thrown out. So if you've got nothing against second hand…."
"Oh please!" I stated. "Like ninety nine point nine percent of everything I veer owned was second hand. And May- Li showed a picture of that bed a few days ago when she put it up on the Internet. It looked great! I can't believe no one's bought it yet!"
"So do you want it?" Excited I bobbed my head up and down. "Good. Hold on a bit." He pulled out his phone of his pocket and showed me a picture of an old leather arm chair. "Here's that chair I'm trying to sell. Does that look like something you'd like- I mean you don't have to if you don't want to. But if you did it would feel good to finally get rid of it. But don't feel pressu…."
"Seriously Mike! You've got to learn to shut up and at least let people answer before you ramble on. It looks just fine. And new arm chairs are always so hard so I'd be just happy with that one." I silent again, crossed my arms over my chest and shivered when a cold wind blew through the blocks.
"Are you cold?" Mike started fixing with the zipper of his coat before I had had the time to answer and then held it up. "Here take my coat." I sighed. "Come on Ken! It's more important that you keep warm than what it is for me. Besides it's only for a few minutes. Take it on!" I could see his point and so pulled his jacket on and closed it.
"Thanks Mike!" Mike smiled and pulled me closer to him.
"You're welcome kiddo."
"Okay." The day after we stood in my room, me Mike, May- Li, Trenton and most of the other residents- actually, when I thought about it- all of the other direction. "We have got color, paint brushes. " May- Li was talking. "And everything else we need… And as always when we do someone's room… the one that is going to actually have the room is the boss." She pointed with her whole hand to me. "So, let's get started!"
Yesterday when I, Mike and Trenton had come back to the dumping ground I had pretty much only had the time to tell them what my favorite colors were (Purple and brown) until I heard them starting to plan, and May- Li had went away and bought some items I hadn't gotten to see- although something very purple and very furry had caught my eye. And somehow they had googled around and even though different sources said different things they had agreed on that it was the safest that I wasn't in the room as long as it smelled of paint just in case that it could hurt my baby and… I couldn't compete against them on that.
So after some talking, very good arguments from mine and Trenton's side Mike had finally given his okay to me sleeping over in Trenton's room over today and tonight-on the conditions that it was only for tonight and the tent bed I was sleeping on was put as far away from his bed as it possibly could be still being in the room, and that we'd have the door open at all times.
"Are you sure about this Mike?" Mike and May- Li stood in the door when I sat on my tent bed in Trenton's room with a paper and some pencils and drawing up clothes. "After all, Kenny and Trenton are two of our residents who are actually old enough to…."
"HEY" Mike interrupted. "Not one more word." I laughed and shook my head. "Okay!" His phone called. "Oh it's my friend Derek Hooper. He's a care worker too! But I can't take it right now we need to get started with Kenny's room and when Derek starts talking he won't ever stop. So…. Let's get started. You okay there Ken?" I nodded. "You know where we are but I'd appreciate if you just holler and don't actually come there…" I nodded. "Have a good time." I nodded and continued drawing on my paper.
After a while I quit drawing, anyway, if it was possible missing items I missed the real papers and real drawing pencils I had left at Sunshine. The ones I had saved up for months and months to be able to buy and then had for my birthday, so I had been so angry for it I had bought up chocolate for all of the money I had.
"What are you thinking about?" I had been so far gone in my own thoughts of those days that I hadn't noticed Trenton had come into the room until he spoke to me. "You looked so far away!" I smiled and lowered my head for a bit. "You're such a true philosophic Ken!" Trenton laughed slightly, but I could hear how forced it was even though I didn't have the time to ask him if he was okay until he had gotten what he needed.
"So…" Late that night we laid in each of our beds with covers over me and Trenton still looking for something in his drawer. "Are you excited for tomorrow and see what it looks like?" I shrugged and looked around Trenton's room- if it was anything as nice as Trenton's room was I would be very happy because with Trenton's dark- blue walls, curtains with night-skies patterns, furniture painted in yellow- ish light brown and yellow painting with the title "We all live in a yellow submarine" on it- his room was very nice- and just totally… Trenton!
"Yeah I guess." I answered him at last but Trenton had dreamed away and jumped when I spoke, and out of his hand fell an epi pen hat he had kept in a drawer in his bedside table. "Oh… you've got one of those!" Trenton nodded and threw with it in his hand. "It's okay." I leaned over and picked up mine from under the mattress. "I've got one too! Have you told Mike about yours?" Trenton shook his head. "Me neither."
"But Kenny!" Trenton moaned and sat up. "You need to! I mean what would happen if you ate or whatever the thing you're allergic to then…. Then if I did it would mean that if I eat peanuts and have a chock then it can risk something happening to me." I saw where this was going and I did not like it. "If you do then you've got another person relying on your health. Mike needs to know and he needs to know before something happens!"
I turned away from Trenton. God these stupid hormones that would have me crying like an opposite hyena. "Hey.. That wasn't nice!" Trenton stood up and came over to sit by me. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that." Well he for sure was right about that! "I'm sorry, don't cry. Please don't cry." I stood up and stomped out of the room and down to the bathroom where I locked the door.
"Kenny?" Trenton had followed me and while I sat down on the edge of the bathtub and put my head in my hands he knocked on the door and called out for me. "Kenny?" He knocked again. "At least let me come in. Please, I'm sorry." I reached up and unlocked the door and Trenton came in and locked the door before he sat down next to me. "I'm sorry."
"It's not you… Well… The thing was. When I first found out I was pregnant I… I mean the thought hit me that… that maybe it would be the best not to tell anybody and…. And just…" I couldn't even say it. "You know…. Do an abortion! No one would ever know about it and… in time I guess I would think about it less and less and almost forget it at last. And then I thought about the fact that I would never be able to forget but I just couldn't take things so I left the epipens at home and went to this restaurant. Ordered Sushi and thought that I was going to eat it… just one bite and it would all be over."
"Oh Ken!" Trenton had held his arm around my shoulders and now pulled me as close as he could towards his chest and shoulder. "You must have had a major chock and…. And when people have them then they do stupid things and make stupid decisions. But I'm your friend okay? And so is Mike and May- Li and Johnny and you get it… we're all here for you, And you are under no circumstances supposed to go through such thoughts and situations alone."
For a while I just sat like that and let Trenton just continue to stroke my hair and my back- for once it felt kind of good that there was someone taking care of me without caring about what it did to himself- which had been the case when it was with my mum and that knowledge had me pulling away from Trenton.
"Thanks… I guess… I guess we should go tell Mike about this then." Trenton nodded and we walked out of the bathroom and down the stairs, even though already before we had had the time to knock on the door to the office we heard a knock on the front door and since most of the residents were in bed we went to get it.
"Hello." Outside stood a grey haired man, a girl with hair dyed light red- perhaps in her early twenties, and a group of children of different ages. "Is Mike in?" Just as he had asked Mike came up next to me and started talking to the man.
"Derek? What are you doing here?" The man, obviously named Derek looked down at the group of children and seemed troubled by something. "Derek I saw you calling earlier but I couldn't take it right then… What is it?"
"The county… The county closed my care home down Mike! We have been driving around to every care home in this town the whole day." He cleared his throat. "Mike… You know my care worker and daughter Jessa. And the children are Kim," He nodded to every person he spoke the name of. "Belle, Xavier, Michael, Alfie and Jeremy." He looked up at Mike again. "And if there's no room here. Then the children will get chucked out on the street…"
So, the names of the children who will be coming into the story now are all mentioned- Sofia and Yazzy comes in later in the story. And there's also head care worker Derek Kent, and his daughter Jessa Kent, they're portrayed by George Clooney and Debby Ryan.