A/N: I debated making this into two chapters, but I didn't want three full chapters of just flashbacks. Regardless, I love this smutty, empowering chapter immensely, so I hope you do, too! Enjoy!

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"long story short" by Taylor Swift
Misery
Like the war of words I shouted in my sleep

RPOV

21 Years Old

"Can vampire-humans get drunk?" Quil asked as he plopped down in a chair next to me in Jacob's garage.

I shrugged, looking up from the textbook for my women's studies class. "No clue."

"Well, you're technically 21 today, right? Why aren't we throwing you a party to find out?"

Jacob popped his head out from under the hood of a car he was working on. "Because I don't feel like being the dog food for eight leeches." I frowned disapprovingly at his slur – or what I considered a slur, anyway.

"Vampires, not leeches. Sorry," Jacob corrected himself with an eye roll before continuing his tinkering.

"You're whipped, Jake!" Quil yelled.

I focused my withering glare on Quil instead.

"Oh, lay off," he bumped my shoulder playfully. "I'm whipped, too. We all are, and none of us are complaining about it. Trust me."

Jacob cleaned his hands on his jeans then walked over and kissed me. He went to stand up, but I held his face in between my hands and kissed him again.

"I like being whipped, babe, don't worry. It's not a bad thing." He grinned, causing me to roll my eyes.

"You're the ones that are 'whipped,' as you call it," I said to both of them before turning to Quil. "That term is nothing more than a way to make a woman feel bad for a man actually treating her decently. Stop being so pretentious when this being 'whipped' thing is of your own doing, you imprinted prick."

Jacob doubled over with laughter as Quil's cheeks reddened. "You walked right into that one, bro."

"Shit. Sorry, Nessie," Quil softened. "I didn't mean it that way."

"It's okay. Just do better. Claire and all the other women in your life deserve it."

"Smash that patriarchy, girl. Keep letting me know when I'm a prick because God knows it's far too often." Quil held out his fist to me. I bumped it with my own, knowing that our little spat was over.

Jacob finally calmed his hysterics as he knelt back down. "God, you're incredibly sexy when you put my brothers in their place… But when you're empowered and outspoken like that? It does things to me that I can't even begin to describe."

It was my turn to blush now as Jacob pecked my lips before standing back up.

"Bleh, that's my cue to leave. I'm serious about the party. Let me know if you change your mind!" Quil jumped up from his chair and headed for the door. "Talk her into it, Jake!"

As Jacob strode back over to the car, he called over his shoulder, "I'll never talk Nessie into anything. It's up to her!"

Even though this was a small situation, I smiled. Jacob never pushed me to do anything. He never decided things without my input, and he always, always respected my opinions and decisions. He knows how important it is for me to have some semblance of independence with the very overprotective vampire family I was born into.

When Quil was gone, I set my book off to the side and walked over to Jacob. He was messing with something under the hood of the car again. I wrapped my arms around his waist from behind, resting my hands on his chest and my cheek on his back. He dropped his tool and turned around.

I touched his face and showed him how he kissed me a second ago – it was too quick. I wanted him to kiss me more.

He grinned before grabbing my hands and towing me to the corner of his garage where he had a makeshift shelf. "Do you trust me?"

I looked at him skeptically. "Of course."

He put his hands on my waist then lifted me up and set me on the shelf. I gasped as his arms circled around me and his lips started peppering kisses on my neck. I wrapped an arm around his back and took one hand into his hair. His warm lips felt heavenly against the sensitive skin on my neck. I opened my legs, wrapped them around his waist, and used them to pull him closer to me.

His lips moved up to my jaw, cheek, and, finally, my lips. He kissed me softly at first, but the kiss became more urgent as I tightened my legs around his waist. Jacob kissed my other cheek and moved down to kiss the other side of my neck. "Jake…" I murmured breathlessly.

"Mmm," he responded into my neck. "Fuck, I love when you say my name like that, Ness."

He kissed his way back up to my lips and melted his body into mine even more. I felt the hard bulge in his jeans press against my soft center. A moan escaped the back of my throat as I kissed him more intensely, everything becoming a needy mess of lips, tongues, and teeth.

I let one of my hands trace the planes of his perfect chest before resting my fingers on the waistband of his jeans.

I silently showed Jacob how I wanted to touch him, and how I wanted him to touch me. I let my fingers travel a little lower.

He pulled away much too soon, even when I used almost all my strength to try and keep him close. This was the most intense he'd ever let one of our make out sessions get. When I asked him about his hesitation in our physical relationship recently, he just said he wanted us to take things slow.

But that was the opposite of what I wanted.

"I have a birthday present for you," Jacob murmured.

"Is it more kisses? Because that's all I really want." I pouted as I looked up at him.

He laughed and pecked my lips one more time before breaking away from my arms and legs. He opened a drawer to the side of where I was sitting. He pulled out a little velvet jewelry box and handed it to me.

I eyed the box hesitantly. Jacob didn't have a ton of extra money lying around to spend on something as frivolous as jewelry.

"Just open it," he said with a chuckle.

I lifted the lid and marveled at the dainty necklace inside. It was a thin, silver chain with a simple pearl pendant. It was beautiful, and it looked old.

"It was my mom's," Jacob answered before I could ask.

I beamed. "It's absolutely beautiful… But what about your sisters? They wouldn't want this?"

"They already have the things they want," he assured me as he took the box from my hand. He carefully took the necklace out. I turned to the side and lifted my hair for him to fasten it in place. The way his calloused, strong fingers felt against the back of my neck sent a shiver of desire down my spine.

"Since your seashell necklace broke, I thought you needed a more sophisticated replacement."

"This is perfect, Jake. I love it so, so much. Thank you." I carefully pinched the pearl with my index finger and thumb.

He grinned. "Do you want a traditional 21st birthday party like Quil suggested? We will do whatever you want to do."

I scrunched my face up. "No. I like our normal birthday routine of suffering through Alice's party then walking together on the beach. Maybe I'll get some more kisses like that one from a few minutes ago…" He laughed then positioned himself between my legs before bending his head down to kiss me.

. . . . . .

We stuck with my birthday tradition. I was going to have to learn some tricks for getting out of Alice's shenanigans. But, truth be told, I didn't think I would win that battle no matter how hard I fought. Everyone in my family loved the parties Alice had for me. I hated being the center of attention, though; I felt like I had to put on an act.

It was as if everyone in my family was always scrutinizing me. I felt all this pressure to be perfect for some reason, probably because everyone fawned over me all the time. Well, except for my Uncle Emmett and Uncle Jasper; they knew I could hold my own and didn't need anyone's protection.

"Where's that head of yours, birthday girl?" Jacob asked, squeezing my hand. We were walking along the shoreline of First Beach after the party. The sun had set, and it wasn't raining for once. There were actually some stars twinkling in the sky above the water.

I sighed and, through our linked hands, I showed Jacob the evidence of everyone in my family always watching my every move, like I was a porcelain doll that was going to tip over and shatter at the slightest gust of wind.

It was exhausting to feel caged and put up on a pedestal. I could take care of myself, but everyone looked at me like some sacred, rare gem that needed protection at all costs. I didn't want to be sheltered or locked up anymore.

I just wanted to be me.

Not that I even knew who I was.

I was never really given the opportunity.

As I continued to show him the proof, he yanked us to a stop, turned toward me, and pulled me against his insanely warm, incredibly toned chest. I gasped involuntarily at the sudden physical contact. He put a finger under my chin and guided my head back, so I was looking up at him.

"You never have to pretend with me. You know that, right?"

I nodded earnestly. He was the one person I never had to hide anything from. I could just be me, and that was always enough for him. My heart swelled with appreciation for Jacob.

My Jacob.

I loved this man more than I could ever express.

I stood on my tippy toes and pecked his lips. His arms circled around me as he held me in place and pressed his lips to mine once more.

And again, just like earlier in the garage, I was completely at this man's mercy. All thoughts disappeared from my mind and all the surrounding sounds fizzled away. My only focus was Jacob's lips and his body that was pressing into my own.

Jacob's hand traveled up to cup my face as he deepened the kiss, causing me to let out an involuntary moan that was hiding in the back of my throat.

Being so absorbed in my intimate moment with Jacob, I hadn't been aware of my surroundings until I felt a large hand, that wasn't Jacob's, grip my shoulder roughly from behind.

That was mistake number one - distraction. My Uncle Jasper would've scolded me for my careless oversight.

I acted solely on instinct alone. I pushed Jacob away from me, whirled slightly to the side and thrusted my elbow up into the unidentified person's nose. They wailed and hunched forward, giving me perfect access to their gut as I thrusted my knee into it a few times. They fell to their knees, and I stepped in front of them, preparing to send a punch into their jaw. I drew my arm back.

"Nessie, what the hell!" The person yelled, knocking me out of my instinctive trance. I was finally able to tap back into my senses fully, and I realized who was on the ground before me. I lowered my fist and dropped to my knees in front of my friend.

"Seth?" I questioned, reaching out to put my hands on his shoulders. "Oh, I'm so sorry! You scared the shit out of me!"

"I scared you?" He laughed as he gripped his nose tightly and snapped it back into place. I guess I broke it. Whoops. "You're the one that just went apeshit on me! Damn, you're quick!"

"Don't sneak up on people like that if you don't want to get hurt," I snickered. "What are you doing here?"

"I saw the two of you walking and I was just coming over to wish you a happy birthday." Seth hadn't been at my party earlier because he was running patrol.

"Well, I hope you learned your lesson about trying to scare me," I laughed. "But, seriously, are you okay?"

"After resetting my nose, I'm pretty sure my fractured ribs will be healed in a couple hours. Remind me to never get on your bad side." He chuckled again and shook his head. "Yet another reason why you're Jake's imprint."

My brow furrowed in confusion as I stood up from the sand. I turned around to find Jacob wide-eyed, with his brows raised and lips parted. He wore an expression of admiration that made my cheeks flush.

"What?" I asked somewhat self-consciously.

A huge, beautiful grin took up half his face as he strode the few steps back toward me, wrapped me in his arms, and pressed several quick kisses all over my face as he murmured, "That," kiss. "Was the," kiss. "Sexiest thing," kiss. "I've ever seen," kiss. "In my entire life," kiss.

I pushed away from him with a shy giggle. He was still looking at me in awe, like he'd never really seen me before. "It's sexy that I beat up your brother? I don't think Seth feels the same way."

I turned to look at Seth as he stood up. "Don't sweat it, Nessie. But, like I said, don't ever put me on your shit list, please."

"What did you mean a second ago when you said, 'another reason why I'm Jake's imprint'?"

"Imprints are thought to be a person's complete and total equal, their corresponding half that makes them a better version of themselves… You being able to bring me down like you just did?" Seth shook his head. "Well, only a few people can do that and two of them are standing next to me right now."

I smiled triumphantly as I turned back to Jacob. He wore the proudest expression I'd ever seen in my life.

I never considered imprinting in that way before – Jacob and I being complete and total equals… I was just as strong and skilled as the Alpha of the wolf pack because we were mates? That's why he imprinted on me – because we were each one side of the same coin? My heart swelled for the second time tonight.

I'd never been given an identity like that before. I felt like everyone in my family wanted me to be a damsel-in-distress.

But I wasn't.

And Jacob thought it was sexy that I could hold my own, that we were equals, that we made a perfect, proportionate team.

Jacob wrapped an arm around my waist again and kissed my head. I could still feel the pride radiating off him.

"I might be your Alpha," he said with a nod toward Seth. "But she's mine."

25 Years Old

I reached up and ran my fingers through Jacob's beautifully thick, russet-colored fur. He crouched down and leaned into my touch as I scratched behind his ear. I let my hand travel all the way down his body as I walked down toward his tail. He let out a small whimper that I translated as pleasure.

I walked back toward his head and planted a kiss on his wet nose. He nuzzled his head into my neck and licked me, making me giggle. He made a noise that sounded like laughter and licked my neck one more time before I stepped away from him since it tickled. He made a sound that I translated into laughter.

"Most of my family is leaving for a hunting trip tonight. I have the cottage all to myself, and… I want you to come stay the night with me." I said to him.

He snorted and squinted his eyes, as if to say that he didn't know if that was a good idea. He looked toward the trees, and I knew he was debating on going to phase so we could both talk.

I reached forward and ran my fingers through the fur on his neck again, knowing that would stop him. He leaned into my touch, completely distracted and subdued.

"Please, Jake…" I whispered, knowing he was unable to say no to me when I asked that way, especially when he was in his wolf form.

He whimpered, but I smirked. "Come over around 8:00. I love you." I petted his head and kissed his muzzle before turning and quickly running away from him, back toward my house.

. . . . . . . .

Jacob knocked on the cottage's front door later that evening. I skipped to the door and threw it open immediately. My family left about an hour before, so we were completely alone. Only my grandparents stayed behind, but they were at the main house. I was careful to stay away from my dad as much as possible today as I planned my night alone with Jacob.

I grinned as I saw the smirk on Jacob's face. "You're shameless, Nessie."

I reached for his hand and pulled him inside as I laughed. "I just know how to get what I want."

"Yeah, you sneak up on me in the forest when I'm working, scare the shit out of me, making me think something is wrong, then you –" I closed the door then turned around and looked at him, causing him to pause mid-sentence. "Look at me like that," he finished in a whisper as he swallowed and nodded his head toward me.

I took a deep breath. "Look at you like what?"

"I don't know," he laughed nervously. "Suggestively," he decided.

I felt myself blush as I smiled and walked closer to him, reaching for his hands. I searched his eyes for a second then began towing him toward my room. "C'mon."

I closed the door behind us. I wasn't about to wait any longer for the night to start. I'd been waiting far too long for this moment with Jacob. The only light in the room was from the bright moonlight that was pouring in through my open window. Jacob's tan skin appeared even more beautiful with the subtle light gleaming off of it. I wondered what the rest of him would look like in the soft, subtle lighting.

We were standing a few feet apart. I slowly kicked off my shoes, and he did, too. Our eyes were locked in on each other as we both took the few steps forward to close the distance. I wrapped my arms around his back and tilted my head up. His lips instantly pressed into my own. The fire spread across my body like it always did. I felt my heart pound and my breathing become jagged. I deepened the kiss, sliding my tongue into his mouth. Our tongues moved slowly together at first, but their dance quickened.

I reached up and touched Jacob's face. I showed him how he made my body react when he kissed me this way – everything felt tingly, warm, and excited. I wondered what it would feel like for him to kiss new places on my body… Places he'd never seen or touched before.

"Mmm," he moaned against my lips before pulling away. He was breathless as he asked, "Is that really what this is, Ness?"

"What?" I asked, panting.

"Sex?"

I thought it was obvious, but with my hand still on his cheek, I showed us on my bed, slowly undressing each other, kissing every inch of each other's naked bodies before –

Jacob grabbed my wrist and moved my hand away from his face as he took a few steps back and turned away from me. He looked out the window pensively.

I felt myself get more nervous all of a sudden. Didn't Jacob want this with me, too? The last two years had been filled with make-out sessions. We'd never crossed the line into anything more, but we'd definitely been close many times.

"Jake," I whispered anxiously. He slowly turned to look at me after a few seconds. "Do you not want to do this? It's okay if you don't want to yet."

"Of course, I want to, Nessie," he took a step closer to me and reached for my hand. "I just want to make sure this is the right time…"

"Why wouldn't it be?"

Jacob laughed anxiously. "Well, I just want to make sure this is what you really want. We've never really talked about when the right time would be. I mean… It's okay for us to wait, there's no rush. But don't take that as me not wanting you. Because, goddamn, Nessie, I want you so bad… I just want this to be the way you want it to be. I don't want to pressure you, or –"

"Jake," I said, cutting him off. He was nervous, and it was, honestly, the most adorable thing I'd ever seen.

I reached up to hold his face and showed him how much I loved him and wanted this with him. I flooded his mind with every kiss, every touch, every memory over the past two years where I felt adoration, protection, and yearning.

So much damn yearning.

Being married first, or waiting for some magical fairytale time, was archaic and something I had absolutely no interest in. I was never going to want him more than I did right now.

"I want you too, Renesmee. God, you have no idea how much." His breath became jagged. He paused for a second then huskily said, "I want every inch of your body to be covered in my scent, so the entire world knows you're mine."

A rush of fire flooded down my spine and pooled at my center as his words echoed in my ears. I swallowed. "I want that, too."

He quickly reached forward and lifted me into his arms. I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist as his lips urgently pressed into mine. He started walking toward my bed where he laid me down gently before climbing on top of me. The way Jacob's body felt pressed heavily into mine was indescribable… The heat continued spreading through my body like wildfire as Jacob took his mouth down to my neck. He kissed and nibbled my skin slowly, his warm breath giving me goosebumps.

I reached down, grabbed handfuls of his shirt, and yanked up. He sat up briefly as I threw the shirt to the floor and ran my fingers up and down his smooth back muscles, his insanely toned, strong arms, and washboard abs.

Jacob's lips traveled back up to mine. He held my hips firmly then quickly flipped us over, so I was on top of him. My heart started thumping unevenly again as my center landed right on top of the bulge in his jeans.

Holy shit.

I quickly lifted my own shirt up and over my head before leaning down and attacking Jacob's lips again. His hands ran up and down my back. I tugged on his bottom lip with my teeth, something he recently told me he liked. He moaned, which made my underwear feel incredibly wet and uncomfortable.

I kissed down to his neck and peppered him in fevering kisses and nibbles. I let my hands travel down his arms and squeeze around his muscular biceps – the arms that were incredibly strong yet held me so tenderly.

Jacob's hands rested on my bra clasp. I showed him an image of him taking it off and massaging my breasts with his hands… and maybe his mouth.

I felt my cheeks flush when I heard Jacob take in a sharp breath at the scenario I showed him. He cupped my face and guided my head back up so he could kiss me. "You showing me what you want me to do is unbelievably sexy," he whispered against my lips.

"Yet my bra is still on." I observed with a playful pout.

He chuckled then pushed up, so we were both sitting. I was sitting in his lap and my legs were still straddling him as he took his lips back down to my neck. He ran his fingers up and down my back before slowly letting his fingers rest on my bra clasp. He finally unhooked it and guided the straps down my shoulders and arms. He tossed the garment to the side before wrapping his arms around my back and kissing my collarbones. I let my head and neck fall back as his mouth slowly kissed down in between my breasts. I arched my spine, inching my chest closer to him.

If my heart could explode, it would. I was gasping and squirming as Jacob's warm breath finally moved toward one of my breasts where he planted soft kisses. I rocked my hips forward into his, and I moaned at the friction it caused. His mouth finally made contact with my nipple. His tongue gently flicked it up and down a few times.

"Jake," I shrieked as I rocked my hips forward again and brought my head back up so I could watch him as he took my nipple all the way into his mouth and gently sucked. He kissed over to my other breast and repeated the same pattern.

I pushed him back down on the bed and kissed him with as much passion as I could muster. His hands cupped my breasts and massaged them lightly before he pinched my nipples between his index fingers and thumbs. I moaned against his lips.

Okay, we still had way too many clothes on, I decided. I reached down and started to unbutton and unzip his jeans. I scrambled down his body and tugged them down. I unbuttoned my own pants and kicked them off. I laid down on my back and Jacob crawled on top of me. His erection brushed against the inside of my thigh before rubbing against my center again. My hands were tracing up and down his perfect body.

He slowly started kissing down my body – my neck, shoulders, collarbones, breasts, stomach… He kissed all along the waistband of my underwear. His hands went down to my knees as he opened my legs wide. He scooted down even further and started kissing from one of my ankles, up to my knee, my inner thigh, and hip crease. He did the same thing on my other leg.

I planted my feet on the mattress and lifted my hips up for him to slide my underwear off. His fingers slipped under the garment and slowly slid it down my legs until I kicked it to the side.

Jacob sat up for a second and locked his gaze with my own before letting his eyes travel down my naked body. I felt myself blush at his scrutiny, but it wasn't in embarrassment or shame… It was just because I was excited for him to really see all of me.

Jacob's lips were suddenly connected to my own as he kissed me sweetly. "Renesmee, you are the most beautiful thing I have ever laid eyes on," he whispered before slowly tracing his fingers up and down my thighs.

I spread my legs and Jacob simultaneously kissed me and let his fingers explore my aching center. I ripped away from the kiss, needing more oxygen as I threw my head back against my pillow. My heart was racing, and I was probably panting in a very unsexy way.

Jacob nibbled my neck as his callused fingers moved slowly, tenderly, against the most sensitive part of me. He angled his hand, slipping a finger inside of me and used his thumb to circle around my sensitive bundle of nerves. Holy shit. The sensations made all my muscles tighten.

My hips seemed to gain a mind of their own as they started grinding against his magnificent fingers. Fire was building all throughout my body in the most overwhelming, all-consuming way.

Then his hand was gone, causing me to whimper.

"I need to taste you," Jacob said as he pecked my lips then shifted his body down on the bed. He kissed my inner thighs again. I rocked my hips up.

He unhurriedly kissed my outer lips, which caused me to tangle my fingers in his hair. Finally, he made contact with my inner lips as he peppered me with kisses before allowing the tip of his tongue to slowly lick me from bottom to top. His tongue swirled and flicked once it reached that throbbing spot near the top.

I threw my head back against my pillows again, arching my spine as I pushed my center more toward his heavenly tongue.

"Fuck," I murmured. I don't think I had ever said that word out loud before, but it slipped out unconsciously and was incredibly relevant to describe the sensation of Jacob being buried between my legs.

I heard Jacob groan after hearing the word. He continued to masterfully lick and flick his tongue. I started rocking my hips to the tempo he set with his movements. He slowly increased his pace.

I felt my body begin to build and tighten. The fire grew hotter, and the heat began to spread. I moved my hips quicker, and Jacob increased the speed of his glorious licks. He reached up with both of his hands to cup my breasts and pinch my nipples. That did it. All my muscles contracted before I flew over the edge of the cliff and the tingling fire took over my entire body.

"Jacob!" I shrieked. "Oh my… Uhhh, Jake… Jake!" I rode my wonderful orgasm to its end then collapsed into the bed as the flames slowly died down, and I tried to remember that I had control over my breathing.

Fuck, that was better than I ever imagined.

Of course, I'd experienced orgasms on numerous occasions from my own fingers buried between my legs, but it was different with Jacob.

Indescribably different.

Holy fuck.

We were not leaving this bed this weekend after that.

When I finally remembered how to open my eyes, Jacob's warm brown eyes were the first thing I saw as he leaned down to kiss me sweetly. That ignited another fire deeper inside of me. One where I imagined him filling me up, slowly moving in and out of me.

I reached up and touched his face – I showed him lying on his back before I took off his boxers and took him into my mouth. I wasn't really sure what to do, but I wanted to taste him, too.

He flipped us over immediately, eager to make my image a reality. I giggled quietly before kissing my way down toward his boxers. My fingers slid under the waistband as he lifted his hips. I tossed his underwear to the side and gasped. I glanced up at his naked body, taking all of him in.

Jacob was… stunningly beautiful – the more gorgeous thing I'd ever seen in my life.

He… He was perfect in every way imaginable.

I leaned down and stamped kisses along his generous length. I slipped the tip of his cock into my mouth and swirled my tongue there. I looked up at him, a little unsure of what would feel good for him. I silently showed him my uncertainty.

"Nessie… Shit," Jacob groaned above me. That was the sexiest noise I'd ever heard in my life.

"Trust me, you can't do anything wrong, baby. Just move your hand or head up and down," I swirled my tongue over the head of his cock again. "Or, fuck, keep doing that…Or, or do whatever you want."

I smirked at his incoherence from my lips being wrapped around him. I slowly let my mouth glide down. There was no way all of him would fit into my mouth, so I used my hand for assistance. I bobbed my head and hand up and down several times.

"Fuck, Ness…"

Damn, he tasted amazing. He let out another unintelligible groan that made the fire between my legs ignite again. I started moving my head quicker, but Jacob's hands gently rested on my face as he held me firmly to stop my movements.

"Come back up here," he whispered. I obliged and crawled up his body. He was still holding my face as he kissed me. I felt his erection in between my legs, lining up at my center. I rocked my hips forward and moaned against his lips at the bare contact.

Jacob flipped us over again, so I was lying on my back. He got up quickly and grabbed a condom I laid out on my nightstand. He must have spotted it earlier. I watched as he ripped it open quickly and guided it on.

I wasn't sure if it was really needed, but better safe than sorry, I decided. I only got my period two or three times in the span of a year.

Jacob was back on top of me within seconds. He used one of his arms to support his weight and the other tangled in my hair as he gazed into my eyes.

I'd never seen him look so vulnerable, so open and sensitive… It was like I could see all of him, and he could see all of me. My soul was weaving around his in the most unbreakable way.

"Ness, I love you more than anything. You are everything."

"I love you, too, Jake. So, so much." He leaned his head down toward mine. We kissed soft and slow.

I bucked my hips up toward his. He understood my cue and positioned himself at my opening before kissing me again. "We'll go slow… Tell me if you want to stop."

"I will," I said before grasping on to his hips and pulling him forward. I wanted him inside of me now. The ache was too overwhelming, and I wanted him to make it go away.

He pushed the tip of his cock inside of me, and we both gasped at the connection. He continued moving in at snail-speed. I winced and he stopped immediately, waiting for me to give him the green light to continue.

"Keep going," I whispered. "Go all the way in." He leaned down and kissed me before doing as I requested. I took a deep breath then pushed against Jacob's hips, urging him to pull out and go back in again. He did as I prompted, following my lead.

After a few thrusts, the pain dissipated, and pleasure began to slowly take over. It felt like our bodies were made to fit together in this way – two perfect puzzle pieces. I blinked my eyes open to look up at Jacob. I held his face as I showed him how this felt – like we were completely united, totally connected, our souls were sauntered together, we fit together so effortlessly.

"Oh, Ness," he whispered lovingly before melting our lips in a kiss.

I wrapped my legs around his waist and began meeting his thrusts with my own as I encouraged him to move at a quicker pace. I wrapped my arms around his back and dug my fingernails into his flesh. My muscles were starting to tighten again as Jacob thrusted me back up toward the peak of my glorious mountain.

Faster, Jake. I told him silently as I showed him how close I was. He immediately began moving in and out of me even quicker. I felt the muscles in his back tightening as his next thrust pushed me over the edge once again. I threw my head back as my spine arched, toes curled, and everything that wasn't Jacob melted away.

He pushed into me once more before he unraveled just a second after me. "Nessie, Nessie… Fuck."

He collapsed forward, burying his face in my hair, and nuzzling my neck. I hadn't figured out how to open my eyes or move yet. I focused on taking deep breaths.

I lazily reached up and ran my fingers up and down Jacob's back. He finally pushed himself up so we could look at each other. We both smiled before leaning into another kiss. Jacob slowly pulled out of me, causing me to gasp at the last sensation. He laid on his back and pulled me into his side, so I was laying partially on his chest. He wrapped both of his arms around me.

I reached up to touch his face. I showed him what our plan was going to be for the rest of the weekend – we were not going to wear any clothes. He was going to tell Leah that she was in charge the next two days. We were not leaving my bed. We were going to repeat everything that we'd just done, but in other ways. I wasn't going to take "no" for an answer.

Jacob chuckled before reaching for my hand and kissing it. "Yes, ma'am," he said before tilting my chin up to kiss me.

Still 25 Years Old (4 Years Later)

"I'm so proud of you, Ness!" Jacob said, coming up to hug me from behind and knocking my graduation cap off. I turned around, and he scooped me up into his arms and twirled me around like I was a little kid. I laughed.

We just got back to the cottage after my graduation ceremony for my bachelors' degrees. The rest of my family was at the main house. Alice insisted that everyone stay to help her decorate for the inevitable party she was throwing for me with all my family and friends – vampire, werewolf, and human. It was going to be quite the ordeal, unfortunately.

Once Jake set me down, I unzipped the graduation gown and tossed it on a chair. I turned around and pulled my hair to the side. "Unzip the back for me, will you?" Alice made me wear a dress under my graduation gown, and I was ready to change into something more comfortable. She would be pissed when I showed up to the party in jeans, but I didn't care.

Jacob reached forward and unzipped the back. He slowly slid the fabric off my shoulders and leaned down to plant kisses on my neck and bare shoulders. My heart started pounding as I turned around to face him. His lips went down to my collarbones as he moved the dress down a little further. My legs started to feel wobbly, but he wrapped his arms around me to steady me.

He slid the dress all the way down until it plopped onto the wooden floor. I stepped out of it and kicked it to the side. Jacob's mouth was suddenly on my bare breasts as he peppered them with kisses. He took one of my nipples into his mouth, swirled his tongue, and sucked. I moaned as my underwear became soaked.

"I noticed your hard nipples earlier in this dress," he mumbled as he moved to my other breast. "And I couldn't wait to take it off of you if I got the chance."

"I'm definitely not complaining," I panted. "But we should probably hurry – I don't know when they'll be done decorating."

He picked me up and pressed his lips to mine in a passionate kiss. He laid me down on the bed then quickly began undressing himself. Goddamn, was I ever not going to find this man insanely sexy? I was never going to get enough of him.

As he was kicking off his boxers, I sat up on the bed and scooted so I was sitting on the edge. I swiftly took his hard cock into my mouth and started sucking him.

"Fuck, Ness, uh…" Jacob moaned. I pushed him back so I could kneel on the floor at a better angle. I took my mouth down to his balls and slowly licked and kissed them, too.

Jacob's hands clasped my upper arms as he pulled me up and pushed me back down on the bed. He reached down and peeled my underwear off before quickly spreading my legs. Jacob was the king of taking things slow, so this was a somewhat rougher side of him that I was thoroughly enjoying.

He pulsed a finger inside of me. "You're always so wet for me, Renesmee."

I shivered at the way my name sounded on his lips. He added another finger and pumped them in and out a few times before he took his mouth to my inner lips. He flicked his tongue up toward the most sensitive part of me.

"Jacob…" I was just starting to build when he stopped. I whimpered as he reached for my hips and swiftly flipped me over on to my stomach. I gasped when he spanked my bottom.

Who was this Jacob!?

Not that I was complaining.

I heard him rip open a condom wrapper with his teeth and roll it on before reaching for my hips again and pulling them up, so I was on all fours.

"I usually make love to you, but today I'm going to fuck you, Nessie. Hard."

My breath caught in my throat in a wild gasp. Anticipation flooded through my body as I felt my center pool with even more heat, more desire, more need.

Jacob leaned over me until his lips brushed my ear. "Let me know if I hurt you, or if I do anything you don't like," he whispered huskily. I nodded in response, completely at a loss for words.

He stood back up, gripped my hip with one hand and positioned himself at my opening with the other. He didn't waste any time as he slammed into me roughly. If he wasn't gripping my hips, I would have fallen, or maybe flown, forward.

"Jake!" I shrieked. He had never been this… primal with me before; it was incredibly hot. He kept one hand on my hip and reached up to grab a fistful of my hair with his other hand as he continued his thrusts.

I was getting close already. I let out another moan. Jacob pulled all the way out of me, and I almost screamed at him in fury. He laid down on the bed next to me, on his back, and pulled me up to straddle him. I frowned and reached to touch his face to show him how frustrated I was. He knew I was close both times and stopped. Why!?

He chuckled. "Trust me, babe."

I reached down to position him at my center before I rocked my hips back for him fill me up. I leaned down to kiss him as I began to pump my hips, thankful that I was in control now. I sat back up, rested my hands on his chest, and continued riding him. He reached up and palmed my breasts before pinching my nipples.

"Hold on tight to the headboard." Jacob ordered. "Don't let go." I did as he instructed.

He held my hips firmly then began thrusting up into me roughly, similarly to how he had when I was on all fours, but this position was hitting that specific spot better, and…

Fuck.

If Jake pulled away again when I started getting close, I was probably going to start crying in frustration. I needed this release from him terribly after the teasing.

"Come for me, Ness," Jacob muttered. "Let go, baby. Let me see and feel you come on my cock."

His words alone were enough to be my undoing.

Faster and faster, building and building…

Until I finally burst.

But this wasn't the typical bursting. It was so much more intense than normal.

"Jacob, Jacob… Holy shit!" I yelled as I rode my glorious orgasm. "Oh my god… Fuck!"

My entire body became jelly on top of him as I collapsed forward, trying to regain my right mind but failing miserably.

Jacob flipped us over skillfully. He grabbed my legs and propped them up, so my feet were near his shoulders. He slowly pulled out and thrusted into me again.

I was finally able to open my eyes, and… Fuck.

He was so hot, and I was building up again at just the sight of him. Was that possible?

He went so much deeper with my legs up, and I stifled a loud moan by biting my lip. I watched Jacob hold on to my legs and pulse in and out of me while his face contorted with his own pleasure. His muscles were tense and glistening with sweat.

He slammed into me roughly several more times, causing me to unravel again just as he found his own release, too.

He pulled out of me and collapsed on his back. Once I remembered how to open my eyes, I scrambled over and propped my elbow on his chest as I looked up at his face, waiting for him to come down from his high. I reached up and ran my fingers through his hair.

He finally blinked his eyes open and noticed me smirking at him. "What?" He asked, amused.

"You will do that to me again… It was…" I had no good words to describe the experience.

"Ms. College Graduate can't even form coherent sentences after being thoroughly fucked, huh?" He chuckled loudly. I swatted his chest playfully but couldn't contain my own laughter either.

"You'll be lucky if I allow you to ever touch me again after that comment." I made a theatrical attempt to pull away from him and get up, but he circled his arms around me and held me firmly against his chest. I wasn't complaining.

He leaned his head down to kiss me before muttering, "You're going to be crawling back to me after that party tonight, begging for me to take you from behind again."

I blushed and immediately felt my arousal return. I knew he could scent it, so I couldn't even disagree with him. Jerk.

"That's what I thought," Jacob chuckled again. "I think that can be arranged. Don't worry."

I rolled my eyes. "I think it's you that will be crawling back to me, you lovestruck puppy dog."

"Oh, Nessie darling," he said mockingly. "There's no doubt in my mind about that. I will never get enough of you."

He pecked my lips before I glanced over at the clock. "As much as I want to lay here in bed naked with you the rest of the afternoon, I think we have to get ready for the party."

He reached out to hold my face before leaning forward to kiss me sweetly. "Okaaaay," he finally said with an exaggerated sigh. We both smiled then slowly got up to get dressed. Jacob grabbed his clothes and went into the bathroom.

I pulled on some clean underwear and jeans. I was contemplating what shirt to wear while running my fingers through my messy hair when Jacob walked back into the room. When I turned to look at him, he had a concerned expression on his face.

I walked over to him immediately. "What is it, Jake? What's wrong?"

He tried to respond, but I couldn't hear him.

His lips were moving, but no sound was coming out of them.

I reached up to shake his shoulders. What was happening!?

"Jacob! Jacob, what's going on? What's –?"

I was cut off by the smell of blood.

There was blood everywhere; it was pouring in from the window, seeping in through the ceiling and door.

I was standing in a pool of blood up to my knees while Jacob screamed my name over and over again in terror. That I could hear.

Jacob was suddenly in a cage, trying to break out of it to get to me, but he couldn't.

No one could get in, no one could help me.

I was alone.

I was trapped.

It was my fault the blood was there. I was the cause of all the suffering.

I collapsed onto the floor, closed my eyes, and hoped for death to take me as I drowned in the blood.

But then someone was carrying me and there were trees flashing by as I looked up at the cloudy night sky.

A bright white light shined in my eyes and there was excruciating pain in my abdomen, causing me to scream…

Present (3 Years Later)

I felt someone place their hand on my arm and gently shake me. "Hey, Nessie," the voice said.

My eyes snapped open. I sat up quickly and looked around me. I was shaking, and my heart was racing. I was totally disoriented. I reached up and rubbed my eyes, realizing that my cheeks were wet. I scrubbed the tears away then looked to my right to see who had woken me.

"Hey, I think you were having a bad dream or something," Steven, the passenger sitting next to me on the plane, said. "Are you okay?"

No, I'm not fucking okay, I wanted to answer grimly.

"Yeah, sorry," I rubbed my eyes again. "I was having a nightmare, I guess." Well, it was a beautiful dream, actually… Until the end.

Leave it to me to fuck up something beautiful.

"Here," he handed me an unopened bottle of water.

"Thanks," I muttered as I unscrewed the top and took a long swig.

"We're about to land in a few minutes. The captain just announced our arrival."

I turned and stared at Steven, wide-eyed. "What! It's already been eight hours?"

"Yeah," Steven laughed. "You were out the entire time. You must have been exhausted."

I shook my head. "Yeah, I guess you're right." I took my headphones off since my music had stopped playing anyway. I shoved them into my backpack with my book.

"Hey, I wanted to give you my number in case you're wandering around Panama City tonight, unsure where to go for dinner or whatever. I know the area really well. We could get a drink together or something if you want." He handed me a small piece of paper with his phone number.

Ugh, that was the last thing I wanted, but I took the paper from him politely and shoved it into my backpack, too. "That's nice of you, thanks… I need to get checked into my hotel and stuff then I'll let you know."

I was never going to talk to this guy again, but he seemed nice, and I didn't want to crush his ego.

He smiled. "I look forward to hearing from you later then."