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A/N- this is my first attempt at a Phantom phic, so please don't be too hard on me… here we go
(Inside Christine's mind) "In sleep he sang to me, in dreams he came, that voice which calls to me, and speaks my name, and do I dream again, for now I find the Phantom of the Opera is here, inside my mind."
It has been nearly a week since that horrid mob went after the Phan- Erik. Erik is his name, how could I call him anything else, other than Angel? For he still is my angel, my Angel of Music. Anyway, it has been nearly a week since he let me leave with Raoul. It has been nearly a week, and still his voice haunts me. He still calls my name every night. Is he still alive? Even if he is not, he is still there, singing songs in my head.
"Sing once again with me, our strange duet, my power over you grows stronger yet, and though you turn from me to glance behind, the Phantom of the Opera is there… inside your mind"
How I wish I could go back to him, to sing with him… did I really just think that? He has been on my mind for nearly a week. Raoul says that Erik (though Raoul calls him a monster) is dead, so I am free of him. Raoul says that it is time I forget about the opera and all that happened there. But how can I ever forget? How can I forget my past? Raoul wants to get married, and he doesn't understand why I keep putting it off, and I don't understand why either, all I know is that I feel incomplete without Erik… I mean the opera.
"Those who have seen your face, draw back in fear, I am the mask you wear," "Its me they hear" "Your spirit and my voice, in one combined, the Phantom of the Opera is there, inside my mind"
His face, once I thought it to be hideous, but now, it is my one source of comfort. His sprit lives on inside of me, and I am still connected to him. I love hi- wait… I love him? No! I love Raoul, not Erik! Then why on earth is it not Raoul's face that I see, or Raoul's voice I hear in my head? Why is it that all I see is Erik, all I hear is Erik, and all I can think of I Erik? Can it be that I do love Erik and not Raoul?
"In all your fantasies, you always knew that man and mystery" "Were both in you" "And in this labyrinth where night is blind, the Phantom of the Opera is here inside my mind"
I know now that I truly do love Erik, I wish I knew if he was alive. How am I going to tell Raoul that I love Erik? He hates Erik. I want to go back to The Opera Populaire to find him, to make sure that he is all right. But even if he is alive, he probably loathes the sight of me; I left him alone. But I have to go back and see him. Though if he hates me, I would die from heartbreak. How could it have taken me this long to figure out that I loved him?