Thanks to Ally R. Swan for reviewing.

Hello i'm so sorry for not updating in months. From the middle of November on I've been working on oneshots, and several of them I'd started in 2012/2013. Anyway. Now those are finished. And now, as we're in 2021 I'm getting back to working on my stories as I usually do.

If there'll be a long A/N for this chapter? I just wanted to say that since the last chapter I finished a story and started some. And I'm not going to list them, if you're interested in them you can just go on my profile. But I just want to brag some about aaaaaaallllllllll the oneshots I've written.

-Different son, different dad- Cobra Kai
-The forgotten kitchen towel- O. C.
-Give my heart a break- The dumping ground
-Crazy famous wolfmoon- Harry Potter
-Second chances I never thought I'd have- Julie and the phantoms
-Secrets kept- Harry Potter
-Without you I'm in pain- Twilight
-A wealth bigger than all- Ghost whisperer
-All I want for Christmas- Annie (In memory of Ann Reinking and Albert Finney)
-Some things change, some do not- Julie and the phantoms
-Parents and children- Julie and the phantoms

I was a bit obsessed with Cobra Kai for a while. I posted a few other oneshots before I posted the last chapter of this as well and I started one multi-chapter-story.

Well, now we're here and happy new year. Hopefully 2021 won't be as bad as 2020.

Before the one I decided should be able to adopt Boo I was pacing back and forth in the quiet room. Mike had called him up and he was on his way…

"Kenny." Mike came into the room. "He's neither going to arrive any earlier or later if you keep pacing. I understand that you're afraid now. But…"

Mike was interrupted when there was a ring on the doorbell.

"I'm gonna be sick."

"Kenny." May-Li went to open the door and Mike stroke my arm when I did really feel like I was going to get sick. "It's okay. Deep breaths… Hello…"

At last, Matt was the one at the door and May- Li led him into the quiet room. Matt looked at least as nervous as I felt and Mike took a step back.

"I'll stay if you want me to. But maybe I and May-Li should wait outside…"

"Yes…" I nodded. "It would actually be good if you could wait…" Mike and May- Li left the door closed and I was looking at Matt and shaking from head to toe.

"So…" Matt hesitated. "What did you want to talk to me about? I know there was something but I don't know… maybe you'd just like it if I brought Trenton with me or…"

Matt kept on talking nervously and didn't seem to know what to say. And I was trying to find something to say nervously and shaking from head to toe.

At last I sat down in the corner of a couch and Matt on the other side of it.

Maybe, in five minutes I'd be able to speak…

"You see…" I had to start at last. "I was wondering. And I was wondering about who should adopt my Boo… And I met people and none of them felt right… They just weren't. And I kept having you in my mind all the time. And even though it would be you and not Ashley. And then with Trenton as a big brother… I want you…"

Matt was stunned and when I realized he wouldn't be able to say anything at all I had to go on.

"…I want you to be the father of Boo… I want you to be able to adopt him. I want you to be his dad. There's no one I could meet or imagine to be a better family than you and Trenton."

At last I had to stop talking. And for several minutes none of us said anything, the more thoughts were in my head and I was guessing there were a billion thoughts spinning in Matt's head too.

"You…" At last I just had to say something. "…should say something soon… I know you wanted to adopt a baby with Ashley… And I know you wanted to adopt someone older and adopted Trenton… I don't even know if you'd want to go through with this. "

"Kenny, I…"

When he hesitated just for a few seconds I felt my stomach twist itself again.

If he didn't want to do this I couldn't ever force him.

But if he did then I was certain Boo would get the best dad, brother and aunt and maybe we'd all come to a deal where I could know him. And where he could know me.

"Don't you want to do it anymore?"

"If I want to… That's just… Oh Kenny. This means way too much for those words. Or for any other words for that matter…"

And I wasn't so sure what to feel.

I knew I'd have to give Boo away. There was no way for me to take care of him. And somewhere inside of me I just knew that Matt was the best one I could have ever chosen.

Different memories from my whole pregnancy filled my mind…

"You should know Ken." Matt started talking at last. "That whatever part you want in this baby's life then you are still his mum. And if there is anything you want or need for him then you have to speak up. And then it doesn't matter whatever I think…"

Just as he said it one of the nights of this whole pregnancy was there. One when I was still Jane Doe for anyone in Pottiswood, after all of that morning sickness.

The letter I had written…

"I know I call him Boo…" I started talking at last, knowing I'd have to talk at last. "But it was never his name. I could just never know what you or anyone thought about it."

"What name is it that you'd like for him?"

I was quiet for a long while. One name was so final and would matter for the rest of his life…

"Elijah." I said at last. "Ever since I was little I thought if I ever had a son his name would be Elijah Christopher. But then, since you're going to be the parent you need to have your say… I never exactly planned to have a child before I was old enough to care for one."

All of a sudden Matt started laughing, not very high and not very much, but he laughed, rubbed his chin and suddenly stood up.

"Christopher…" He said, but I wasn't so sure if he said it to me or to himself. "Christopher… that was my grandfather's name… He's been dead for almost ten years now but when I came out to him he was the first to accept my homosexuality… God. Out of all thousands and thousands of names there are out there…"

"Would you rather make Christopher his first name?"

"Actually no." Matt sat down again. "I want it as his name but I think he prefers to have his own name. And at least you don't want a name like Hubert or Albert." I couldn't help but laugh. "And Elijah Dunn doesn't sound too bad to me. Does it sound bad for you?"

"No it doesn't." I stroke over my belly, somewhere inside of there was a new little life. "Elijah…"

As if he knew we were talking about him Elijah kicked from inside of me.

"Kenny." Matt reached out and took my hand. "I might be his father. And I am so honored you've chosen me to do this when it's the most important choice of your life… but you will always be his mum. Nothing's ever going to change that."

I took Matt's hand harder and pulled it down until he held his palm against my belly where Elijah was kicking.

"I know…" Tears were streaming down my cheeks still. "…But I've never been so sure I've made a right choice."

I apologize to anyone names Hubert or Albert. I don't dislike those names I promise- they're sweet. They're just typical names that not many people like.

Random fact

There you have it. Now you know.

As you might have seen in the title of this chapter this was dad number one. Will there be a second dad? Third?