"Kenny…" Mike wasn't going to wait for the answer. "…Let's go into the office."

"But Mike." I was jumping from one foot to the other. "I need the toilet." Mike looked as if he was doubting but then gestured for me to just go. But with a meaning look and I promised him I'd come straight to the office before I had to run.

At any other time I would have tried to drag out on everything as much as possible not to have to face Mike and whatever he was wanting to say. But I knew he wasn't going to tell me anything I hadn't been able to tell myself already. And I just wanted to get it over as fast as possible.

"Do you have any idea of what people have been through for your disappearance? Do you have any idea of all the people that have been worrying and searching for you? Did you even give any of your friends or family a second thought? The police from several different cities have been called and this Scotty- guy have been put in jail waiting in court for having something to do with your disappearance? In case he would have kidnapped you or have something to do with anyone who did? What were you THINKING?"

No way Boo! Do not kick or whatever you're doing right now since you probably don't have legs yet towards my bladder so I will have to go to the bathroom for the second time in like five minutes because then Mike will never let me go and… Hold it! Hold it!

"Kenny? Answer me? Say something!"

"I think I just wet myself."

Suddenly it seemed like every single sound had disappeared from the face of the earth and with my head lowered I could only barely spot enough to see Mike get up and leave the room. So embarrassed that I silently wished for being able to just stay here, right here, very silently and very much forever!

"Hey." Johnny had come in and with May- Li on the other side they more or less pulled me up. "It's okay. Come on… Get up from there." I didn't look up but Johnny tugged my arm again. "Come on." May- Li had let go but with Johnny still holding onto my arm he steered me out of the office and into the hallway which was unusually empty, they had probably forced away everybody anyway and- for some reason weakly I supported on Johnny while May- Li walked into the bathroom to put the shower on.

"I am so freaking embarrassed!" I said. Oh yeah, that was after both Johnny and May- Li had left the bathroom and May- Li was just leaving some new clothes. "And I bet everyone's gonna know about this and I'll be forever known as the fourteen year old at the dumping ground who wet herself."

"Don't worry." May- Li answered me with the door too little opened for anyone to see through. "Here at the dumping ground happens so much mad stuff everyone will have forgotten about it tomorrow. Oh and you probably should know. But Mike was going to call up that care home you lived at."

"WHAT?"

Okay, there was nothing I could do about it now and… I could probably give Mike a lecture for it but he was probably right for doing it anyway so I guess… Honestly everything was so confusing I barely knew up from down.

I knew the day that mum would come, whatever care worker she would have with her would obviously have been driving all night. Even though Mike could just as well have been someone lying he had told me that the care worker were getting straight into the car and then driving and by the morning I was sitting at the top of the stairs.

"Hello… Mike…" I heard Mike greeting them.

"Patrick."

"Mike Milligan."

"Joanie LaRusso."

I didn't need to stand up and look down. I knew who Patrick was. He had worked at Sunshine since I was four. His dark blonde hair was put up in a ponytail, his eyes were grey and he barely every got angry. When he did he usually just silent and glared at you in the exact way he did when I stood up and he spotted the movement.

Already before mum could see Patrick could. And his grey eyes seemed to glare at me so bad it made shivers go through my spine even though I had looked away and to mum pretty much right away. And I didn't have to wait for long until I decided to just step out and mum saw me.

"Kenny? Where have you been?"

"Who are you?" When mum came over to hug me I quickly stepped away and tried to save some time and I looked around to the others who had gathered around us. "I have no idea who she is… Get away from me. You creep."

Mum's bottom lip started trembling but I didn't mind and without any further notice I turned, pushed Bailey and Jody out of the way and ignoring mum's shouts after me when I rushed up the stairs and up into the attic.

"YOU COME BACK HERE RIGHT NOW KENNY. YOU COME BACK HERE KENNEDY JOANIE LARUSSO."

I just continued to ignore her and as soon as I came up into the attic I walked further in than what I had before. So well there I sat down behind some boxes, hugged my knees and wondered what on earth I was going to do when someone came up here.

"Kenny."

Geez Mike! Couldn't I have gotten five minutes?

"I don't know if…" Mike came and sat down next to me. "… I have made any right choices since you came here. I should have found out more about where you came from. From you of course because in some way I would have gotten you to tell me whether you liked it or not. I should have made calls and made whatever arrangements… everything for things to turn out better for you. But here we are and from what I can see it… you have to go back."

"I know… Doesn't mean that I want to!"

"I know… and the worst decision I made since I don't know how long was to talk to you like that. I should never have said those things and they were nothing but unfair… now… when we can talk calmly to each other… did you run away when you find out you were pregnant?"

"Yes."

"Did that Scotty help you?"

"Yes, but only because I asked him to."

"Did you want to run away for getting some time to yourself to figure out what you want to do with everything?"

"Yes."

"Did something happen that blew everything you had not planned as soon as you came here?"

"Yes." I answered and thought back to whoever had stolen all my money and then decided to tell him everything. "As it says in the paper… And some things you could probably tell only from meeting my mum… My name… is Kenny LaRusso. Yep. My last name is the same as that karate kid. I'm fourteen years old. I'm from Oaklee close to the Welsh border line. I've grown up in a house filled with people with different types of brain damages and…"

I couldn't bear to go on. I don't think I had ever told anyone this before. I had never had to, in Oaklee everybody knew anyway. But here in Newcastle, and in the dumping ground they didn't and I knew I had to. And even though I must have known how, I wasn't so sure how I would continue.

"…And your mum is one of them."

I looked up at Mike. There were so many things I wanted to tell him right and then that I could only feel but couldn't have put in words if I babbled through the whole encyclopedias. So I didn't, I just sat there hugging my legs and let Mike put his arm around my shoulders.

"Yes."

I'm not sure for how long we just sat like that but for the first time in so very long and everything in all of that silence I just felt like somebody- Mike understood me. He just knew… he just knew everything. All of that that I couldn't put in words.

"So…" Mike started at last and I knew what that meant. "…Are you ready?"

Mike still held his arm around my shoulders while we walked through the house and found mum sitting in the office with a chocolate biscuit and didn't seem to have looked up since I saw her last. Patrick was standing right behind her with a hand towards the back of her chair and glared meaning to me while mum looked up at me.

"Hey mum."

I heard a few gasps from behind me. Everybody that had not been reading the paper would have had no idea where I actually came from and here it came and it probably was what none of them would have expected- who would have expected it anyway?

I closed the door behind me to shut them out, after May- Li went to get them away from listening from the other side of the door while I sat down right by mum and tried not to get emotional. At the same time while I tried to figure how to start everything before mum started it for me.

"Why did you run away like that? I have been very worried for you and so have all of your friends and all of my friends. I was most worried though. I'm your mum and you should have told me where you were and..."

"Mum, be quiet and let me answer and… Well… I guess there wouldn't be a point with lying to you. You'll find out sooner or later anyway and once again wonder why I didn't tell you… you know when you were having me. I know you were pretty scared yet excited. You were happy because you would have a baby of your own but scared because you didn't really know how everything would turn out."

"But I had you and I knew you were perfect."

"Listen to me mum… you know that guy Jace? Jason Dericks?" Mum nodded. "You know for a while he was my boyfriend? Well… we did some things and now I'm gonna have a baby…. And I was really confused and didn't know what to do. So I thought that I needed to get away from Sunshine and from Oaklee for a little bit so I could do a bit of thinking and figure out what I was going to do."

"Did you? Couldn't you have asked me first? I would have let you go and then I wouldn't have been so afraid something had happened to you."

I shrugged, knowing way too well that mum would probably never have let me go like she said. But I didn't want to take up the discussion with her and didn't answer. And on the part whether I had decided what I wanted to do with myself and Boo, well… I wasn't so sure!

"Will you come back home now then?"

I shrugged, I didn't want to leave this place but I guess I didn't really have a choice. And I'd gotten myself into all of this mess so there was no one to turn to, nowhere to hide and nowhere to run that would get me out of it.

"I'll just go and pack my things."

I went upstairs and into my room without waiting for an answer and then grabbed my phone. It wasn't a lie that I was just as addicted to the Internet and of Facebook as everybody else at this matter of time. And it had been frustrating knowing that I couldn't get on because my friends would see I was and everything would be blown up. But now, when I was going back to Oaklee anyway I did and right away my phone started buzzing with one message after the other asking where on earth. At the end there were seventy three of them so instead of replying to them all I just went on my page to answer them all at once.

So, hey everybody. Kenny here. Sorry for scaring you all like that. I'm fine, I so to say chose to disappear. If anyone wants to talk more I'll be back at Sunshine from tomorrow morning.

I sighed, chose to disappear- I wouldn't have minded staying disappeared for a bit longer. Or forever. With that thought still in my head I put my phone in my pocket and the one box with stuff that I had and turned to go downstairs.

"Hey." Before I had had the time to take a single step Johnny appeared in the doorway. "Let me carry that." I couldn't gather enough strength to protest against him. So I handed it over and while he steadily carried the box downstairs I silently followed and looked around at the others who were waiting around the hallway.

Passing Kim I just glared to her. But let the glare fade when I saw her glaring back and tried to give her a slight smile that must have ended up in something looking like a halfhearted grimace. Whatever had happened to that girl- it had to be something bad. And I wasn't going to make it even worse with not forgiving her.

They followed me outside, well. I wasn't looking back and they were still all silent but I could hear the sound of their footsteps even though I could tell they were trying to keep as quiet as possible. And just as Johnny put the carton in the back of the car and Patrick stood up from leaning back against the car, while mum tried and talk to me my friends- including Faith came over.

"Bye Mo." I gave the younger boy a big hug and he handed me a card. That I opened right away when I could tell it was full of glitter. "Floss and Harry helped you making this?" Mo nodded. "Okay well. If I give you two more hugs can you give one of them to Floss and one of them to Harry." Mo nodded and I leaned down slightly to be able to hug him. "And one for Floss, and one for Harry. Now…" I gestured for Mo to go inside again while I turned to Faith, Trenton, Mike and May-Li.

"Well…" Faith hugged me. "We'll meet again someday… I hope we do at least and until then you better call and you better do it often." We let go of each other and I nodded while Faith was still holding my hands. Then let go and took a step back while I took one to the side.

"Well…" Trenton handed me a small note written on. "Facebook and email in all honor but… Snailmail have got its charm hasn't it? Promise you'll write." Trenton's voice almost broke and I hugged him tightly. "I love you Ken."

"I love you too." I still held him tightly and the last word wasn't more than whispered before I had to let go and turned around to May- Li. Hugged her tightly but couldn't get to thank her. "And… Mike." Here I didn't even mind keeping it whatever and flew straight into his arms and hugged him tighter than ever. Mike seemed to be as close to tears as I was but just rubbed my back and then held me a small post- it- note as well.

"You can always call or… show up… or anything." I pushed the note down into my pocket. "And don't hesitate. Even though it's in the middle of the night or Christmas day or anything. Just call." I nodded and tried to keep the tears away. "And when Boo is born you better send some pictures." I nodded again and hugged him tightly one more time. "Okay now…" Mike gestured towards Johnny who still stood by the car. "Time to go kiddo."

Mike patted my shoulder one more time before I turned to Johnny as the last person. Which was followed by several seconds of a thick, awkward silence while both of us wondered about what to say next.

"Wait a minute. I just gotta go and get something." Johnny told me before he disappeared into the house and out of my house. He was back quickly. But in that short moment I had had the time to wonder about how on earth I would make it without him- or anybody else here. Even if I wanted to know how on earth I would.

"Here." Johnny handed me his blue Nike hoodie that he had gotten from inside the house. "I want you to have it."

"But…" I held the blue fabric in both of my hands and felt over the soft while trying to hand it back to him but he just pushed my hand gently back towards me and I couldn't come up with any protests. "…Thank you." I barely noticed, but Mike and May-Li were making the others go into the house and Patrick was more or less forcing mum into the car while I and Johnny just stood there. I was just looking down on the blue fabric and didn't know what to say- Johnny seemed to be doing just about the same.

"Kenny…" I sighed when mum's voice was heard from inside the car. "Are you coming?"

"Well…" Johnny had heard it too. "I guess it's time then." I shrugged, then. Without I could have thought about hesitating moved the shirt into one hand and hugged him tightly with the other one. And while I couldn't help to let a few tears fall from my eyes I just held on tighter and sniveled into his shirt.

It was several seconds before I as much as loosened my grip with my arm around his necks and moved away just a little bit- but little enough to hold his hand. And feeling his touch even if it was ever so little still made shivers like electricity go through my body before we leaned closer again and his lips met mine.

If I could have made this my first kiss I would have. Things, feelings with Jace had never been real. It had never made me all tingly and warm as Johnny's made it. And while Jace had just made me want to pull away with every touch. With Johnny, I never wanted to let go.

But I had to.

And as I got into the car and went away with my palm held to the window as if I wanted to reach out and grab it all. Keep it with me, and I could see Johnny first walking by the car and then running as we came onto the street until he couldn't run fast enough anymore. At that point he stopped and I sat turned in my seat watching as he became smaller and smaller and smaller. Until Patrick turned around a corner and I couldn't see him anymore. But still I sat turned hoping to catch a glimpse of the dumping ground just one more time.

I wanted to cry, wanted to scream. Kick, hit and anything it would take to make them take me back to the dumping ground. I wanted to trash everything I had, everything I had ever had and everything I would ever have. Do everything for them to take me back to the place that had ever felt like home. But I didn't.

Instead I just sat there, watching the streets of Newcastle passing by. And realizing this would probably be the last time I saw it all. At least the last in a very long time. And I hated it all…

I wanted to go home!

So. Jenny kissed- finally! YAY! And Kenny's going back to Sunshine and then a bit of a cliffhanger for you all. Wow there are a lot of feelings going on in this chapter. And before even leaving Kenny wishes she could go back to the dumping ground. What will happen? Well, you'll have to wait and see. I hope you liked it.

Jace's last name have been changed. The reason is that I realized that even if I didn't know it right then I got his last name from the guy who pretended he was friends with Amy-Leigh Hickman calling himself Jake White. So when that wouldn't stop bugging me I changed it.

Random fact

I don't know how realistic that wetting oneself line is- but ninety nine percent of why I kept it with one percent that I had the idea and didn't know what else to do with it was because I'm trying to move out of my comfort zone and I guess I succeeded. Bye!