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I've written two oneshots since I updated this last. Both of them are written for Epilepsy/ seizure awareness. There's body shaken in the life unexpected fandom. And one fast kind of slow motion in the Jessie- one. The latter was written in memory of Cameron Boyce. With him the world lost a fine and talented young man who could have made a lot of change that we will never know about. May he rest in peace.

And now that's over. Here's the new chapter and I hope you like it.

"Hey." As usual, I sat on my bed with my drawing pad when Johnny came knocking on the door. "It's a bit crazy here. How would you fancy getting out?"

"Crazy? You mean any crazier than what Ashdene Ridge is usually like?"

"No. I just wanted an excuse to try that new restaurant a bit away… and I don't want to go on my own so… pizza? My treat."

"Am I supposed to say no to such an offer?"

"No, I was hoping you wouldn't… we could take the bus, I think it's leaving soon."

"It's only a couple of blocks… I'm not made of glass even though I'm as big as an hippo."

"You look beautiful."

"I'm still as big as an hippo and you know it's true… We can just walk to the restaurant it's not that far."

"If you're sure…"

I glared at him, and walked past him down the hallway and to the stairs where Harry and Michael sat waiting…

"Are the Campbell's here?" I asked, Michael turned his head and looked up and happily nodded at me, looking through the windows in the walls to the quiet room I saw the whole family along with Mike and May- Li, in difference from it having been only the parents only. "Are they here for a visit so you can meet them all?"

"We'll be going to theirs for the weekend." Harry was smiling too but Michael seemed so excited he could barely sit still. "I can't wait. But they needed to talk with Mike first and they're talking forever… oh. Now they're coming."

Michael stood up and was jumping where he stood before he hugged his future foster mum tight.

"Come on then." Mr. Campbell ruffled in his and Harry's hair with each hand. "It's time to leave. Finn? Can you help Michael with that bag?" ….

I had to think that the Campbell's really did have a lot of kids already. There was a boy about seventeen or eighteen, and then- obviously younger than him four girls, sisters.

And I couldn't help but notice the way Robert looked around all of them with pride shining from his eyes.

"I almost forgot." Margo searched for something in her bag and pulled up a wrapped gift. Michael looked up on first her and then Robert almost as if to ask if it was for him. "Go on! Open it."

"Awesome." Michael ripped the paper off to find a slow globe, of a similar kind they had given Harry, but this one with silver glitter in it and another animal- I couldn't quite tell which one from where I stood. "There's a dog inside of it instead of a giraffe that Harry got? How did you even know that Harry likes giraffes and I like dogs?"

"I don't know." Robert shrugged. "I guess we just had a feeling. Now, have you got everything boys?"

"Not quite." Harry felt his pockets. "I just forgot something in my room."

Harry turned and ran back up the stairs, Michael on the other hand turned to me and then looked down on my belly instead of in my eyes.

Well, he was sweet if nothing else…

"Bye little Boo."

Michael both caught me by surprise and not when he leaned forward and slightly touched my shirt with his lips. As if he was kissing the baby he then looked up on me, smiled and almost ran out the door. Passing Margo who looked understandingly towards me.

"Excuse me for asking… How far along are you?"

"Six months." I answered her, not sure if I should say more or not. But then of course she had been pregnant quite a few times. "And I suppose you've had your fair share of people kissing your belly. Am I right?"

"Ugh." She moaned. "You think? Being tired of that is like ninety percent the reason I decided not to have more children after Ruby. I never got too big with any of the others but I was huge when we were having her. I couldn't stand doing that once more."

I couldn't help but laugh. It was clear both of these two loved all of their children to bits and it could never have mattered what problems she did or did not have during waiting for them.

"Three more months of this and I'm already something in a middle of a hippo and a penguin…"

"It only gets worse." She pulled up her phone. "Do you want to keep in contact with someone who's been going through what you're going through now."

The thought struck me for the billionth time that I hadn't intended to keep Boo with me once he was born. As every time I felt my stomach clench and my heart breaking- but then Margo Campbell didn't know that and she had, like she said been through what I was going through.

"And I love that you call him or her little Boo."

"Him."

"Come on mum." One of the middle girls nagged from the door. "Let's go home."

"I'm coming Ava… Here." She got my number and sent me a text. "Just send me a text message or call me up and I'll get what you want to talk about… Yes Aves. I'm coming now."

I might have lived for a while now in a room full of children. But I couldn't ever have imagined what their lives would be like with Margo and Robert and all of their children and now Harry and Michael in the middle of it all.

Maybe it was that wondering that span around in Johnny's head too. Because after we left the dumping ground we walked in silence for a whole block before I said something at last. Something I had been wondering since the beginning of this.

"Do you think I'm doing the right thing? The Campbell's have loads of kids and now Michael… they are great people.. And now I'm giving up mine…"

"I get that you want to… give up the baby for adoption right now. I mean, you're fifteen and his dad is an asshole who didn't understand how lucky he was he had you… and also… After everything you've gone through with your mum… I'm just wondering. If you see yourself ten, fifteen years in the future. Maybe thirty years from now. Do you want to have a child with a dad who cares for it- maybe even children? Or do you want to… just be yourself and live a perfectly good life without children?"

"But do you think I'm doing the right thing?"

"I can't say you are or not. The Campbell's are the Campbell's, you are you and I am me. And I think you've figured the way that will be the right for you. And it's not like you just give birth and then leave him to whoever wants a baby, because I know you won't. But you'll make sure that he can get the best chance of getting a good life possible…"

I didn't answer. Maybe I knew that Johnny was right, I knew he was right but still there was that voice in my head that told me that I was just choosing myself that I couldn't take care of a child that would be better off with me.

Johnny kept talking as if he knew I couldn't stand the silence in my head trying to fight that voice.

"I think I'd like to have children. Maybe not ten or something like that. But I'd like to have maybe two of my own and then fostering or adopting a number of them. Sorry Kenny. I shouldn't have asked that. It's most certainly none of my business."

"You're my boyfriend." I said with a weak smile. "I might just not answer and hate you if I didn't think you asked okay questions… and FYI… I think I'd like to have children… But I'm just not ready for it yet." I looked to my side and to Johnny. "But I just want to make sure that when he's born he will right away come to his forever home and not ever have to worry about having to move… I'm not saying there's anything wrong with a place like the dumping ground but…"

"It's okay." Johnny gave me a smile. "I get it. If I had a kid then I'd want the same. And I wouldn't do the same for my kid as my mum did for me. I like the dumping ground but there's just that constant wishing that there's something for you once you're sixteen and have to move out. And before that there's always that wish to get fostered- you should have seen the way I and Tee were desperate to get fostered when we were younger."

I had heard some of that. But it was it him and Tee or him and what he'd made Tee do.

There was one more important question.

"Will you help me… I mean. You can't help me but… will you at least stay by my side… will you be there and make sure people are… are… are as they should be."

"Yes." Johnny stroke my hand with his thumb. "Of course I will…" He smiled at me. "But are you okay?"

"Yeah… my feet are killing me."

They really were…

"What happened with that pizza?"

Sometimes one just had to let go of the most important conversations to move into something more every- day.

"It's right over there…" Johnny said, but my feet and back were aching more and more for every step. And somehow Johnny just knew without me having to tell him. "Come here." Without anything else he lifted me up bridal style and "Maybe going back we should just take the bus going back even though it's not that far."

"Yeah." I mumbled leaning my head against Johnny's shoulder. "It's just that I had my fair share of bus rides because of this pregnancy."

Awwww, I love Kenny and Johnny together. I hope no one minds it's so much of them only because there's going to be more in the future now they live in the same house again.

Random fact

I can't say I liked this chapter very much. But it sort of needed to be here too. So this is what you get today and I hope it won't be too long until my writer's block is gone and I can write chapters that don't suck.