Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Seed
A/n: School going okay. Though I fear my grade in Home Economics will be lowered down a notch (coughidontreallypassassignmentsasmuchasishouldcough). But I did unexpectedly well in my Filipino exam. I was on the top fifteen of Filipino grades. I couldn't believe it! I'm never good in Tagalog and this happens? Oh well.
Summary: Meyrin thought she was the happiest girl in the world. She had the perfect boyfriend, Athrun Zala. But one day her gal pal pushes her into digging up his history, or in other words, finds out more about his ex. Athrun has always told her she'd never want to know about his past. And he'd be right.
Raison d'etre
>3 An Intentional Pain Delivered
"W-what?" A black-haired man clad in graduation attire stared dumbfounded at his girlfriend or rather ex-girlfriend in her terms.
Meyrin nodded. "I'm sorry, Shinn. But both of us have different goals in life. We belong in different paths and if we stay on one path together that would only make us forfeit our dreams and ambitions in life. I'm sorry."
Shinn shook his head in disbelief. "You're really serious about this?"
"Yes, I am."
"Are you sure that's what'll happen to us?" He asked her with a fierce look in his eyes.
Meyrin swallowed. "I'm certain."
Meyrin bowed her head at him. "I'm sorry, Shinn." She turned her back on him and started walking away only to freeze when Shinn started his opinion.
"Meyrin, what if you're wrong!" There was a tint of anger in his tone.
"What if we were meant to be together! What if we're destined! What if this is the biggest mistake of your life!"
…biggest mistake of your life!"
…biggest mistake of your life!"
Meyrin sat up immediately on her bed. It was a dream or a nightmare or whatever.
She touched her forehead and realized that dream had taken her to her college graduation. Where she had broken up with her past boyfriend, Shinn Asuka. Beads of sweat formed on her arms and back. With a sigh, she pulled up her blanket and tried to fall asleep again.
The next day, Meyrin and Cagalli spent time together. They'd go shopping, eating and talking about their lives. Though Cagalli was truthful, Meyrin was lying under the false pretenses of the name Luna.
But Cagalli was happily oblivious. And though it shouldn't be…Meyrin was happy spending time with her. They spent two weeks together.
And it seemed the closer Meyrin was to Cagalli, the closer Meyrin was to Athrun.
One Tuesday it was lunch and it was spent by Meyrin at a restaurant with Fllay Allster who said she had exciting news.
"Why do you seem so happy?" Meyrin asked politely. Fllay was wearing pink pants and a white tube top.
Fllay grinned. "Well…you'll have to thank me first."
"Thank you?"
"Okay! Now I can tell you! Well…guess who I had to do a pre-interview a couple of hours ago?"
Meyrin tried to think. "Famous fashion designer, Stellar Louisser?"
Fllay slapped her forehead. "No!"
Meyrin blinked. "Then enlighten me please."
"Okay. I had a pre-interview with guess who? Meer Campbell!"
Meyrin's mouth opened to say something but couldn't, she had to register everything first in her mind.
"But—how?"
"Well, I called her up last night. I got my secretary to find the number and I told her about this show we're doing about beautiful women and that we'd have to do a pre-interview and she bought it."
Meyrin didn't know what emotion she should be feeling right now.
"And I was able to dig something up to. I'll show it to you."
"Show it to me?"
"I secretly placed a hidden camera while we were doing the interview. Now…" She pointed at Meyrin's salad. "Finish your veggies and I'll give you dessert."
Something uncomfortable hit Meyrin in the stomach.
"Err…how will this help me?"
"It will help a lot."
"So it must be hard having to deal with paparazzi, I should know." Fllay commented to Meer who sat in a red armchair opposite to Fllay's. She wore a white miniskirt and a pink midriff.
Fllay wore red shorts and a yellow halter shirt. Both females' legs were crossed.
Meer sighed as if it meant exhaustion. "Tell me about it!" She flipped her pink hair.
Fllay then gave her, her commercial smile.
"Do you confirm on the stories about your health issues?"
Meer blinked. "Oh, you mean how easily I throw up? It's really nothing serious, it just happens during emotional breakdowns and such like when I'm upset."
"You mean like a bad relationship?" Fllay offered.
"Well yes, like that."
"Speaking of relationships, tell me more about your previous boyfriends?"
Meer laughed. "Well, I don't know if I should."
"Oh just one boyfriend! One that you…well let's say took from another?"
Meer's face showed confusion. "Is this going to be on the show?"
"Don't worry. This is just out of personal curiosity. I just want to know more intimate details of the most famous supermodels of all times."
Meer seemed to buy the cheap flattery.
"Well I do have one."
Fllay smiled with anxiety. "Shoot."
"Well you see this man happened to belong to my most hated agent in the company"—
"Cagalli?"
"Yes…wait, how did you know?"
"You mentioned that name before we did the interview."
"I did? Hmm…oh well. Anyway I flirted with him all night until we got in bed. He then told me how he only dated Cagalli for benefits"—
"—Benefits?"
"Money, traveling and most especially—sex. He never had true feelings for her. I had the room with a camera and I sent the video of my intimate escapade with Athrun to Cagalli for retribution."
"And then what happened?" Fllay asked.
"Well, she dumped him and I stayed with Athrun for a while. A week or two later Athrun got this voice message from Cagalli begging him to come back."
"Did Athrun call her back or something?"
"No! But he played it for me. We listened to her pathetic message of that blonde wench—begging and sobbing for Athrun to come back. Crying how incomplete her life is without him. She was pathetic! Athrun and I played and laughed at it all night!"
Fllay pressed the pause button.
Meyrin was utterly speechless. This was…despicable. How could Athrun do such a thing? In fact, this Athrun, Meer spoke of was far away from the Athrun she knew and loved.
Fllay took out the disc from her DVD and placed inside the casing. She then placed it on Meyrin's palms.
"Show it to her."
"…But this is too horrible, I'd be purposely hurting a friend."
Fllay sighed at her difficulty. "When you show this to her, Cagalli will hate Athrun for life."
Meyrin looked at the CD and sighed sadly. This was the lowest moment for her. She had been spending time with Cagalli for a couple of weeks and she felt a strong bond of friendship between them.
"And, Meyrin, once again."
Meyrin looked up to Fllay with tears forming in her eyes.
"She's not your friend."
Meyrin pondered, Cagalli was such a sweet person. She was really friendly and everything only there was one downside…she was in love with Athrun.
Meyrin knew what she had to do.
"And then what happened?" Fllay asked.
"Well, she dumped him and I stayed with Athrun for a while. A week or two later Athrun got this voice message from Cagalli begging him to come back."
"Did Athrun call her back or something?"
"No! But he played it for me. We listened to her pathetic message of that blonde wench—begging and sobbing for Athrun to come back. Crying how incomplete her life is without him. She was pathetic! Athrun and I played and laughed at it all night!"
"So…Athrun never loved Cagalli?"
"You got that right!"
"Stop it."
Immediately, Meyrin obeyed and hit the stop button. She looked silently at Cagalli anticipating for something. They said nothing as they sat on Cagalli's couch, where the TV was in front of them.
"Where did you—you get this?" Cagalli asked softly, sniffles being muffled by a hand over her mouth and nose. This was hard on her; Meyrin could obviously see it and she felt ashamed of herself for making her feel this way.
"A…friend of mine worked for this show and"—
"Okay, I understand." Cagalli stopped her. Suddenly, Cagalli stood up and headed out the door, Meyrin followed her.
They walked down the sidewalk for a good fifteen minutes without saying anything but even if words weren't said, Meyrin heard Cagalli's heart in deep anguish.
Cagalli abruptly stopped when Meyrin told her. "I should have never let you seen that."
The blonde turned around with a painful smile laced on her face.
"No, Luna. I appreciate that you did. If you hadn't then I would've stayed in this delusion that Athrun still loved me and that what we had was the greatest thing imaginable—but thanks to you, I've realized how stupid I was."
"You aren't stupid! Athrun is the stupid one!"
Meyrin watched how diamond-sparkling tears overflowed Cagalli's beautiful visage and then to Meyrin's surprise Cagalli hugged her.
"Thank you, Luna. Even though we've only met for how long…you've been the greatest friend to me"—Shortly after that were choked up words of sobbing that Meyrin interpreted to be the sadness overwhelming the blonde for what she thought was the greatest love was false.
When Cagalli let go, Meyrin was startled to see a cold glare from Cagalli's eyes.
"He's over there." She said in an audible whisper.
Meyrin blinked and looked to where Cagalli was looking. It was across the street and inside a small bar. By the window was Athrun Zala gulping beer wearing a sweater.
"Look at that stupid hair." Cagalli said trying to fight away the tears.
"Yes…it is stupid." Meyrin nodded.
They stared at the man they were both sadly in love with and let down by.
"I gave that to him."
Meyrin looked at Cagalli.
"I gave him that Haumea necklace." Cagalli said. Meyrin's eyes widened.
She recalled that day.
"Well… This stone is called haumea. It protects me and it hasn't failed me yet. I'd be lost without it."
"It must be VERY important if you say you'd be lost without it."
Athrun nodded. "It has a deeper meaning in it, too…" He mumbled.
"I told him the stone would represent me and that I'd protect him."
Cagalli…gave him that necklace. Meyrin repeated in her head.
"I wonder why he still has it when he claims he doesn't love me…" Cagalli sniffled.
A bitter laugh escaped from her.
"He's probably keeping it as a reminder of the person he made a fool of."
She turned to walk away.
"Cagalli"—
"This is exactly why…you shouldn't leave things in a complete mess and then starting over a new life…because you'll only end up hurt when you discover something about the past you never properly arranged."
She looked at Meyrin, the tears still not ceasing. "See you, Luna."
Cagalli walked away from the area, walking away to brush off the false things she had with Athrun.
Meyrin looked over at Athrun sitting in the bar. She had done it. She got what she wanted and that was Cagalli hating Athrun. She had won. But why wasn't she happy?
Her eyes looked sadly at the blue-haired man. She watched how lovingly he held the Haumea stone and then pressing the stone to his lips.
Meyrin was confused. She thought Meer said Athrun was a liar. Or was Meer the liar? But then again, Meyrin didn't care anymore. She didn't know who Athrun was anymore.
But most of all…she didn't know who she was anymore.
She had lied to a friend.
She had lied to herself.
Meyrin may have won…but it was a hollow victory.
A/n: Hmm…the chapters seem to get shorter. Oh well! Ta-ta!