Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Seed or the song: Goodbye my Lover by James Blunt.

A/n: So some of you guys are hoping for either Asumey or Asucaga…well like I said, why not watch the movie and see for yourself who ends up with who. But if not, one of you routing for one of the two possible pairings will be…sad, disappointed and such.

But by the way I'm writing this story everything seems obvious.

Summary: Meyrin thought she was the happiest girl in the world. She had the perfect boyfriend, Athrun Zala. But one day her gal pal pushes her into digging up his history, or in other words, finds out more about his ex. Athrun has always told her she'd never want to know about his past. And he'd be right.

Raison d'etre

4

>A man's perspective

"Another beer again, Athrun? I think you should stop." Lacus advised, as she took the empty glass of beer from his table and placed it on her tray. The pink-haiored girl had known Athrun way back since college. They used to go out together until they met their significant others.

Athrun smiled. "Please, Lacus? I really need some tonight."

A sigh from Lacus before she was obliged to follow, she looked at him worriedly first.

"I think you should really get some sleep but hey, you're the customer."

A couple of minutes later, Lacus returned to the table with another glass of foaming cold beer. No sooner had Lacus placed it on the table, Athrun swiped it off and drank it in one gulp.

Lacus took the seat across him on the table. "One of those days, huh?"

Athrun blinked. "What?"

Lacus smiled for a millisecond. "One of those days…where you regret some part of your life. It happens a lot here."

Athrun looked at Lacus sadly. "Is it that obvious?"

Lacus nodded. "Just a few minutes ago, I saw you kiss that stone around your neck." Athrun's immediate reaction was clutching on the pink red stone. "Err…yeah."

"Care to fill me in?" Lacus offered. "I'm more than just a waitress around here." Athrun looked at her thoughtfully and felt the intense pressure of his heart limit down. He exhaled deeply.

"I just can't get over it."

Lacus nodded while listening intently. "And what is it, exactly?"

Athrun blinked. "You see about my breakup"—

Lacus cut in with a gasp. "You and Meyrin broke up!"

Athrun shook his head fiercely at her sudden reaction.

"No! I didn't! It's the breakup with me and…" He trailed off with an unhappy look in his face. "You know."

Lacus understood. "I see. But shouldn't you be over it. It's been four months since you guys called it quits."

Athrun banged his fist on the table. "We didn't call it quits! She did!"

Realizing what he just did, Athrun looked around him to see if the other people inside were offended of what he just did. But saw that they were too drunk to care.

Lacus regained his attention successfully with a faked cough. "Athrun, it seems to me. You're still not over…her."

Athrun had a pitiful look on.

"I just don't understand, Lacus…We were so happy together! We loved each other so much and then I go out of town and come back and find her breaking up with me!"

"Why did she do that anyway?"

Athrun shrugged. "I don't know. She never told me. The thought of her in love with another male is driving me up the wall!"

Lacus tried to find a solution for him. "Have you tried talking to her?"

Athrun snorted. "I wish! But I never saw her since she closed the door out of my life." Lacus frowned at the gleaming wetness layering over his green eyes. Athrun immediately wiped the forming tears with his sleeve.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

"She's the reason why I have commitment issues now." He took a moment to stifle a cry.

"We had plans together. So far we had only accomplished one: to travel around the world. But before we could finish the list of things to do, she shuts me out of her life."

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

"Athrun, I see you still have preserved feelings for her." Lacus pointed out.

"I miss her, Lacus. I was so happy with her. Being near her were the best of my days."

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

The pink-haired girl looked sadly down the table. "Then answer me one thing, Athrun Zala."

"Yes?"

"What does Meyrin mean to you?"

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

Lacus could see right away that Athrun was hesitant.

"Meyrin is my girlfriend, I adore her."

"But not love?"

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

Another moment of hesitance took place in Athrun.

"I…I've been lately asking myself that."

And love is blind and that I knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

"Has your issue on an ex-girlfriend done something with you and Meyrin?" Lacus asked politely. Athrun interlaced his fingers together.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

"I well think it might have done something on my part." Athrun admitted truthfully.

He looked at Lacus with a confused and tired look.

"Lacus…lately I noticed being near Meyrin made me feel closer to that person of four months ago. It's like I can feel her in Meyrin's presence. I even smell her sweet papaya flower scent. That's why I can't help always hugging and kissing and making love to Meyrin these past few weeks because I feel like I'm touching and kissing my first love."

I know you well, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

Lacus shook her head. "You really were stabbed by cupid's sword."

"Eh?"

"Remember that poem you asked me to help you with in college? To impress a certain soccer player?"

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

Athrun blushed. "Yeah…I do. I can't believe you still remember that."

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

"As I recall…after you read her your poem, she fell head over heels over you. Then you two became inseparable."

I am a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

Athrun chuckled. "Yeah… Our relationship was deep. She was always bright like sunshine."

"And so was her hair." Lacus said. "Athrun…you really need to see and talk to her."

"I can't." Athrun responded. Lacus frowned. "Why not? Just because you can't find her, I'll help you look for"—

And as you move on, remember me,

Remember us and all we used to be

"It's not that, Lacus. It's just that what if I do find her and then I find she's with someone else. I'm scared if that happens."

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

"Well, we'll never be sure if that will happen or not if you won't take a risk. It's a fifty percent chance, Athrun. You know that."

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

Athrun shook his head sorrowfully. "It's too late anyway, lacus. So let's just drop it. I'm with Meyrin now. I'm okay with her."

"Athrun Zala!"

Athrun was taken back with the fierce look in his friend's eyes.

"How dare you say that? You treat as if Meyrin is just an alternative! What kind of person are you now!"

"Lacus"—

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

"I'm not finish yet! I have nothing against your intense feelings for the girl you loved but what offends me is you treating Meyrin like she's just something for you to feel special about."

Athrun protested. "She is special to me."

"Yet she compares nothing to how you feel about a certain blonde, correct?"

And I love you, I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

"I…I…"

"Athrun, the way I see it. You have to fix this. Yes, one person will be hurt. But it would be better than having to keep her long with no love harbored for her. It would be painful for both your parts."

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

Athrun felt his heart clenched. "I'm confused, Lacus. I know whom I love and I know whom I've wronged…but I don't know what to do regarding these two people in my life."

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

"You'll know, Athrun." Lacus told him with a straight face. "You'll know."

And I still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when I'm asleep.

"Lacus!" A brunette from behind the bar counter called. "Could you get some whiskey from the freezer? My hands are full."

"Sure, Kira." Lacus said, as she stood up. She looked at Athrun once more.

"You'll know, Athrun, I guarantee it, just like I knew that Kira was for me."

She took her tray and rushed to the counter.

And I will bear my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Athrun watched the interaction between the two. Kira came from a broken and poor family while Lacus came from a well off family. They were always looked down upon their families regarding with their relationship. And had problems, tons of them. But now, you couldn't see it anymore.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

He watched at how they laughed and smiled…and fondled.

It was a nice sight and Athrun wished he could do the same of what these two were doing…with the person he still loved with all his heart.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

Athrun came home and he did what he always did when he was all-alone at night.

Besides jacking up, he'd bring out a familiar box with him to his bed and stare at all the wonderful mementos of her and him.

I'm so hollow, baby,

He smiled at all the places they've been to and what they had gone through. He remembered her all to well.

But looking at it, all these things inside the box were just solid proof of things of what used to be.

I'm so hollow.

Athrun was faced with the torturing reality of everyday, everyday without her.

He got up from his bed and padded over to face a familiar wall outside his bedroom. He looked hopefully at a framed boomerang.

He sighed.

"I really do hope we're a couple of boomerangs."

I'm so,

He clutched his haumea stone and went back to his bedroom.

Athrun stared at his bed and imagined the time when he and the love of his life made sweet love on it.

I'm so,

As he did, he couldn't stop the tears from flowing.

He got into the bed, curled up like a fetus and cried beside his precious box.

He grabbed a picture of her smiling face and held it close to his Haumea stone and released his anguish.

He cried.

He regretted.

He wished and hoped…that they really were boomerangs.

I'm so hollow.

A/n: Sniff. This was a little angsty for my taste, but hey this story is genred under angst.

BTW Student Affair still needs a few more tweaking. You understand right?

(Gets stabbed with forks) guess not…